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Posted July 27, 2018 by Lanae in Fan Fiction, Random Ramblings, You Are My Sunshine / 9 Comments
"Luv U Better"
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Back in the day I was your number one pick,
Now your heart's half-broken and that's hard to fix
I had to dig deep inside myself
because I can't see you bouncin' with somebody else
It's a long journey back to the place we were,
when I was too embarrassed to admit I was in love
And you were my good girl that wouldn't give it up
…I can't let us self-destruct
Baby smile today
Cause' I been imaginin' more ways
… I'm gon' love you better
"Hey, look…I think she's waking up."
Tara blinked several times before her vision completely cleared. She let out a series of coughs, aggravating the sandpaper walls of her throat. Reflexively she moved to raise a hand to cover her mouth, but her arm stopped short when she felt—then saw the I.V taped to the top of her hand. The room tilted and all the dark colored figures blurred into the stark white hospital room as she sat up fast.
"Easy there, Doc." His voice, almost as gravelly as her mouth felt made her ignore the stiffness in her neck to raise her head. Her eyes were met with the unhappiest face out of all the leather-kutte wearing men crowding around her bed. "The redhead Doc says you might have a mild concussion."
"The redhead Doc should be working on her second glass of an exceptionally good bottle of pinot." Tara turned her head towards Dr. Addison Montgomery, her boss, and OBGYN.
Immediately Tara's hand flew to her stomach, her eyes scanning the crowd of concerned faces. "Where's Abel?"
"Is that your oldest?" Dr. Montgomery stood up from the stool rolled to the side of her bed. "Your friend Alicia offered to take care of him while I found out why my patient is running herself ragged like I would have warned her not to had she bothered to show up to the last three appointments she cancelled."
"Is Thom—is my baby okay?" Tara's palm pressed against her stomach.
"Both mother and baby are doing great," Dr. Montgomery announced. "If you two want to stay that way you're going to have to take better care of yourself. When is the last time you've had anything to eat or drink? Your blood sugar is way too low and you're dehydrated."
"So what's the verdict, Doc?" Piney asked. He bumped shoulders with Happy—who was standing at the foot of her bed—as he took a step forward. "You saying she passed out because she needs a cookie and something to drink?"
"Prospect!" Happy barked, turning his scowl towards the SAMCRO-hopeful standing behind him. Ratboy's fingers were poised over the bottled water in his hand, stopping mid-twist. "Give me that," Happy growled snatching it from his hand. "There's a machine with chips and cookies and shit out in the hall. Go get the Doc something."
Tara waved her hand at the bottle Happy held out to her. "No, thank you. I'm good. I appreciate the…I appreciate this but I'm okay. And if I can get this thing out of my hand and go be with my son I'll be even better."
Happy tossed the bottled water into her lap. "Redhead Doc's orders."
"I do have a name you know."
Happy looked from the IV bag tapped into Tara's veins, over to the doctor fighting a smile. Grunting, he nodded towards the bottle of water still in Tara's lap. "You might have to add the shit to her bag. Her head's hard as a fuckin brick just like her old man."
Happy bit back a curse as they watched all the color drain from Tara's face. "Jackson…You said he was shot? How is…how the Hell did that even happen?"
"I'm going to head home, Tara," Dr. Montgomery interjected. Concern twisted her features as she gave the pregnant doctor's shoulder a light squeeze. "Once you're good and hydrated I recommend you do the same. Whatever in your life is causing you stress, you need to think about taking a step back. It's not good for you or the baby. And I don't want to have a real reason to be here next time."
"There won't be a next time if she drinks the goddamn water," Happy grumbled, glaring at her. Tara snatched the cap of the bottle, and her green eyes narrowed as she tilted her head back, chugging the entire bottle at once. "There," Tara half-shouted, tossing the empty bottle at him. "Are you happy?"
"Who the fuck else would I be?" Happy's eyebrow draw together as he turned to stare at the other doctor in the room, the one fighting a smile as she made her way towards the door. "You sure she doesn't have a concussion?"
Tara rolled her eyes. "Hilarious."
"I'm pretty sure he's not being sarcastic," Kozick remarked.
"I got chips!" Ratboy announced rushing back into the room.
Happy turned to scowl at the bags in his hands. "Where's the fuckin cookies? Doc says her sugar's low—the Hell she need with all that salt?"
Dr. Montgomery muffled her laughter with a series of coughs as she made her exit. "Goodnight, Fellas…Dr. Knowles."
Tara shot out of the bed before the door had fully closed.
Piney rushed to her side, bracing the palm of his hands into her shoulders as she steadied her footing. "You need to take it easy, Tara."
"I have to find out what's going on with Jackson."
