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The Government invested more than $9,000 million in strategic study scholarships
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The Minister of Education, Jaime Perczykannounced this Wednesday that The national government invested more than 9,000 million pesos in 36,000 Manuel Belgrano scholarships destined to "promote the admission, continuity and completion of undergraduate and graduate studies in strategic areas for the country's economic development," it was officially reported.
The minister headed the First National Meeting of the Manuel Belgrano Strategic Scholarshipswhich was held at the National University of San Martín (Unsam), in which more than 1,000 scholars and rectors of universities from all over the country participated.
"Scholarships are a right, but also a responsibility of study and receive for Argentina to be a fairer and more federal place," said Perczyk.
He also argued that the only way for our country to develop federally and in a balanced way "is needed an economic policy that invest in educationbecause that is the first educational policy".
"Scholarships are a right, but also a responsibility to study and receive so that Argentina is a fairer and more federal place." Jaime Perczyk
"The Manuel Belgrano Scholarships are part of a long-term country project that seeks to reverse the export model of raw materials without added value and move towards one oriented towards productive specialization," he said.
Regarding the importance of women in strategic development areas, she stated that "we need more engineers and technicians", and stressed that in the Environment and Food careers there is a greater presence of women, but that in the rest "there are more men" and that is where "we need more women because they give the career another approach and because it is a right ".
During the meeting, the awards corresponding to the 2022 call were announced -both for the new applicants and those who obtained the renewal of the scholarship- which reaches 36,000 students, which represents an increase of 50% in the assigned quota, according to It was detailed from the Ministry.
Meanwhile, the fellows of the Program participated in exchange stands and discussion tables related to the main topics of their professional fields.
The activities were chaired by specialists in technological linkages such as the executive director of the YPF Foundation, Ofelia Cédola; the director of the Invap Foundation, Verónica Garea; the Argentina 2030 coordinator, Daniel Schteingart, and the president of Unión Industrial San Martín, Norberto Fedele.
The Manuel Belgrano Strategic Scholarship Program promotes access, permanence and completion of scientific and technical careers in nine strategic areas: Food, Environment, Computing and Information Technology, Conventional and Alternative Energy, Gas, Logistics and Transportation, Mining, Oil and Basic Sciences.
"In this way, the training of professionals in these key sectors is reinforced, allowing the link between public universities, the technological-productive system and the labor market," concluded the educational portfolio.
CERES study analyzes the weight of tourism in the Uruguayan economy
Tourism activity will register an increase in the 2022-23 period,
"The FANB has been the backbone of peace and stability"
The President of the Republic, Nicolás Maduro, highlighted the role
Fernández asked to deepen the investigations into the causes involving Macri
Photo: TV capture. President Alberto Fernández called for further investigation
Kylian Mbappé spoke about the celebrations and dances of 'Dibu' Martínez in the World Cup final
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Grandson 132: Grandmothers of Plaza de Mayo announced the restitution of Juan José
Just one week after the restitution of grandson 131, announced on December 22 of this year,
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Neighbors and members of the Community Board signed a document against the measure. Photo: Camila Godoy.
Economía raised $320,000 million and closed a 521% refinancing in December
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Eliminating compliance barriers with Better Buying
Better Buying, an initiative that will collect suppliers' anonymous ratings of brands and retailers' purchasing practices, was introduced on May 12 at a multi-stakeholder workshop in Geneva, Switzerland. Set to become fully operational by 2017, the initiative will combine and score supplier ratings to publicly identify those buying companies with the best purchasing practices. C&A Foundation provided seed funds for Better Buying, and Fair Factories Clearinghouse is the technology partner.
"The purchasing practices of brands and retailers have been discussed for over a decade, yet the challenges for suppliers in accommodating demands for low prices and quick production continue," said Marsha Dickson, co-lead of Better Buying and Professor of Human Services at the University of Delaware. "By providing a way for suppliers to safely voice a wide range of concerns, we hope to create a race to the top as brands and retailers consider ways to transform their business practices in support of human rights in their supply chains."
"Better Buying will provide more detailed information for brands and retailers on a broader set of purchasing practice issues than has commonly been available in the past," commented Doug Cahn, principal of The Cahn Group and co-lead of Better Buying. "Better Buying is designed to showcase the buyers with better practices and help companies share and learn about ways to improve. We expect Better Buying to result in better business practices and better protections for workers."
The initiative began in August 2015 with background research on purchasing practices and ways to build a credible rating system, and has since been supported by face-to-face consultations with manufacturers in Bangladesh, Cambodia, China, Hong Kong, and Vietnam. Additionally, a survey among suppliers was conducted to evaluate the most important purchasing practices, and the willingness of suppliers to provide available data to rate buyers' on these behaviours. The recent workshop in Geneva identified refinements that can improve the value of Better Buying for all stakeholders. The next step, testing the methodology for inputting and scoring data, will begin this summer.
Some of the measures that suppliers will be asked to rate will include whether adequate time has been allowed for production, extent that actual orders vary from capacity booked, and whether contractually agreed payment and terms have been met.
"Ratings systems are becoming increasingly important to socially responsible investment firms and mainstream asset managers," commented Bennett Freeman, former Senior Vice President, Sustainability Research and Policy, Calvert Investments (2006-15) and Chair, Advisory Board, Responsible Sourcing Network (RSN). "Better Buying gets down to the level of core operational functions and has the potential to make a significant impact."
Learn more about Better Buying at http://www.betterbuying.org/
"We hope to create a race to the top as brands and retailers consider ways to transform their business practices in support of human rights in their supply chains."
Co-Lead, Better Buying Marsha Dickson
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Police recover drug video showing Toronto mayor
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The police chief of Toronto said Thursday that his office is in possession of a controversial video allegedly showing Mayor Rob Ford smoking crack.
Police Chief Bill Blair, speaking to reporters at police headquarters, confirmed that Ford is shown in the video, but refrained from commenting on the drug-use allegation except to say that it includes "images consistent with those reported in the press."
"As a citizen of Toronto I'm disappointed," Blair said. "It's an issue of significant public concern."
Blair said, however, that nothing in the video would allow police to "form reasonable grounds" to support a criminal charge against Ford.
The feisty mayor met briefly with reporters Thursday afternoon and said he is constrained from trying to defend himself.
"I wish I could come out and defend myself," he said in a raucous, two-minute meeting with reporters outside his office. "Unfortunately I can't. It's before the courts. That's all I can say right now."
He emphasized, however, that he would not step down from the post he has held since 2010.
"I have no reason to resign," the mayor said.
The crack video allegations surfaced in May when reporters from the The (Toronto) Star and the Gawker, a U.S. website, reported that they were shown the video allegedly by people associated with drug dealers who were seeking money.
In its initial report on the video, The Starsaid that a group of Somali men involved in the drug trade were shopping it for as much as $1 million.
The Star said two of its reporters viewed the video but did not pay any money and did not obtain a copy. The Star said it had no way to verify the authenticity of the video but said it appears to clearly show Ford in a well-lit room and apparently was shot during the past winter at a house in Toronto.
The newspaper said the video "appears to show Ford in a room, sitting in a chair, wearing a white shirt, top buttons open, inhaling from what appears to be a glass crack pipe." The newspaper said Ford appears to be "incoherent" and is shown trading jibes with someone off-camera.
Ford has repeatedly denied using crack cocaine and has said the alleged video does not exist.
On Thursday, the mayor yelled at reporters to get off his property before he left his house in the morning. He didn't respond to questions shouted at him.
On Thursday, Blair said the evidence will be "protected in court" until the trial of Alexander Sandro Lis, the mayor's friend and occasional driver, and will not be released. He said he had not yet interviewed Ford about it.
The mayor has been the target of a police investigation that witnessed and photographed him in meetings with Lisi, who has been charged with drug dealing, according to police documents released Thursday, the Toronto Starreports.
As a result of the police seizing the video, Lisi has also been charged with extortion, Blair said.
The Star has also published a photograph of the mayor with three men, including Anthony Smith, who was later gunned down on a city street.
The beefy, blond mayor has had several run-ins in the past with the media, including a confrontation with a Star photographer outside his house in 2012 and a flareup two years ago when he call 911 after a camera crew for a comedy TV team showed up unannounced outside his home.
In 2006, Ford, who is described by the CBC as a "right-leaning, law-and-order" politician, was escorted from a hockey game after a drunken ruckus in which he shouted obscenities at a couple sitting nearby. He initially denied being at the game but later apologized for his behavior, the CBC Radio Canada reported.
Contributing: Associated Press


