A story in poetry of the day that June left our home at 6025 Gardena Lane to spend the rest of her days in an Alzheimer's care facility...and the loneliness that resulted and was to be my life thereafter. This poem was created during a day of loneliness following cancellation of the day's normal activities (Bible Study at our Redeemer Lutheran Church) due to a late spring snowstorm in the area of our home.
I have nothing here to sell you.
Of a lonely house that June once made a home.
Before the day…that Alzheimer's took June away.
Over there sits our old chairs.
and the long lonely nights.
Where we lay, loved and talked together.
to touch me and say…good morning Stan!
June's clothes are all still in the closets.
That Day my world was torn apart.
a Wednesday in March was the day.
That Alzheimer's took June away.
Just some things that I would tell you!
Notes: The idea for this poem came from a Country Western hit song called "The Grand Tour" by George Jones (1974) …that song was a very different theme about a separated couple and their home but it gave me the idea of the home as the centerpiece for my story…I simply used this idea to totally rewrite the lyrics around June and our home at 6025 Gardena Lane and the resulting tragedy of June's Alzheimer's. June went into an Alzheimer's facility on 16 March of 2005, in the beginning of her 9th year of her journey into the shadows of Alzheimer's.
The photo immediately above these notes shows June and Stan in the kitchen of our home at 6025 Gardena Lane on the day (15 March 2005) before June left our home forever, to spend the rest of her remaining days in an Alzheimer's treatment facility. June's face has a faded look. The refrigerator door referred to in the poem above with June's notes, photos and knacks can be seen in the center background.
"Late in the day on Wednesday the 16th of March 2005 I sent the following email to our children and grandchildren telling them of June's departure to the Wellstead of Rogers. "This morning at 10:00 AM, Dan and Diane picked up Mom to go to the Wellstead of Rogers...As I watched them drive away it seemed like a part of my life drained away with them. Surely the light of my life had left our home."
"Our grandson Steven was sitting with me at the kitchen window as we watched through tear filled eyes, the unfolding of June's departure."
"God did give me a gift today. I have been very mad at God but he did answer my last prayer. I asked him for a peaceful 24 hours before Mom's departure. It was a nice 24 hours. Mom did not fall into one of the Alzheimer's angry and cruel moods where I would be the enemy. Instead I was once again her friend. Earlier this morning Mom had one of her normal morning sad periods where she cried and looked so unhappy. I would as usual hug her and tell her everything would be all right. This morning for the hour before Dan and Diane's arrival, Mom and I sat on the couch and held hands and I told her how much I loved her and that I would always love her and that she was the light of my life. She slept briefly with her head on my shoulder. She played the Clavinova for the last few minutes before Dan and Diane's arrival. Her departure was peaceable.
June was told that Dr. Stein wanted her to see a place to help her. Steven stayed over night with us last night and was helpful...Gretchen also spent much of her day yesterday with us as she has done so much in the past. Last night Dave and Khim came and took us to Champps for dinner. Khim gave Mom a foot and leg massage afterwards that relaxed her for bed.** Julie came over and put Mom to bed as she has done every night this week. I worry so much about how her evenings will be the first few days. I worry that she will be afraid at night in a strange place alone. Please give her your prayers. When June left she did not know she would not be returning."
June's Alzheimer's diagnosis came in late January 1998 after June noted short term memory problems during 1997. June in her role as a nursing home visitor, knew at a very early date, the blackness and the depth of the distant approaching Alzheimer's storm clouds. June displayed a concern for me. I remember well that Sunday (Ca. 1999) when June brought home the "Care Notes" pamphlet from our church - "Handling Grief as a Man." She said nothing; just left it out for me to find and to read. I also remember the time that she detected one of my episodes of emotional sadness as I watched her illness progress. She tried to console me by saying "Don't worry, I will be alright Stan!" I am sure at the time, we both really knew otherwise. June always put others before herself.
June gave me a lifetime of unconditional love during our 56 year's marriage and a life with only the regret that it is now over and that June has had to suffer the horrors of Alzheimer's. I owe her and God an unending debt! When God placed June in my life it was as if I had won the Grand Prize in the lottery of Life! June's passing was as if a most beautiful symphony that played during our life together, had now ceased to exist!
Amy Stiel Almas - Waterford, Michigan - (23 April 2013): "Oh Stan..this brought tears to my eyes! I think not only of you but my Mom who could write the same poem...(18 May 2013): "She has the brightest smile"
Erma Yates - Prior Lake, Minnesota - (24 April 2013): "I think it is a beautiful poem, Stan. Write always what your heart feels, not worrying too much what others thinks. They have not walked in your shoes..."
Susan Hughes - Ballarat, Victoria, Australia - (24 April 2013): "Your story is my dads except he is dealing with the loneliness at home whilst visiting his wife of 65 years in a high security dementia care home. Mum is still mobile at the moment, sometimes wheelchair bound but no longer knows us. Dad visits every day but it is breaking his heart watching the woman he loves declining so fast. It hurts watching this happen to my mum but it is even worse what this hideous disease is doing to my dad. Thank you Stanton for sharing your story and your poem. I hope you can find some peace in knowing that June is now at peace. Take care...(26 April 2013): "Stan, because of the snow storm you wrote a brilliant poem which I for one has been enriched by. Perhaps Bible Study was meant to be missed for a reason. "