"He's still in surgery," Opie told her. "Your boss says your doctor friend Chambers is working on him. He's going to be okay, Tara…unless…"
Tara shrugged Piney's hands off her shoulders as she turned to glare up at his son. "You got something you want to say, Asshole?"
Opie's answering gaze packed just as much heat when he said, "You want to tell me why Wendy has a hole in her arm? You think that's going to help y'all situation?"
Tara's rapid-fire retort died on her tongue as the door to her hospital room opened and shut behind Wayne Unser. "You alright, Tara?"
"Is this your master plan?" There was an edge to her smile as Tara widened her eyes. "You play good cop while Gemma plants the throwaway when I'm not looking? I guess being forced to put in your papers didn't get rid of the leash she has on you."
Unser held both hands up in surrender when every leather kutte squeaked as the men wearing them turned to glare at him. "I don't even know what the Hell she's talking about. Someone told me Wendy Case showed up to the ER with a GSW—said she was barely conscious, that they had to admit her 'cause of how much blood she lost."
"What the Hell does that have to do with you?" Tara challenged, crossing her arms. "I met the new sheriff the other day. Didn't they fire you?"
"Aw shit," Unser hissed, shaking his balding head. "Gemma's actually telling the truth this time, isn't she? She's not the one who shot her. You are."
"I don't have time for this," Tara huffed, snatching out the I.V hooked to her. She shoved her way past the sea of men standing between her and her exit, then yanked the door open. The door flapped shut behind her just as they heard her mutter, "It was a fucking flesh wound."
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Dr. Alex Chambers glanced up from the open chest spread across the OR table in front of him. "Nice of you to finally join us," He remarked, dropping his gaze back down to the surgical tray to the left of him. Blood stained the fingers of the gloved hand he held out for the suture he'd asked for seconds before Dr. Yang entered the room. "Watch your step, Yang. Honestly, I don't think you should've even bothered scrubbing back in. The fun part's already over.".
Blood was everywhere.
It was soaked into the gowns smocked around them, dried into the scrub caps tied to their heads, splashed all over the thin baby-blue sheets draped over the patient—and steadily flowing from the donor IV bags hanging beside the handsome surgeon fixing the hole in his spleen.
"I came back as soon as I could," Dr. Yang explained, being mindful of the puddles of blood on the OR floor as she walked closer. "One of our doctors collapsed outside in the parking lot. I had to stay with her until Dr. Montgomery arrived."
"Still no luck getting in contact with Dr. Knowles?"
"Well actually—"
"—I was under the impression that Tara and Murphy were pretty close," He continued, twisting the scalpel in his hand. "I'm surprised she didn't jump at the chance to assist me."
"Mr. Teller is a former patient here so when I checked his medical records I saw that she's listed as his emergency contact and power of attorney in the event that…well, luckily she won't have that problem anymore."
Alex lifted his head, sparing a glance at the monitors on the other side of the table. "The jury's still out on that actually. Sure, his vitals are holding steady. And Mr. Teller here is a one tough son of a bitch, but he lost a lot of blood—and you interns made quite a few mistakes. I've done everything I can to stabilize him. The rest is up to whatever God his loved ones believe in."
"Of course, Sir."
"I figured he was family to her though," Alex proclaims to the room of four doctors and a scrub Nurse. "Poor Murphy was white as a sheet when she walked in the room. We barely made it down here in time with her holding up the elevator. Maybe he's her nephew or something. Did it say who he was to her in his files?"
"It says she's his wife."
"What?" Alex chuckled, shaking his head as he sutured with well-practiced hands. "No way, Yang. I met Murphy's husband at the fundraiser thing last week."
"I was speaking of Dr. Knowles, Sir. Doctor Knowles is listed as wife."
Christina Yang's words were followed by a clink—the sound of the scalpel in Alex's hand falling to the floor.
Right before the shrill beep of Jackson Teller's vitals plummeting filled the room.
"He's flat-lining!"
"May you grow up and stand as a man…love…with the pride of your family and name…when you lay down your head…or to rest in your bed…may you stay in the…" Tara was singing the final line of a lullaby for the little soldier sleeping in her arms when she finally noticed him, standing in the doorway.
Alex stood, leaning against the wall, watching her. The smile tipping up the corners of his mouth didn't quite reach his eyes. "You have a pretty voice…I always thought so."
Tara's smile didn't even crack the surface. Instead it stayed buried beneath the mixture of hope and dread marring her features. "Is he…Is Jackson…?"
"They're wheeling him into recovery right now. He made it through the surgery. That's all I can say for now." Alex walked across the private surgical residents' room towards her, stopping in front of the couch where she sat. "You didn't tell me you married him. Jackson Teller…that's the guy, right? The one you left town to get away from…the one you wouldn't talk about…"
"It's a long, complicated story," Tara admitted, brushing back the hairs sticking to Abel's sleeping face. "But no…we're not married…I'm just…it's—"
"—a complicated story," Alex finished for her, moving to sit down. Tara's eyes never wavered from her son's peaceful expression as she felt the couch beside her. Not even when Alex softly muttered, "You were always a complicated story, Tara…didn't stop me from trying to look you up off and on over the years…I missed you."