597 Fish and Wildlife.-The various pertinent statutory provi- sions have been previously grouped and reviewed.555 Espe- cially relevant here is the Act of August 14, 1946, which ex- pressly provides for including, as "an integral part of the costs" of federal projects, the cost of planning for, and con- struction and maintenance of facilities for the prevention of loss of and damage to wildlife resources.556 In the case of navigation and flood-control projects, no pro- vision of the foregoing statute or of other relevant legislation requires or contemplates return of the cost of such facilities. And in the case of Reclamation projects, the 1946 Act expressly provides for allocations to both the "preservation and propa- gation" of fish and wildlife, and further that such costs shall "not be reimbursable."557 Recreation.-The diversity in applicable law is apparent from an earlier review of relevant statutes.558 In the case of an Army reservoir project, express authorization exists for providing recreational facilities.559 Return of the costs of recre- ational facilities is not required. As we shall later see, how- ever, the differing provisions for leases contemplate return of an indeterminate portion of such costs.560 There is no corresponding general authorization under Recla- mation Law. If recreational facilities be included as parts of individual projects, the costs apparently must be included as part of one of the purposes for which the law affirmatively pro- vides an allocation.581 HS See supra, pp. 327-330. 586 Act of August 14,1946, § 2, 60 Stat. 1080,16 U. S. C. 662. BW Id. But cf. the President's message vetoing the Vermejo Project, H. R. 3788, 81st Cong., 1st sess. (1949), printed in H. Doc. No. 316, 81st Cong., 1st sess., pp. 1-3 (1949), and in 95 Cong. Rec. 12093 (1949). The President said that allocations for fish and wildlife "are usually restricted in scope to the prevention of loss of and damage to wildlife." Here, the proposal was to allocate for the benefits resulting from the creation of a wildlife manage- ment and development area not required for the protection of existing wild- life resources. 558 See supra, pp. 331-334. 889 Act of December 22,1944, § 4, 58 Stat. 887, 889, as amended, 16 U. S. C. 460d. m See infra, p. 615. 681 See supra, pp. 194-196.


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Q: participate or be participating Which of the following is more idiomatic?

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*List out the groups you participate in.

*List out the groups you're participating in.

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List out the groups you participate in.

This sentence would be more appropriate when talking about participation over a longer period of time. E.g., when inquiring about groups that the listener regularly participates in.

List out the groups you're participating in.

This sentence implies that the participation is either more short-lived, or will take place in the future (present continuous for future arrangements).
Examples
If inquiring about special interest groups at a learning institution that hold regular meetings, I would go with "List out the groups you participate in."
If inquiring about a single-day event with several groups that the attendees can participate in, I would go with "List out the groups you're participating in."
If inquiring about groups whose activities haven't started yet, I would go with "List out the groups you're participating in."

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Canada can be a world leader in emissions reductions and renewable energy use, but only if its federal government decides to take climate change seriously, according to a new report. The report, published Wednesday by 70...[more]
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VisiCalc blev først distribueret af Personal Software Inc., senere af det amerikanske firma VisiCorp. Programmet blev senere udvidet med VisiWord og VisiBase. VisiCalc blev også udgivet til Atari- og Commodore-computere baseret på MOS Technology 6502-CPU'en ligesom Apple II. Mange danske firmaer har brugt VisiCalc på bl.a. Commodore-kontormaskiner.

Da IBM lavede deres IBM PC med MS-DOS – måske inspireret af Apple II's og VisiCalcs succes i erhvervslivet – kom der også en pc-udgave af VisiCalc. Imidlertid blev Lotus 1-2-3 hurtigt det dominerende regneark til pc'en, og det begyndte at gå dårligere for VisiCorp som krakkede omkring 1984.

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The other bug was that the posts navigation would get squished together on small screens. I took the opportunity to rework how all the posts navigation buttons appear, including when the Jetpack plugin's Infinite Scroll module is active.
Since version 1.0.15, all of Cover2's icons have been converted from Font Awesome to Nucleo. I was using the 48x48px icons, even though most of the icons were only being used at about a 24x24px size.
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Ripley Court offers a splendid teaching nursery, where children are welcomed on or about their third birthday. The majority of children start their Ripley Court journey here, and the huge advantage of being an integral part of a school is that the children can use the facilities and specialist teaching in the whole school. This means that they get, as part of their normal curriculum, Ripley Rangers Forest School, swimming, dance, music and French.
They follow the Foundation guidelines for development in Personal, Social and Emotional development; Communication, language and literacy; Knowledge and understanding of the world; Mathematical development; Creative thinking and development and Physical development.
We do not push children too early into reading and writing – but they do take their first steps here and some pick up on the phonics quickly and early.
The week is divided up into ten sessions, and parents are billed pro-rata. We then encourage children in Transition to move towards a full-time pattern before they join Reception.
Children must attend any five sessions per week as a minimum, although we encourage Monday to Thursday in the morning (because of the spread of activities) and one additional session of your choice.
Although they are part time, in fact many move quickly onto a full-time basis, and many parents do take advantage of Court Jesters, where children are looked after until 5.30pm.
"I've been constantly amazed by the variety and quality of the activities that have been going on. Mrs Michaels is clearly doing a fantastic job as head and we'll be sad to be moving on from the Ark."