Karen Butcher Rexroad - (24 April 2013): "Alone is not a great life. So sorry you feel this sadness. Perhaps tomorrow there will be sunshine!!!"
Sandy Williams Spencer - Phoenix, Arizona - (24 April 2013): "You're in all our thoughts, Stan. It has to be the saddest ever to lose a spouse of so many years."
Maura - Buddy Bear - Dublin, Ireland - (24 April 2013): "Stanton it broke my heart , my mother is in the final stages of Alzheimhers she is the same age as barbara, (my mother) and i am now living in the family home alone . It really struck a cord with me and made me cry...(6 October 2013): "... you are an exceptional man, I have the utmost admiration for you, June is with you in spirit , you have a purpose in life , you are on my prayer list. God Bless you."
Vicki Cadogan - Limerick, Ireland - (25 April 2013): "Just beautiful Stan, your love for June always brings a tear to my eye."
Anne Moghraby - Solihull, United Kingdom - (26 April 2013): "This is so wonderful when I visit Dad there is an empty chair where Mum used to sit the home is not the same any more, but he is coping in his own way."
Dementia Living Communities - Los Angeles, California - (8 September 2013): "This is so emotionl ...Thanks for sharing."
Martina Kaut - Furtwengen, Germany - (8 September 2013): "Even though it´s all so sad, it´s also just amazing beautiful what you wrote that day ... the snow storm happened for a reason ... "you wrote this sad but wonderful poem...Thank you that you share your wonderful unique love story with us all ... your story of life always reminds me to be humble and grateful for all the blessings that God placed in my life, and not to complain about things which I do not have even though I would like to have them. Yes...my life is perfect... because God always is in control!"
Marsha McKneely Ault - Nacogdoches, Texas (8 September 2013): "I just said a prayer in your behalf. One day soon you will see your June again. . . with great lights and rejoicings in heaven."
Alzheimer Society of Newfoundland and Labrador, Inc. - Mount Pearl, Newfoundland - (9 september 2013): "It's definitely a big transition and we really appreciate you sharing your experiences! All the best - Amelia White, Events Coordinator."
Julie Stuart - Fochabers, Scotland, United Kingdom - (9 September 2013): "OMG Stan I was in tears reading that...thank you very much for sharing your journey with us...luv to you..."
Mimi Taylor Nataro - Hicksville, New York - (9 September 2013):"Thank you Stan, for sharing this & all that is in your heart. I wish I had the ability to do this, as you do for others....June was blessed to have you in her life (as you were to have her)."
Terry Shepherd - Warsaw, Indiana - (5 Octobetr 2013): "If only I could find a companion with half the heart that you have. May I post your poem on my blog at Word Press?"
Kath Jean Rennie - Manchester, United Kingdom - (5 October 2013): "My heartfelt love to you, Stan...Beautiful, Sincere memories...I'm sure she was truely loved by you."
Richard Criscione - Cliffside Park, New Jersey -(5 October 2013):"You were also gifted by God with a high intelligence, which helps you channel some of the loneliness into positive activities . Loneliness still prevails ,but ,you have remained stoic,and your faithful dedication to June is always present. Happy, and proud, to have you as a friend, and member, on this page, despite the circumstances of which have brought us here ..."
Jessica Tablett - Fresno, California -(5 October 2013): "Oh how beautiful her light must have been. Her light now lives inside you. It is bright enough to light your way. Throughout the house no longer lonely, for she is in your heart. Let her light shine everytime you talk about her and she will live on."
Julian Kruger - Miami, Florida- (5 October 2013): "I commend you all you do for Alzheimer's and Dementia.Hopefully one day there won't be a need any longer."
Bonnie Seip - Ottsville, Pennsylvania - (6 October 2013):"What a BEAUTIFUL POEM .. Again I Teared up , you have many memories in this beautiful home ... And June is still with you in your heart and ALWAYS ON YOUR MIND ... Many many big hugs... You are a special friend of mine and I enjoy all of your posts about June, it shows the love you had for such a wonderful , beautiful woman...God Bless you ."
Christine Pickard - United Kingdom - (6 October 2013): "Stanton, beautiful, I still read your posts, on my mobile."
Kathy Mundy-McGeehan - Tamaqua, Pennsylvania - (6 October 2013): "Stan, I know what loneliness feels like and its how you handle it. I thought I could and found it overwhelmed me to much. After my first love passed life was a new thing to me, we were so inseparable. God placed Kevin in my life and I hung on, now he has dementia and I know I will face loneliness again. It terrifies me but I know now how I will handle it. Surrounding myself with my children and grandchildren and learning who I am finally. I commend you for your daily givings to June's memory. God Bless you!"
Lorraine Mottershead - Manchester, United Kingdom - (6 October 2013): "Aw bless you, my Dad is the same 6 month ago i brought him to live with me, he is 88 and was with my Mam over 54 years. lost Mam 2 years ago ."
Brian Stjohn - Blanchester, Ohio - (7 October 2013): "Mom has dementia and it is so hard to go through. I lost my dad in Nov. of last year of heart failure. My mom is all I got left, yet it is just a shell of her. I pray some day we can find a cure . God bless you Stanton for this page."