"I should probably take Abel home," Tara announced, leaning forward slowly, eyes on the sleeping boy in her lap. "I can't let this mess with his routine."
"Wait," Alex urged, bracing a hand on her shoulder to still her movement. "I'm…I'm sorry I said that. It was unbelievably selfish—your life's complicated enough and I'm not trying,"—Alex leapt up as his hand slid off her when she continued her ascent. He reached for her forearm this time, turning to face her, his head shaking. "I didn't mean it the way it sounded, Tara."
Tara cocked an eyebrow at him, a knowing look shone in her eyes as she adjusted the tiny blonde head tucked in the crook of her neck. "You didn't?"
She didn't pull as he slowly slid his hand down her arm to join it with hers. Tara followed the movement, watching as her hand was wrapped within the warmth of his. "Okay maybe I did," Alex admitted when she didn't immediately pull away.
"Alexander, I'm grateful to you," Tara told him quietly. Unable to stop herself, she found her tear-glistened eyes meeting his—green locked with a chocolate-brown. "If you hadn't saved him…"
"Do you love him?"
"I love my son. I love him more than I've ever loved anyone, and I c-c-c-can't lose him." Tara's wounded gaze quickly shifted back to Abel's face as Alex pulled her towards him, wrapping his arm around her, palm pressing into the small of her back. "I could have lost everything. If you hadn't…I would have lost everything…Thank you."
Alex's answer was a gentle was to gently tip her chin up with his fingers, a brief moment to drink in the relief and gratitude in her eyes, and the happiness twisting up the corners of her trembling lips.
The palm of Tara's free hand slowly made its way to his chest as he leaned in—and kissed her.
Dr. Tara Knowles—the very woman who'd helped her detoxed, coached her on how to plead for rehab instead of jail time—was the reason Wendy's shoulder felt even number than the rest of her. The beeping of the monitors by her bedside was a recurring beat that was all too familiar to the recovering addict. It was a sound she'd grown accustomed to after years of needing her stomach pumped and her vitals resuscitated when she would overdose. Her emergency C-section the day Abel was born wasn't the only time she'd used more drugs than her body could withstand, but it was the day she'd promised—on her child's life—would be her last time lying in sterilized bedsheets with an IV drip threaded into her veins. She'd kept that promise for eleven months. She was supposed to be getting her one year chip in another three weeks.
"Ms. Case?" Wendy glanced up from the cool, clear liquid streaming its way into her favorite vein. "I understand you're a little disoriented. The doctor said you lost a lot of blood before your girlfriend was able to get you to the hospital. I've already taken her statement, so she decided to venture out to the gift shop—give you a few minutes to tell me what happened. So…who shot you Wendy?"
"You must be the new Sheriff." Wendy winced as she attempted to push herself to sit up straighter in the bed with her bad arm. "Shit…I think the meds are wearing off."
"I apologize," Sheriff Roosevelt answered, grimacing slightly as he eyed the gauze taped around her shoulder. "I asked the doc to lower your dose so you'd be alert enough to give me your statement."
"My shoulder is fucking killing me," Wendy narrowed her eyes in pain as the white-hot throbbing sensation increased. "Write that down."
"Do you mind telling me what happened?"
Wendy's eyebrows rose towards the light sheen of sweat peppering her forehead. "Do I have a choice?"
"Not unless you want me to assume you were involved in some kind of criminal activity," Roosevelt warned. "I know you're the Old lady of SAMCRO Vice President Jackson Teller. I also know that you recently filed for custody of the son you share. Normally he'd be my first pick on the suspects list but I'm aware that he's serving a fourteen-month sentence in Stockton—or that he was at least."
"Oh my God." Wendy clapped a hand over her mouth, her eyes quickly glittering with unshed tears. "Jackson is—I mean, what the Hell happened? Was it the Irish—"
"Jackson Teller is in intensive care," Roosevelt assured her. "Doc says he has a fifty-fifty shot at coming out of this alive. He was also shot tonight—while in prison. You want to shed some light on what's happening?" Sheriff Roosevelt pulled a leather notepad from his, flipped it to a fresh page and clicked the pen he'd slid from between the sheets open. "And who did you mean when you said the Irish? Are you referring to the IRA? I'm aware that the Sons of Anarchy have been affiliated with—"
Wendy jumped when the door to her hospital room flew open.