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Coordinates: 40°34′34.61″N 74°8′41.42″W / 40.5762806°N 74.1448389°W / 40.5762806; -74.1448389Coordinates: 40°34′34.61″N 74°8′41.42″W / 40.5762806°N 74.1448389°W / 40.5762806; -74.1448389
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Staten Island is a borough of New York City. Fewer than half a million people live there, the smallest population of any of the five boroughs. Three bridges connect Staten Island to New Jersey, and the Verrazano-Narrows Bridge connects to Brooklyn. A passenger railroad runs along the south shore to the northeast end of the island, which is called Saint George. The borough has the same boundaries as the county Richmond County.
The free Staten Island Ferry carries 21 million passengers each year the five miles (eight km) across New York Harbor between Saint George and Manhattan.[1] Nine ferry boats provide the service which began in 1817.
England took control of New Netherland in the Second Anglo-Dutch War in the 17th century and made Staten Island part of New York instead of new Jersey.
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musyimisue – To give a little hope to someone out there who thinks they're alone. You Are Not Alone!
What's the saddest part about being depressed or having an eating disorder? The fact that you can't tell your family about it or even your friends. You can't approach your parents and open up to them about your depression. You can't sit down with your friends and narrate to them an hour long story of how "you don't feel like yourself". How will you even start explaining to your family that you sometimes don't feel like yourself. That sometimes you feel an overwhelming wave of sadness that you can't shake off. That sometimes all you want to do is wallow in self pity, in bed just staring at the wall. How do you start explaining to your parents that the child they have is not their child anymore. That their child is long gone.
Their child changed many years ago. Their friend has not been the same for months. Their child now feels worthless and useless. How do you even start explaining how you don't feel enough? You don't feel enough to who? When they give you everything you ask for, when you've lived a pretty decent life. How do you even start explaining depression to your parents when all they see is a happy child every single time? How will they understand that once the lights go off and everyone goes to sleep, that you cry yourself to sleep every night. That every night your demons come to play and leave you exhausted. That the demons leave you with dark thoughts that haunt you during the day. That the thoughts get darker each and every night. That some nights you lay awake cursing at yourself for being the way you are.
How do you get them to understand that your mind can't let you eat? That your body is resisting to take in food even when it knows that food is important. That your dark thoughts imprint in your mind that you are not worth it, so you don't even deserve to eat. That when you think of eating it hurts. What does it even hurt? How will you explain to them that when they place a plate of food in front of you, it takes every ounce of strength to even eat half the plate. How do you explain to them and make them understand that you just can't eat? How can you not eat? You've been eating since you were born? It's something natural that every human being does. Yet here you are trying to tell them that somehow your mind fills you with thoughts that you don't need to eat. That if you don't eat, maybe, just maybe you'll feel a bit better about yourself.
Will they even understand the struggle your going through? Will they finally see behind the happy smiles and the laughter. Will they start to notice the flicker of sadness in your eye every now and then? Will they notice how sometimes you grow quiet and just stare into thin air? Will they understand that sometimes you just want to stay in bed all day? Will they finally be ready to help you get by? How will they understand something you don't even understand yourself? How will they understand that it comes and goes like a visitor? That sometimes it stays for a week and other times it stays for months. Will they understand that when you don't want to eat, it's getting bad again? Will they understand that even privileged young children can get depressed? Will they accept that their child has an eating disorder? Will they understand that your heart was broken and you are damaged and you are doing all you can to get back to yourself again?
Hope they do, cause you always need someone there to help you through such a journey. You can decide to go through it alone but you always need someone to hold your hand. A single friend can help so much in overcoming a mental health problem. Spread the love, spread kindness. Your friend, your sister, your brother, your son or your daughter might be battling a very bad and silent battle. They don't have to come right out and tell you. All you need to do is start being attentive to the little details. When someone stops doing the things they loved doing it can be a little sign that something is happening in their life. Being attentive to someone close to you shows you care. They might not want to talk but by you reaching out to them will show them just how much you care. They might not be ready to open up but at least they know when their ready they have someone to talk to. They know that they have people who care for them. Something to make them fight a little longer. Something to make them stay alive!
Why do we feel the pressure to be perfect all the time? What is the reason that someone feels like they have to portray this picture-perfect life? Be it on the internet, or even in real life. Where in the stones of knowledge was it written that someone has to be 100% perfect all the time?
No, you do not have to be perfect. Your life doesn't have to be a joyride in the park or a bed of roses. Even roses have thorns and they prick us every once in a while. What you choose to do when that happens is what determines how strong you are as a person. Just because your life is a bit in shackles at the moment doesn't necessarily mean that your whole life is sh*%. That shouldn't force you to ensure that everyone thinks you have an amazing life. It shouldn't make you want to show how happy and content you are with life.
Why do people have to live a life full of lies? Why does someone feel the need to be seen as this happy person? With this amazing life, luxurious lifestyle? Some can say that it's chasing the paper, trying to secure the bag. Securing the bag while trying so hard to hide what really is within you. Who knows, maybe what you're tying so hard to hide is what will give you that break you need. It might end up being very useful to just one person.
Being sad once in a while is a very natural feeling for every human. Feeling emotions is part of who we are as humans. Just because you feel down today, tomorrow, for a few weeks doesn't and will never make you any less of a human. The human brain is a very tricky organ, every now and then it needs a break to recharge to take care of our bodies. Having a few imbalances in the brain which make you depressed, bipolar, anxiety or whatever shouldn't make you think any less of yourself! It is very natural to have setbacks in life. It's called being human. Clearly that's what you are! A human being with emotions.
Yes, feeling a little or even very hurt over a breakup or loose of someone is once again very normal in this life. People, mostly our own friends, make others feel like having emotions and being hurt is such an awful thing that it makes you cower away from them. You feel in your body that your very heartbroken because you lost that one person you truly love, but because of society you hide your pain and act like your fine. Put on that brave smile, go out with your friends and still do the same things you were used to do. When all you want to do is sit in bed, watch movies, stuff your face and cry. Which you should be able to do if it's what will get to a healthier place again! This logic of always looking happy doesn't make sense and can be very toxic with time. Keeping feelings locked up will one day blow up and that's won't be good right?
So why not put on your real face. If you don't want to talk to people, don't talk to anyone and just take a day for yourself or even two! Take as many days as you feel is needed to feel like yourself again. If you want to cry, you know what? Just cry, let those tears flow. Scream into your pillow and let the hurt out. No matter the gender, male or female. Men cry too and who says it makes them any less of a man. It's expressing emotion, and that's very beautiful. If you want to laugh for no reason, laugh your heart out. Look crazy who cares your taking care of yourself. If you want to travel, pack a bag, get a ticket and just go! Take time for yourself and your happiness. Don't go searching for happiness elsewhere, trying to portray that "picture-perfect" life. You don't owe anyone anything in this world. You don't owe those people anything by pretending because they won't reward you or make your life perfect. It's your life, live it the way you want it to and the real way.
Again and again being depressed is natural, it happens to everyone. Yours might be worse than the one next to you but bottom line is that anyone can be depressed, sad or have a mental break down.
7:45 am….As I'm thinking I drift into sleep again just for the damn phone to start it's obnoxious ringing. This time I reach for the phone and switch of the alarm. Ever since I quit Instagram I rarely open any social media when I wake up. (When I was social media addict, that was the first thing I'd do when I touch my phone, check IG for likes or what people are upto, spend like a good fifteen minutes just scrolling on IG) So now instead I go on YouTube and look up of an interesting TedTalk to listen to as I get ready.
7:50 am….TedTalks are the epitome of my morning routine. I don't have a morning routine but listening to TedTalk is always a must do every single morning. I mostly listen to speakers on mental health and motivation. Today I listened to a lady talking about "the art of being comfortable with being uncomfortable". It was roughly 15 minutes which was enough for me to get out of bed and take a shower. The TedTalk motivation ends after I shower because after that I switch on my laptop and start watching a series or a movie. Well there goes the motivating morning flying out of the window but I got some sense knocked into me.
Breakfast is the most important meal of the day but apparently my body completely refuses to accept the fact that we have to eat breakfast. It has bad habit gotten from my eating disorder period, I can never seem to eat in the morning. However I taught myself to drink water in the morning, especially water with glucose to get some energy in this human being. But hey, healing is a journey and we are taking that joinery one step at a time. Getting dressed is never an easy thing, I change like three times before I settle on a particular outfit that will go with how I want to wear my hair that day.
shoes worn and I'm ready to head out finally after a whole hour and a half.
8:45 am….The short walk to the stage is never a hustle especially with earphone blaring loud music (I pray for my poor ears everyday). Most of the days I miss the bus which takes me to school, because I overslept if it wasn't obvious thus the walk to the stage. Getting to school is an agonizing 20 minutes of me deliberating to get off and go back to sleep. I'm always oblivious to the world around as I head to school, I'm head deep in a novel (currently reading eclipse). The walk to the school from the stage is short as well as the walk to the lecture room. I have a class everyday which runs for 3 hours each.
9:10 am…..Do I concentrate in class? Of course not! I day dream most of it, play games on my phone or read a book on wattpad. I write the notes though and I'm good at multitasking so as I'm using my phone, I'm also listening to the lecture. So don't be fooled by my absent mind to think I'm not getting anything. I have absolutely no social life, after class I link up with my friend not to go to some social gathering but to head back home.
3:00 pm….That is basically my day before I get to my hostel room to binge watch on some stupid series! Very productive I know.