The Empowerment Project operates as a street outreach program for homeless adults and families experiencing mental health struggles or substance use disorders. By helping participants navigate through a system of services, referrals and resources in our community, these support channels will help enable permanent housing, health and income options. Samaritan's location is ideal for outreach to people in need because so many people eat at the Soup Kitchen every day of the week. Additionally, the services are not limited to Samaritan guests.
"We help those recovering from challenges such as substance abuse disorders, mental health needs and lack of income to get into permanent housing without preconditions that other programs might require," said Obie Johnson, Team Lead for The Empowerment Project.
By partnering with the Wake Forest Baptist Health Division of Faith and Health Ministries, individuals and families will receive spiritual support through ministries of growth, hope and healing. Through their recovery-oriented approach, The Empowerment Project will give participants the opportunity to reclaim and transform their lives by partnering with some of the best resources right here in our community. This assessment and referral process will be the focus of The Empowerment Project and ensure that guests are connected to the services they need.


The CFA Level 1 Exam is just around the corner on December 7, 2013. Hardly twenty days to go! By this time, you ought to be raring to go and hitting your target spot-on. So to make your CFA Prep more comprehensive, you will find here a list of practice tests ranging from various topics such as Economics, Portfolio Management, Quant, etc.
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Ruby Tumber gets pretty excited about all things conservation. She has manifested this passion in both the private and public sectors throughout the Bay Area, working on such things as environmental clearance, transportation policy, and energy efficiency projects. She currently works for the East Bay Regional Park District, where she has the pleasure of blending her love of the environment with her understanding of natural resource management. She is coming to WEN in the hopes of cultivating increased interest in environmental decision making with other women and communities of color. She earned her BS in Conservation and Resource Studies at the University of California at Berkeley, and a Masters in Public Administration at San Francisco State University. When she's not working, she's either out exploring outdoor spaces in Northern California or scoping out a new eatery in the East Bay.


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Arrays of microtriodes have recently become available due to the development of microfabricated field-emission electron sources. Computer simulation has shown that the brightness of beams emitted by them is significantly higher than that of the common microbeams, and possible application of the accelerated beam to free electron lasers has been discussed. Experimentation on beam generation has started, but methods for diagnosing the beam have not yet been established. Difficulty is predicted, because of the high brightness, in applying the conventional methods of emittance measurement. In this paper we propose a new method that determines the emittance without using apertures. The cross section of a converging beam is elongated by a quadrupole lens, and parameters of the emittance ellipse are obtained from the beam size on a screen when changing either the strength or the axial position of the quadrupole lens.


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'There is no one who can match her intellectually or her wide-ranging experience. Her clients are fortunate to be advised by her,' said one peer of Parker.
Although she is also credited for her 'fearless' litigation, Parker is as much shield as sword, often securing settlement away from the stress and cost of the court process. That is true of the past year, about which she is able to tell Spear's very little. 'Happily I have been able to resolve even the most complex and contentious issues out of court — and they are therefore all covered by the cloak of confidentiality,' she says.
Out-of-court arbitration also brings economy, says Parker, who saved Sir Christopher Hohn £140 million in court: 'Solicitors should stop being so anxious that their clients will blame them for choosing the arbitrator if the award is unwelcome. One solution is to have each party appoint an arbitrator, but purely for the purposes of appointing a third party who will in fact arbitrate the issues.'
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Великият глад в Русия от 1601-1603 години обхваща по-голямата част от европейската територия на Руското царство по време на управлението на цар Борис Годунов.