I'm thinking of getting back on social media. I've had the best time of IG and it was extremely therapeutic for me. My phone addiction reduced and I feel like I will have a healthy relationship with social media. Having learnt how to keep my life private while still sharing on social media. How to appreciate my little success and understand my own pace of success without comparing myself to others. My huge fear of getting back on social media is the annoying stalking I did and the stalker I had but hopefully the stalker forgot I existed 😂. This should be its own blog separately and I will work on that!!!! Feel free to give your thoughts on me jumping back into social after months of being off!!!!!!
Hope it was good read!!!!
There comes a time when you feel lost in the world. When you feel like you don't belong. There's a time when you feel like you are not enough to actually exist in this world or even among people. It builds up in you and it makes you sad. It makes you feel like you don't deserve to live in this world. That feeling takes away the will to live, the will to enjoy the joys of the world! Those feelings rob you of the perfect moments in the world. Happy memories pass you by, why? Because during those happy memories you were busy pretending to be happy. Busy pretending to be this happy friend, always with a big smile! Ready to go on any adventure, ready to go out to an event.
But how do you just be happy when you don't even know what happiness is anymore. You've fallen so deep into the abyss of sadness that you don't have a clue how to be happy. You can't tell your siblings because you don't want them to worry about you. You don't want you siblings to be the ones to carry your burden. You just don't want to be a burden. So that means that you just keep everything bottled up inside of you.
Then it runs through your mind, how do you start telling someone you are sad and you have been sad for more than five years or more. How do you start telling someone that you don't even know why you're sad on the first place. How do you even start telling someone that you have these voices at the back of head screaming at you how worthless and useless you are! How do you even start telling someone that you are not okay when you seem so perfectly fine. You don't have a flu, or a headache so you can't start explaining to someone that you have this feeling inside of you that you don't want to exist anymore.
At that point is where you keep it all to yourself because there is no words to explain how someone feels when they are depressed, anxious, bipolar etc. You can't put to words the frustrating feeling eating inside of you! You want help from someone but there is no book on how to ask for help to stop being sad. Being sad? Why are you sad? You don't even have an idea! How the hell are you depressed at 18, 19, 20? You are so young to mentally stressed! Those are the types of stigmas that make the young adults not speak up about what they're going through.
They feel if they speak up they will be shut down because at their age they are supposed to be stress free. Yet it even starts at a young age as 10. It doesn't necessarily have to be a traumatic event. Events such as extreme stress or emotional pain can trigger mental health disorder. It is not something to be embarrassed about. No one should be ashamed because of getting a mental health disorder. It is normal life circumstances that make people crumble mentally and it is perfectly normal. No one should feel any less of a human just because they are depressed at 20 or has an anxiety disorder at 16.
Of course I will coil up in bed and feel guilty for missing a class. I will try and wake up, get ready and I will feel so disappointed when my mind fails to do the simple task. When tears come to my eyes because I feel so sad for reason best known to my mind. I will feel so disappointed because on that day my mind and body decided on this day we will not do anything. On this day we can not go out and face the world because we need to reboot. But you know what, yes I will stay in bed so scared of going out of my room. Yes, I might cry as I stay in bed and pity myself. But by five o'clock when my good friend leaves class I will call her and I'll tell her I'm coming to see her. I will force myself out of that bed, shower, dress and go see my friend. I will talk to her, laugh with her and that shows me that I am strong! That should show you that you are strong!
It might take you three days to leave that bed but find that strength within you to surround yourself with someone who makes you laugh. It might be hard but you have to fight! YOU HAVE TO FIGHT! Mental health can't defeat you, you shall not succumb to mental health. You are stronger than it.
Speaking of my experiences are hard but I aim to help people to get by their hardship by talking about my own! And if I make even one person smile then my job is done!
For the longest time it's always been about getting through to the next day. Getting to see another sunrise or seeing the sun set. It's never been about enjoying the moment. The events that's happening at that very moment. It's always down to getting through the day without anyone knowing that you're tired. Not physically tired but mentally tired. Without anyone knowing that mentally you are completely and utterly drained.
It's always been about being able to smile the whole day. Learning each day how to fool people into thinking that you are the best version you can be. Showing how strong you can be. Because you would you lean on? When you have no one to let in, you strive to become strong for yourself and to keep being around for everyone around you. Being a shoulder for everyone to lean on has to be a surviving method for most people. Being able to be viewed as the strong one has to be one of the best feeling ever.
Even when you don't feel your utmost best, someone coming to you for help makes you feel needed. Makes you feel important. Makes you feel like you matter to someone! And at the very end, you end up not living but surviving. Surviving yet another day where you have to battle to be here. Surviving yet another day where you have to keep pretending to be someone you most definitely are not. Surviving yet another day where you have to be "happy" when all you want to do is shut yourself in your room and cry. All you want to do is cry and vent your soul out. All you ever feel like doing is breaking down. But yet here you are one of the happiest soul!
It must be hard right? To go through each and every day with the biggest smile on your face. Molar to molar, every tooth out for show. Your eyes sparkling with happiness and satisfaction. Your face glowing with never ending happiness. But what is the true version of yourself? Is it the happy soul you show everyone to be, yes of course thats the real you. It is the you that wants to come back. The real you that is fighting every day to become "you". The version that is true to your nature. It is the version that has been poisoned with sadness but at this point you don't have an idea how to get back, right? You reach out to anyone who can understand what you are going though. The confusion you have brewing inside of you. The two versions which are fighting, a source of light to guide you to the right path.
You don't want to be you. You are tired of the life you have. It's not the life you want for yourself. It's not a life you can even wish on your worst enemy. But you know what's the best part of it? How strong you are! How extremely strong you are to still be here despite all that you are feeling. No, it doesn't mean just because you have perfect lifestyle, or amazing friends and family that your mentality is perfect! It just takes one little thing to break even the strongest people. And you, yes you, is an amazing and strong human being to still be able to survive yet another day of constant battle.
You'd have started a whole chain of happiness around and that will soon return back to you! Sooner or later! Just keep being strong, if not for yourself but for that one stranger you might meet tomorrow!
2014, she was this healthy, happy girl full of thickness. She was at a healthy weight, her food intake was ordinary like any teenage girl out there. She was doing fairly well in school, not her best but we all have a moment when we don't care about books or result. She was having the time of her life in school with her friends. In school she was well known, not for good reasons but she was still known. School was a good place for her, away from all other troubles of the world. She loved her life then.
2015, school is over, no stress about books, always at home just eating and being a couch potato. In her father's house you wouldn't stay idle for even a month so she was enrolled to computer classes to keep her busy. Then slowly by slowly stress began creeping into her happy life. The result for the final year were about to be announced, she wasn't as serious in school as she was always known to be. The thought of letting down her parents weighed her down. In computer class she was shy once again, always sat at the back and rarely talked to anyone. Frankly she didn't know what was happening to her!
Then it started with skipping breakfast, she would leave the house without her mother noticing she's gone and would always say she ate breakfast before she left. Then she realized she can stay without breakfast so she started skipping lunch as well and only eating supper. It wasn't hard to lie to her parents about it. She would just always say she'll eat in her bedroom and since everyone at home was used to her staying in her room it wasn't that weird.
She always got lunch money, so she would buy something after class, come home with it and just eat one or two spoons then leave the rest of it for her sibling. That's when she realized if she didn't need breakfast or lunch then she doesn't need supper as well. That's where it all began. The first week without eating any meal and she didn't feel any different so she knew this was good for her. It was the right thing to do. Whenever she felt very hungry she would drink a bottle of water and everything would be fine.
It was now one month and she hadn't eaten a single full meal. Results came and she did well so no one was disappoint in her but still her mind was hooked to the thought that, "we don't have to eat, we don't need to eat, we are good without the food!". So she didn't eat and things started going south. Your body can't survive that long without food, organs will start shutting down and eventually you'll became sick.
Soon enough the pressure of not getting enough food started weighing down on her. She started having moments where she would become very dizzy and faint. Her vision would often become very blurry. The dizzy episode became more and more often. Until one day she was walking with her father, she just became very dizzy and for a second she collapsed but composed herself. She felt very sick, so her mother took her to the hospital.
As usual tests were done and there was nothing wrong except that she was really underweight. She clearly remembered the doctor saying "your daughter is really underweight and needs to get her weight up". But since she didn't talk that much, they concluded she's fine and she just needs to eat. Her parents kept a close eye on her for a while to ensure she always ate. She was really really skinny and eating was a problem. It was like teaching your body how to do something it has done for the longest time. But slowly she began eating one meal and a snack, two meals and soon enough she was eating meals like normal. The thought to not eat, you'll gain weight was still ringing at the back of her head.
Now and then she'll have episodes when she won't eat. Eating will be a struggle and she'll stay away from food for a period of two weeks at most. But she learnt how to be resilient and how to keep her thoughts in check! Did she relapse after the 2015 trauma? Story for another day!
It happens to people around us and clearly it's not something to be ashamed of. Just like how people have physical disease some others suffer from very common mental diseases. The healing process is always personal and special to someone. Once you get to the point where you can at least smile and be happy, your getting better! So much better! So don't give up just yet, strive to be the best version you can be. The journey to healing is always bumpy and rough. No one will sit and tell you it's a smooth path. It's not! It's hard and you have to be determined to get better, not for other but for yourself. Everyone has their own process, as I said it's very personal.
And that's my story, what's yours?
You know the feeling when you really want to be with someone and ripping you apart to not be with them? That pain that is just never going because you know how much you love that person. When you know your happiness lies with someone else. A person who you know deep down in your heart will never feel the same about you. Not in this life or another life.
It is hard to love someone who sees you as nothing like a friend or worse as nothing. Of course, it is a horrible feeling and it crushes you heart. It makes you feel worthless, like you are not enough for that person. All that love you hold inside for someone else is worth it. You are worth it and you are enough. They just don't see your worth and that's fine. They don't see your value and that's totally okay. No one in this world owes you anything and you should let that sink in. Because it's true! Everyone in this world has the right to their own feelings and to be with whoever they want. So once you tell yourself that that person doesn't own you anything and believe that, the better for you.
The hardest part of unrequited love is the heart break you get from someone who was never yours to begin with. The pain is just as bad as someone who has gotten attached to their boyfriend or girlfriend. Being so much in love with person, being their friend and letting them depend on you for so long does have to leave some sort of pain in its wake right? When you lie there in bed and cry for someone who was never yours to begin with. I can only imagine the torture your mind goes through to erase the person your heart desires. It has to be a constant battle between your heart and mind. When you want to silence the mind but your heart is still clinging on the love that was never yours to begin with.
The nights when random thoughts of them come to mind. When your reading a book and you for a second wish they were with you. When you see an adorable couple walking down the street and you only visualize yourself with the person you secretly love. Must be hard!
How do you get over someone who was never yours? How do you get over feelings for someone who was never there with you? How do you silence the mind as you mend your broken heart? Then you have those random thoughts about them. The memories and fantasies have to be the worst, right? Because how do you shut of your mind? You can meditate or do yoga, listen to some podcast but you and I both know that every now and then you'll find yourself thinking about them. And it breaks your heart doesn't it? It's a type of pain that you wouldn't wish on your worst enemy, right?
That has to be the most cliche thing someone is told when they're going through a hard time. But it does get better with time. It's a process you can not avoid, you have to get through the pain. And that will be for the next part of the series, getting through the heartbreak of unrequited love.
Keep smiling and don't let anyone break your good heart to turn you into someone your not! You're an amazing human being, remember that!
14th February, dia de los enamorados.
The day that people show their utmost love for their partner. Get the all sorts of present, take them to fancy dinners, go for a short vacation! The lady gets to dress up, be all pretty and be showered with love from her man. In many instances it's the man who has the pressure to make Valentines a special day for his girlfriend. He is not allowed to forget this day and has to have ready a place to take his girlfriend, have gifts ready to give her and show her lots of love.
Ladies, ladies pull up your socks if you haven't already. Men may act all mucho but deep down they want to be shown love too. When he surprises you with a gift what harm will it do if you as his girlfriend surprise him as well. It's "lovers day" not "girlfriend day". Your both in the relationship and the both of you should show each other how much you matter to one another. If your man takes you out for dinner, you can have something planned for afterwards like maybe a movie or something that he really likes.
If your man is into let's say marvel, I bet it's will be romantic to have an in door theatre setting for him waiting at home. Since you already had dinner, a bottle of his favorite drink (be it wine, vodka, whiskey, soda, milk or water), a few munchies to bite on and also the gift for him. Giving him a tie or socks or shirts is good but pretty sure he got you something amazing! So does it really hurt to spend a bit of coin on the person you love? (Lord why I'm I still single)…… A gift based on things that he likes, if your man is into accessories then a good watch (not those one for 200 that are sold in town cmon sis) doesn't necessarily have to be a damn Rolex but there some affordable designers, a leather bracelet or neck thingie. Afterwards you can wear your lingerie and rock his world (pg not for persons under the age of 18).
Assuming I was in a loving relationship with a man who adores me and cares I would definitely spend on him even spoil him. Personally I have nothing against spoiling your man like it's a two people relationship and you're happy. Valentines has never been something I believed and I still don't. It's just a day that people blow out of proportion. I'm with you most of the time and you have all the time to show me love not just on this particular date.If you haven't been loving towards someone all along don't use 14.03 as a means to finally become romantic! If someone makes me happy, if we are growing together, helping each other in this life then I be damned I won't mind if on this day (14.03) all someone does is "give me a single rose (but if he loves me he'll know better than to get me a rose and give me a cactus instead), a kiss on my forehead and another promise to be happy together". Being completely honest, I wouldn't expect much from "my man" because we are happy on 13.03 and we will still be very much happy and in love on 15.03.
I don't mind being spoiled but just you know I'll spoil you too, accept that.
I love you bebes and Happy Valentines or whatever.
The heart is a very funny part of the human anatomy. It's work is to pump blood yet it is the one which is referred to when someone is in pain or when someone is in love. Why does the pain of loosing someone felt in the heart? Why do you feel like you heart is literally breaking?
Having feelings for someone has to be one of the most amazing thing and most terrifying thing at the same time. You're not sure if the feelings will be mutual or whether you'll end up being kicked to the curb. Allowing yourself to fall for someone to the point where you actually feel like you love them has to be a test of trust. You never know what the other person is feeling. Never knowing what they think or if they're genuine. It's all a matter of trusting your heart and just hoping to get your happily ever after.
For most the feelings are usually mutual. Which is absolutely amazing for most people. Having someone you can totally depend on. Someone you can call yours and only yours (but never be too sure with this generation of humans). Having a person to share your happiness with, to achieve your goals with, to grow with. Amazing right?
Not the point where you think about that person all the time but when you think about them at 2pm when you busy. When your listening to music and some song comes along then their face comes to mind. When your hanging out with your friends and having the time of your life, then for a split second you think about them. You smile, maybe even laugh cause even the thought of them makes you happy. That's just not a feeling that you "like" someone.
When its unrequited, it can crush you to small itsy bits. It will break your heart to the point where you feel physically sick. When you feel so much love for someone. You want to be there for them, care for them, make them happy but the only thing you can do is swallow the that pain in your throat and put a smile on your face. Why is it with unrequited love, someone always chooses to be "just the friend".
Isn't that even more pain that you deserve. To watch them fall in love with someone else and make them as happy as you want them to make you. Or is it because, you'd rather be their friend than not be in their life completely? Is it that then being happy might hurt but it's all you ever want for them? Isn't that just a sad life?
To know they'll never look at you the way you look at them. How your heart leaps just at the slightest attention from them. Someone with such love deserves all the happiness in the world.
Most of you who have my contacts already have some sort of idea what this blog is all about. It's not an issue when someone just suddenly quits social media. But for someone who really liked social media, was all for the drama, enjoyed sharing their photos then it might be a small issue. Then if that person is coupled with some mental struggles then it can be some sort of red flag, right?
Once in a while someone can get fed up with all the drama on social media and decide to take a break. Social media especially Instagram can really take a toll on someone. The whole idea of having a perfect life, luxurious lifestyle can really get to someone's head. I'm sure most of you have heard of people having a "fake life". They do all that so that they can have that amazing social media persona. Which is not considered healthy at all. It will reach a point you don't know where your real life begins and where you social media life begins.
No, I didn't quit social media because girl was living a double life. What was on my social media is what is in my real life. No luxurious lifestyle, absurd travels, "just a small town girl living in a lonely world". When I say social media I'm throwing more emphasis on Instagram (Facebook is ancient history in my world, Snapchat has never really been my fort, Twitter is just good for news and information). Instagram is an amazing app, which I have personally used for years. It's like the core of social media. Almost everyone uses Instagram to share about their life, build their brand, market their products and even conduct business. So yes, Instagram and social media is amazing!
I started blogging mid last year when I needed to put some creativity in words (I have done a blog of why I do what I do not going deep into that). The more I blogged the more it became about building a "brand", social media became bigger focus on my work and all I thought about was putting my name out there on social media. Have this good Instagram theme to attract more followers, post often, use captivating captions. Which is not wrong, everyone on Instagram is doing it. But when it becomes something which is not bringing you good vibes and interfering with your progress, shouldn't you cut it off? I have been blogging for a few months now and I absolutely love it. I love sharing my stories which make no sense, I love talking about mental health and I just love writing anything like this platform is my personal journal.
For a while I took a break from social media and minimized using my phone. That was towards the end of last year and it was an eye-opening moment. I still blogged without my social media platform, I still continued working on my website, I still wrote my novel and the only thing which changed is that I was happier. I felt more at peace with myself without checking what's going on in other people's lives. I have at several times talked about mental health and gave some inspiration to you guys. So it's not that much of a hidden thing that I also struggle with mental health and I felt that my journey to get better was even smoother without social media.
I look at the world around me rather that down at my phone. I was someone who was on every social media platform for hours but now I rarely hold my phone unless it's to blog or read a novel or text my friends. Am I saying social media is down right evil? No. It's a personal decision to leave the social media platform and get on a new journey. I need social media for blog traffic and of course build my brand but it's a decision I per-took despite of the challenges it will bring to my work and goals. We shall pull through, won't we?
I do not know if I will ever switch back and get back to social media. I do not see it happening any time soon. If I ever do then it will be a fresh start, solely for my blog and my work as an attorney hopefully. So yes I took a break from social media to work on myself and I decided to quit social media to focus on myself even more and just enjoy life as it is. Take in the drama around me and just live. No more surviving, it's time to live! Hopefully in the future to come, I'll get back on every social media platform I had and join back on the drama but I truly hope not.
And that's my story, let's see where this new journey will take me.