За разлика от случаите на масов глад в Европа през средновековието, причините за масовия руски глад се коренят в няколко разнородни фактори. От една страна това е слабата земеделска реколта през 1601 г.; от друга - изригването на вулкана Уайнапутина в Перу на 19 февруари 1600 г., довел до натрупването на огромно количество пепел в атмосферата и съпричинител на започналия така наречен малък ледников период. Някои изследователи не изключват сред причините за явлението и социални фактори, предхождащи полската интервенция в Русия.

В крайна сметка великият глад в Русия довежда до т.нар. Смутно време. Някои анализатори сочат сред причините за масовия глад започнатите крупни държавни мероприятия в Русия още от времето на цар Иван Грозни и довършвани от цар Борис Годунов – като изграждането на най-високата сграда в Русия и т.н.

Само в Москва, пряко или непряко, от глад по онова време умират най-малко 127 хиляди души. Много хора стават косвено жертви на заболявания и епидемии от холера в рамките на онези 2 години. Според някои оценки 10 милиона руснаци са преки или косвени жертви на глада.

През онези 2 години са отбелязани случаи на канибализъм, както и на задоволяване на глада с оборски тор.

Косвено гладът става причина за избухването на селски въстания в Русия, довели до важни последици за демографското развитие на Русия, тъй като много хора се изселват към слабонаселените южни и източни райони на страната – долното течение на Дон, Волга, както и в Западен Сибир.

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Hi and happy Monday! How was your weekend? Mine was pretty lazy and relaxing, which was much needed. We went off the meal plan a bit. I was too lazy to cook this weekend, and we ordered pizza last night–sometimes you just need that, you know? So there are a couple of repeats this week (but hey, it saves money on the grocery bill!).
Monday: The Jamaica Jerk Sauce from Jessica in the Kitchen was SO insanely delicious and flavorful! I used two habanero peppers instead of the scotch bonnets–it was spicy but still tolerable (although I like spice). I had a little bit of sauce left, so I'm marinating some tofu in it to grill later with some squash I got at the farmer's market.
Tuesday: These Spicy Buffalo Tofu Wings by I Love Vegan look like they'll be delicious in a wrap!
Wednesday: I'm going out with a friend to see the Arctic Monkeys! We're planning to grab some food beforehand.
Thursday: I feel like I'll want some greens at this point, so I'm planning on making Hummusapien's Israeli Power Salad. (I'm going to modify a bit and bought a salad kit with kale and Brussels sprouts because again, lazy.) I actually haven't had za'atar seasoning yet, so I'm excited to try it.
Friday: I never got around to these Vegan Taco Crunch Wraps by Spabettie, so let's try again this weekend!
Sunday: These Vegan Ribs by Connoisseurus Veg look delicious! I'll plan to roast sweet potatoes on the side (and maybe cornbread if I'm feeling motivated!? Probably not, though).
that jamaican jerk sauce sounds so good!!
it always seemed so intimidating, but that recipe was super easy and so flavorful!


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This is a quick update on The Giving Pies Project. The longest part of the whole process, I think, is to make the labels for each flavor and size of each pie. You have to make the pies, weigh them and then make the labels with the ingredients and the food allergy warnings.
Yes, I know, these don't look like a tart or a quiche! But what can I say? It's the Holiday Season and it's time to spice it up a little! This year, I have decided to make Homemade Caramel Filled Chocolate Candy as gifts for my friends.
Have you ever felt like you have done such a good job that you want to pat yourself on the back? That's what I feel with that Blueberry Pie With Almond Topping! I so love it that I really think that I could sell it!
This tart comes from the north east of France, Lorraine to be precise (closer to Germany - hence the German sounding name) and gets its name from the fact that it was directly baked in the stone oven, literally "licked by the flames".
I am so proud of this recipe! And it's just in time for Thanksgiving! I'm not a big fan of pumpkin pie because I have to say, I kind of dislike cinnamon.
Fall is not only the season for pumpkins but also for beautiful wild mushrooms. One of my favorites are the chanterelles. They are so beautiful and meaty in texture. I love cooking them in omelettes but most of all in a tarte.
When I was in France, the main time pumpkins were mentioned was in fairy tales. I knew we could consume it but I had never tasted any. Now that I'm in the US, I got a new appreciation for it. It almost feels like this squash is worshiped here, from September to November.
Did you know you can make tatins with anything? Really! It can be savory or sweet. I was looking for an elegant side dish for my dinner and I found it! Zucchini Tatins are the most elegant and the easiest side dish ever!
Lemon tarte is one recipe that can be made in so many different ways. When you grow up in France, you kind of believe that there's only one way which is meringue lemon pie.
If you love quiches, sweet or savory tarts, you came to the right place! Did you know there are many ways to make a tart? Well, yes my friend and the sky is the limit! Glad you stopped by! We're gonna have a good time!


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