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Onset of Kppers-Lortz-like dynamics in finite rotating thermal convection
A. Rubio, Juan Lopez, F. Marques
CLAS-NS: Mathematics and Statistical Sciences, School of (SMSS)
The onset of thermal convection in a finite rotating cylinder is investigated using direct numerical simulations of the Navier-Stokes equations with the Boussinesq approximation in a regime in which spatio-temporal complexity is observed directly after onset. The system is examined in the non-physical limit of zero centrifugal force as well as with an experimentally realizable centrifugal force, leading to two different paths to Kppers-Lortz-like spatio-temporal chaos. In the idealized case, neglecting centrifugal force, the onset of convection occurs directly from a conduction state, resulting in square patterns with slow roll switching, followed at higher thermal driving by straight roll patterns with faster roll switching. The case with a centrifugal force typical of laboratory experiments exhibits target patterns near the theoretically predicted onset of convection, followed by a rotating wave that emerges via a Hopf bifurcation. A subsequent Hopf bifurcation leads to ratcheting states with sixfold symmetry near the axis. With increasing thermal driving, roll switching is observed within the ratcheting lattice before Kppers-Lortz-like spatio-temporal chaos is observed with the dissolution of the lattice at a slightly stronger thermal driving. For both cases, all of these states are observed within a 2% variation in the thermal driving.
journal of fluid mechanics
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centrifugal force Physics & Astronomy
free convection Physics & Astronomy
Hopf bifurcation Engineering & Materials Science
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chaos Physics & Astronomy
convection Physics & Astronomy
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Rubio, A., Lopez, J., & Marques, F. (2010). Onset of Kppers-Lortz-like dynamics in finite rotating thermal convection. journal of fluid mechanics, 644, 337-357. https://doi.org/10.1017/S0022112009992400
Onset of Kppers-Lortz-like dynamics in finite rotating thermal convection. / Rubio, A.; Lopez, Juan; Marques, F.
In: journal of fluid mechanics, Vol. 644, 10.02.2010, p. 337-357.
Rubio, A, Lopez, J & Marques, F 2010, 'Onset of Kppers-Lortz-like dynamics in finite rotating thermal convection', journal of fluid mechanics, vol. 644, pp. 337-357. https://doi.org/10.1017/S0022112009992400
Rubio A, Lopez J, Marques F. Onset of Kppers-Lortz-like dynamics in finite rotating thermal convection. journal of fluid mechanics. 2010 Feb 10;644:337-357. https://doi.org/10.1017/S0022112009992400
Rubio, A. ; Lopez, Juan ; Marques, F. / Onset of Kppers-Lortz-like dynamics in finite rotating thermal convection. In: journal of fluid mechanics. 2010 ; Vol. 644. pp. 337-357.
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abstract = "The onset of thermal convection in a finite rotating cylinder is investigated using direct numerical simulations of the Navier-Stokes equations with the Boussinesq approximation in a regime in which spatio-temporal complexity is observed directly after onset. The system is examined in the non-physical limit of zero centrifugal force as well as with an experimentally realizable centrifugal force, leading to two different paths to Kppers-Lortz-like spatio-temporal chaos. In the idealized case, neglecting centrifugal force, the onset of convection occurs directly from a conduction state, resulting in square patterns with slow roll switching, followed at higher thermal driving by straight roll patterns with faster roll switching. The case with a centrifugal force typical of laboratory experiments exhibits target patterns near the theoretically predicted onset of convection, followed by a rotating wave that emerges via a Hopf bifurcation. A subsequent Hopf bifurcation leads to ratcheting states with sixfold symmetry near the axis. With increasing thermal driving, roll switching is observed within the ratcheting lattice before Kppers-Lortz-like spatio-temporal chaos is observed with the dissolution of the lattice at a slightly stronger thermal driving. For both cases, all of these states are observed within a 2% variation in the thermal driving.",
author = "A. Rubio and Juan Lopez and F. Marques",
note = "Funding Information: This work was supported in part by the US National Science Foundation grant DMS-0509594, the Spanish and Catalan government grants FIS2007-61585 and SGR-00024 and the Korean Science and Engineering Foundation WCU grant R32-2009-000-20021-0. Rubio was supported by a Fulbright fellowship at UPC (Barcelona, Spain), whose hospitality is warmly appreciated. Computations were performed using the ASU Fulton High Performance Computing Initiative and the Ranger cluster using the NSF Teragrid grant TG-DMS090029. Supplementary movies available at journals.cambridge.org/flm.",
journal = "Journal of Fluid Mechanics",
T1 - Onset of Kppers-Lortz-like dynamics in finite rotating thermal convection
AU - Lopez, Juan
AU - Marques, F.
N1 - Funding Information: This work was supported in part by the US National Science Foundation grant DMS-0509594, the Spanish and Catalan government grants FIS2007-61585 and SGR-00024 and the Korean Science and Engineering Foundation WCU grant R32-2009-000-20021-0. Rubio was supported by a Fulbright fellowship at UPC (Barcelona, Spain), whose hospitality is warmly appreciated. Computations were performed using the ASU Fulton High Performance Computing Initiative and the Ranger cluster using the NSF Teragrid grant TG-DMS090029. Supplementary movies available at journals.cambridge.org/flm.
N2 - The onset of thermal convection in a finite rotating cylinder is investigated using direct numerical simulations of the Navier-Stokes equations with the Boussinesq approximation in a regime in which spatio-temporal complexity is observed directly after onset. The system is examined in the non-physical limit of zero centrifugal force as well as with an experimentally realizable centrifugal force, leading to two different paths to Kppers-Lortz-like spatio-temporal chaos. In the idealized case, neglecting centrifugal force, the onset of convection occurs directly from a conduction state, resulting in square patterns with slow roll switching, followed at higher thermal driving by straight roll patterns with faster roll switching. The case with a centrifugal force typical of laboratory experiments exhibits target patterns near the theoretically predicted onset of convection, followed by a rotating wave that emerges via a Hopf bifurcation. A subsequent Hopf bifurcation leads to ratcheting states with sixfold symmetry near the axis. With increasing thermal driving, roll switching is observed within the ratcheting lattice before Kppers-Lortz-like spatio-temporal chaos is observed with the dissolution of the lattice at a slightly stronger thermal driving. For both cases, all of these states are observed within a 2% variation in the thermal driving.
AB - The onset of thermal convection in a finite rotating cylinder is investigated using direct numerical simulations of the Navier-Stokes equations with the Boussinesq approximation in a regime in which spatio-temporal complexity is observed directly after onset. The system is examined in the non-physical limit of zero centrifugal force as well as with an experimentally realizable centrifugal force, leading to two different paths to Kppers-Lortz-like spatio-temporal chaos. In the idealized case, neglecting centrifugal force, the onset of convection occurs directly from a conduction state, resulting in square patterns with slow roll switching, followed at higher thermal driving by straight roll patterns with faster roll switching. The case with a centrifugal force typical of laboratory experiments exhibits target patterns near the theoretically predicted onset of convection, followed by a rotating wave that emerges via a Hopf bifurcation. A subsequent Hopf bifurcation leads to ratcheting states with sixfold symmetry near the axis. With increasing thermal driving, roll switching is observed within the ratcheting lattice before Kppers-Lortz-like spatio-temporal chaos is observed with the dissolution of the lattice at a slightly stronger thermal driving. For both cases, all of these states are observed within a 2% variation in the thermal driving.
JO - Journal of Fluid Mechanics
JF - Journal of Fluid Mechanics


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Q: Optimising this function I have a script which calls this function more than 100k times, so I am looking for anyway to squeeze a bit more performance out of it.
Can you suggest optimisations or an alternate method for calculating standard deviation in PHP?
function calcStandardDev($samples){

    $sample_count = count($samples);

    for ($current_sample = 0; $sample_count > $current_sample; ++$current_sample) $sample_square[$current_sample] = pow($samples[$current_sample], 2);

    return sqrt(array_sum($sample_square) / $sample_count - pow((array_sum($samples) / $sample_count), 2));

}

A: $samples[$current_sample] * $samples[$current_sample]

is going to be faster than
pow($samples[$current_sample], 2)

because it doesn't have the overhead of the function call.
Then you can also simplify
pow((array_sum($samples) / $sample_count), 2));

to prevent calling the pow() function again
To avoid array_sum($samples) being called twice as a result of that change, calculate it once and store to a var before the loop, then just reference that var in the formula.
EDIT
function calcStandardDev($samples){
    $sample_count = count($samples);
    $sumSamples = array_sum($samples);

    for ($current_sample = 0; $sample_count > $current_sample; ++$current_sample)
        $sample_square[$current_sample] = $samples[$current_sample] * $samples[$current_sample];

    return sqrt(array_sum($sample_square) / $sample_count - ( ($sumSamples / $sample_count) *
                                                              ($sumSamples / $sample_count)
                                                            )
               );

}

A: Replace both call to array_sum by calculating the respective values yourself. That way you just walk through your array one time instead of three times.
function calcStandardDev($samples){

    $sample_count = count($samples);
    $sum = 0;
    $sum_sqaure = 0;

    for ($current_sample = 0; $sample_count > $current_sample; ++$current_sample) {
        $sum_square += pow($samples[$current_sample], 2);
        $sum += $samples[$current_sample];
    }

    return sqrt( $sum_square / $sample_count - pow( $sum / $sample_count, 2));
}

A: foreach by referance is faster than for,  an you already have a loop, you can calculate "sum" in this loop. and  $x*$x is so faster then pow($x,2);
there are some functions comparations. hope to help.
Your Function microtime     = ~ 0.526
Second Function             = ~  0.290
  <?php
    function calcStandardDev($samples)
    {

        $sample_count = count($samples);

        for ($current_sample = 0; $sample_count > $current_sample; ++$current_sample)
            $sample_square[$current_sample] = pow($samples[$current_sample], 2);

        return sqrt(array_sum($sample_square) / $sample_count - pow((array_sum($samples) / $sample_count), 2));

    }

    function calcStandardDev2($samples)
    {
        $sample_count = count($samples);

        $sum_sample_square  = 0;
        $sum_sample         = 0;

        foreach ($samples as &$sample)
        {
            $sum_sample         += $sample;
            $sum_sample_square  += $sample * $sample;
        }

        return sqrt($sum_sample_square / $sample_count - pow($sum_sample / $sample_count,2));

    }

     function calcStandardDev3($samples)
    {
        $sample_count = count($samples);

        $sum_sample_square  = 0;
        $sum_sample         = 0;

        foreach ($samples as &$sample)
        {
            $sum_sample         += $sample;
            $sum_sample_square  += pow($sample ,2);
        }

        return sqrt($sum_sample_square / $sample_count - pow($sum_sample  / $sample_count,2));

    }

    echo "<pre>";
    $samples = range(2,100000);

    $start  = microtime(true);
    echo calcStandardDev($samples)."\r\n";
    $end  = microtime(true);
    echo $end - $start ."\r\n";
    echo "-------\r\n";

    $start  = microtime(true);
    echo calcStandardDev2($samples)."\r\n";
    $end  = microtime(true);
    echo $end - $start."\r\n";
    echo "-------\r\n";

    $start  = microtime(true);
    echo calcStandardDev3($samples)."\r\n";
    $end  = microtime(true);
    echo $end - $start;
    echo "-------\r\n";
?>


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#pragma once

#include "antlr4-common.h"

namespace antlr4 {
namespace tree {
  class ParseTree;

namespace xpath {

  class ANTLR4CPP_PUBLIC XPathElement {
  public:
    /// Construct element like {@code /ID} or {@code ID} or {@code /*} etc...
    ///  op is null if just node
    XPathElement(const std::string &nodeName);
    virtual ~XPathElement() {}

    /// Given tree rooted at {@code t} return all nodes matched by this path
    /// element.
    virtual std::vector<ParseTree *> evaluate(ParseTree *t);
    virtual std::string toString() const;

    void setInvert(bool value);

  protected:
    std::string _nodeName;
    bool _invert = false;
  };

} // namespace xpath
} // namespace tree
} // namespace antlr4

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Are the authors of the VAE paper writing the PDFs as a function of the random variables?
Usually, I see the conventions:
discrete random variable is denoted as $X$,
the pmf is written as $P(X=x)$ or $p(X=x)$ or $p_{X}(x)$ or $p(x)$, where $x$ is an instance of $X$
a continuous random variable is denoted as $X$,
the pdf is denoted as $f_{X}(x)$ or $f(x)$, where $x$ is an instance of $X$; sometimes $p$ is used here too instead of $f$.
However, the VAE paper uses slightly different notation that I'm trying to understand
Let us consider some dataset $\mathbf{X}=\left\{\mathbf{x}^{(i)}\right\}_{i=1}^{N}$ consisting of $N$ i.i.d. samples of some continuous or discrete variable $\mathrm{x}$. We assume that the data are generated by some random process, involving an unobserved continuous random variable $\mathbf{z}$. The process consists of two steps: (1) a value $\mathbf{z}^{(i)}$ is generated from some prior distribution $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z}) ;(2)$ a value $\mathbf{x}^{(i)}$ is generated from some conditional distribution $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{x} \mid \mathbf{z})$. We assume that the prior $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$ and likelihood $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{x} \mid \mathbf{z})$ come from parametric families of distributions $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}}(\mathbf{z})$ and $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}}(\mathbf{x} \mid \mathbf{z})$, and that their PDFs are differentiable almost everywhere w.r.t. both $\boldsymbol{\theta}$ and $\mathbf{z}$. Unfortunately, a lot of this process is hidden from our view: the true parameters $\theta^{*}$ as well as the values of the latent variables $\mathrm{z}^{(i)}$ are unknown to us.
So I am looking at these:
$p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$
$p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{x} \mid \mathbf{z})$
dataset $\mathbf{X}=\left\{\mathbf{x}^{(i)}\right\}_{i=1}^{N}$
So I know the subscript for $\theta$ denotes those are the parameters for the pdf. It says "discrete variable $\mathrm{x}$", "unobserved continuous random variable $\mathbf{z}$", and "latent variables $\mathrm{z}^{(i)}$". In the top, where I wrote " discrete random variable $X$", seems like that's the equivalent of "discrete variable $\mathrm{x}$" in this paper.
So, it looks like they're writing the PDFs as a function of the random variables. Is my assumption correct? Because it is different than the typical conventions I see.
edit: looks like his other paper has a notation guide, in the appendix, though it seems like he's conflating both random vector and instances of vector in the notation? https://arxiv.org/pdf/1906.02691.pdf
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$\begingroup$ no they're not writing the pdf/pmf as a function of a random variable. The capital X here is just denoting your dataset of realisations of random variables $\endgroup$
– David Ireland
$\begingroup$ Sorry I rewrote my comment, that particular part about p(X) might have made things more confusing. $\endgroup$
$\begingroup$ I would say that here they're saying 'discrete variable' to denote a realisation of the random variable, so $p(x)$ in this setting is still in line with standard notation. $p(\cdot)$ is a function of $x$ (discrete in this case), it's just that $x$ are some random realisations of a random variable $X$. $\endgroup$
$\begingroup$ One other possibility I'm considering is that they could just be using it for both the instance and random variable? $\endgroup$
When it comes to notation/terminology, often, people in machine learning are (a bit?) sloppy, which causes a lot of confusion, especially for newcomers to the field or people not very math-savvy. I was also confused about this notation at some point (see my last questions here, which are all about this confusing topic). See also this answer.
In the VAE paper, $\mathbf{X}$ is a dataset, as the authors write.
Your confusion also arises because the authors vaguely use the term "probability distribution", rather than pdf or pmf, to refer, for example, to $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$, which thus does not refer to a pdf or pmf. In fact, the authors also write
their PDFs are differentiable almost everywhere w.r.t. both $\boldsymbol{\theta}$ and $\mathbf{z}$
The $\mathbf{z}$ can refer to
a random variable, or
an input to the function $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}$
If it's the first case, then $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$ is the composition of 2 functions (because a rv is also a function).
If it's the second case, then $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$ is the evaluation of $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}$ at $\mathbf{z}$.
I think the 2nd case is the most likely. In addition, people are being sloppy here and use the notation $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$ (rather than just $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}$) to emphasize $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}$ is a function of some input variable (not random variable!), which we denote with the letter $\mathbf{z}$ to remind ourselves that $\mathbf{z}$ is associated with a random variable denoted with the same letter (and maybe also in bold and lowercase).
So, in this case, let's say we denote the random variable associated with $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$ with $\mathbf{z}$, then we could refer to this associated prior more explicitly as follows $p_\mathbf{z}(\mathbf{z})$ (but that would even be more confusing). It would have been a better idea to use $\mathbf{Z}$, but then we may use the upper case letters to denote matrices or sets (like the VAE paper), so we end up with this mess (which is one of the 2 mythical difficult problems well-known in Computer Science, i.e. naming things), which we need to learn to deal with or just ignore.
Conclusion: when I look at $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$, which has been referred to as a probability distribution, I think there's also some associated random variable, which people, in that same context, will probably denote as $\mathbf{z}$ or $\mathbf{Z}$. There may also be some input variable (not a random variable), which we denote by $\mathbf{z}$ or $z$. If they are not mentioned, then I just ignore that. I never think that $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$ is the composition of 2 functions (even if that's the case), because that case was never useful in my readings.
nbronbro
$\begingroup$ I just noticed in Appendix A of his other paper on VAEs, he goes over the notation. Seems like he's using the same notation for random vectors and instances of random vectors. arxiv.org/pdf/1906.02691.pdf $\endgroup$
$\begingroup$ and yeah, figuring out which notation to use is a mess. I was thinking italics, using mathcal in latex , and something like this:tex.stackexchange.com/questions/520412/… gives more variety there. $\endgroup$
Machine learning papers are often somewhat confused about the distinction between a distribution and its probability density. I would rewrite this
The process consists of two steps: (1) a value $\mathbf{z}^{(i)}$ is generated from some prior distribution $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z})$; (2) a value $\mathbf{x}^{(i)}$ is generated from some conditional distribution $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{x} \mid \mathbf{z})$.
The process consists of two steps: (1) a value $\mathbf{z}^{(i)}$ is generated from some prior distribution. The probability density of selecting $\mathbf{z}^{(i)}$ is known and denoted as $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{z}^{(i)})$. (2) a value $\mathbf{x}^{(i)}$ is generated from some conditional distribution. The probability density of selecting $\mathbf{x}^{(i)}$ given $\mathbf{z}^{(i)}$ is known and denoted as $p_{\boldsymbol{\theta}^{*}}(\mathbf{x}^{(i)} \mid \mathbf{z}^{(i)})$.
As for the uppercase/lower case notation, this notation is not used in machine learning. $z, \, x$ are both random variables. In this paper, the authors use $z^{(i)}$, $x^{(i)}$ to indicate specific realizations of the random variables $z, \, x$. Probably a notation like $x_i, z_i$ is more common in general.
The notation/explanation is quite bad, because they should not say $p_{\theta}(z)$ is the distribution. $p_{\theta}(z)$, or if you wanted to be more precise, $p_{\theta}(z^{(i)})$, refers to the probability density.
answered Dec 2, 2021 at 6:21
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$\begingroup$ I noticed Kingma added notation guide in his other paper on VAEs, in appendix A. arxiv.org/pdf/1906.02691.pdf Seems like he uses the same notation for random vectors and their instances here too? $\endgroup$
You can read $X=\{x^{(i)}\}_{i=1}^N$ as $X$ represents the sequence of all values of $x$ from $x_i$ to $x_N$ where $i$ is all values from 1 to $N$.
To me, the notation is confusing since my experience tells me that curly braces are used for sets, but this seems to be the best interpretation.
David HoelzerDavid Hoelzer
$\begingroup$ I guess its more like a sequence than a set? $\endgroup$
$\begingroup$ Ah yes, that would be a good interpretation. Let me update the answer. $\endgroup$
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What is a probability distribution in machine learning?
Is there a continuous conditional variational auto-encoder?
What is the input for the prior model of VQ-VAE?
Why is this variable in equation 2 of the SQAIR paper a random vector of $n$ ones followed by a zero?
What are the roles of the prior $\mathrm{p}(\mathbf{z})$ in a VAE?
How does the VAE learn a joint distribution?
Why exactly was previously believed that the deterministic policy gradient did not exist?
Do we use two distinct layers to compute the mean and variance of a Gaussian encoder/decoder in the VAE?
For the VAE, should the input, output and latent variable code be random variables?
What should be taken as random variables in the distributions of datasets?


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Antonio Brown was just on the receiving end of an epic Twitter beatdown, and AB's meltdown exposed an uncomfortable truth about his future. | Source: Kirby Lee-USA TODAY Sports
What Antonio Brown's Latest Twitter Meltdown Really Means
September 23, 2020 UTC: 1:04 PM. September 27, 2019 UTC: 5:43 PM. by Francois Aure
Antonio Brown is not acting like a man who wants to return to the NFL. More fresh negative headlines have emerged for the wide receiver after he got tangled in a messy Twitter spat with Los Angeles Rams safety Eric Weddle.
Brown's chances of being signed by another team this year were already thin, and they just got smaller.
Def dont
— Eric Weddle (@weddlesbeard) September 26, 2019
Antonio Brown Twitter Spat Makes the Worst of a Bad Situation
After being cut by the New England Patriots, Antonio Brown's career in the NFL looked to be over after announced he wouldn't return to the league. A sudden U-turn came after Brown's agent received interest from teams who would consider signing the former Steelers standout if his sexual assault allegations were resolved.
Of all the NFL players skating on thin ice, Brown's is arguably the thinnest. His erratic behavior has been well documented, and he desperately needs to show coaches and potential teammates around the league that he's ready to be healthy, happy, and humble – all at the same time.
Getting into an extremely high-profile Twitter argument does not show the maturity or – more importantly – the evidence of reform, that NFL front offices need to see, especially after fresh allegations, centered around destructive behavior, have surfaced.
Hall of Fame Talents Need Hall of Fame Advice
The question has to be asked, where are the sensible people around AB? A prudent manager would have him far away from any potential antagonist during this critically sensitive time.
Ur not making any sense bud. Glad ur not on my team! Call urself whatever u want. Doesnt matter one bit to me. Goodluck at CMU my bro.
Dont need to. Isnt on a team
Perhaps Antonio Brown's inner circle is trying to help, and he won't listen, or maybe they are all yes-men who don't understand how close to the brink things are. Either way, the timing is horrendous for anyone hoping to see one of the greatest receivers of all time back in cleats again.
Ignoring the implications of another significant PR blunder, it also doesn't help that Eric Weddle had all the best comebacks on Twitter. Brown's retorts often fell flat, as the six-time Pro Bowler deflected AB with ease.
Eric Weddle Does NFL a Public Service
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IHURftGOhss
Sure, Weddle threw the first stone, but that won't matter to NFL teams looking for signs of maturity to justify taking a chance on the wide receiver.
The 12-year veteran has performed a public service for league managers by proving that – once and for all – Brown would be a poisonous locker room presence.
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