The throbbing pain in her arm shot straight through her temple as she watched three men in leather SAMCRO Kuttes file into the room one by one. She couldn't stop seeing the gun he'd pointed in her face even as Opie Winston's arms hung loosely at his sides. Happy Lowman and Kozick looked considerably more trigger-happy, their hands twitching at their waists. All three men ignored the uniformed chief officer standing at the foot of her bed.
"How's it going, Wendy?" Kozick's voice was a higher octave than normal, his smile razor sharp as he approached her bedside. No one missed the way she flinched when he dipped down towards her, only to lightly press a kiss to her sweaty forehead. "We've been worried sick about you. What the Hell happened? I keep telling Jax he should get you to move out of that bad neighborhood you've been living in. Or were you just visiting? Jesus Christ—I hope you're not using again!" Kozick made a show of lifting his shoulders with the bushy eyebrows above his eyes as he briefly glanced towards Roosevelt. "I know exactly what it's like to struggle with addiction."
"I'm well aware of Ms. Case's past with drugs." Roosevelt, wedged the fountain pen in his hand between the sheets of the notepad he was holding before tucking it back into his pocket. "Just as I've also been made aware that Dr. Knowles filed a restraining order against her," He continued, eyes bouncing from Wendy to the three biker men crowding one side of her hospital bed. "Assuming my timeline is accurate, this order of protection was filed shortly after you retained counsel from Ms. Lowen."
"You said so yourself, Chief." Wendy winced as she made another futile attempt to adjust her body into a more comfortable position. "Lowen's not my lawyer. She's my girlfriend. And that whole order of protection situation was a misunderstanding. Tara and I are planning on working it out on our own terms. She's pregnant…and hormonal. You know how us women are."
"Is Tara Knowles the person who shot you?" Roosevelt asked.
"Are you fucking shitting me with this?" Kozick exclaimed, waving a hand towards the blonde woman struggling to answer his question without incriminating herself. "Did Tara shoot her—Tara's the one who helped her get clean! She saved her fucking life. Not to mention—she's the only reason Blondie here didn't go down for negligent homicide or some shit for shooting up with a kid in her stomach."
"There's no actual law in the State of California that says a pregnant woman can be charged for—"
"Who gives a shit!" Kozick glared at Wendy, until she snapped her mouth shut again. "The point is that Doc'—um, Tara—she's a healer. She doesn't go around shooting people. She stitches people back together after they get shot."
"According to St. Thomas employee directory Doctor Tara Knowles is a neonatal specialist," Roosevelt hedged, cocking an eyebrow. "She's a surgical resident in the pediatric department. I don't imagine there being too many cases involving babies and bullet wounds…but then, I don't want to assume you're referring to medical procedure performed outside her work. That would be illegal—cause for a revoked medical license even."
Wendy's eyes widened, her lips moving before she could think better of it. No one missed the hope, the thinly-veiled hint of calculation in her voice, in the look she gave the bald-headed officer. "They'll take her license for helping the club?"
"She hasn't been helping the club," Happy barked, his jaw clenched tightly. The threat of danger his harsh features exuded seemed to intensify, without his facial expression changing a tick.
"Tara's got nothing to do with any club business," Opie declared, shooting Wendy a rare glare of his own. "Not unless you considered mixing up some oatmeal in a pot or scrambling a few eggs for one of Gemma's Sunday pancake breakfast's helping."
Kozick leaned in towards the handsome Sheriff, eyebrows wriggling. "You know what they say about ass-uming shit, don't you Chief?"
Roosevelt made a point to roll his eyes at the spiky-haired biker before turning to take in the openly pleading look in Wendy's eyes. "The doctor says they're keeping you here overnight to make sure you're clear of getting an infection. I'll check back in with you tomorrow…give you a chance to get some rest…get your story straight." They all watched as the newly appointed Sheriff of Charming County made a show of checking his watch. "In fact, visiting hours are just about over. Would you like me to escort these fellas out?"
Wendy hesitated, weighing her options before finally deciding that a hospital full of cameras and witnesses was the safest place to be threatened. "We've still got a couple minutes, don't we? If it's alright with you I'd like a moment to talk with them…hear how Jackson's doing and everything."
"…Of course," Roosevelt nodded stiffly. His eyes left Wendy's to flit towards the three men crowding her hospital room, the warning in his expression evenly matched with the sternness of his tone. "I should probably track down Ms. Knowles. Hear her side of things. And like I said…I'll be back to check in on you later."
"Babe?"
It was amazing how a single word could change everything. The white-knuckled grip Tara held on her composure—all of the strength in her resolve to be strong disappeared the moment she heard his voice.
"Jackson!" Her tears wouldn't stop. The sob caught in her throat was in competition with the relieved laughter bubbling up from her chest, propelling her forward until she was pushing the button to lower the railing on the left side of his hospital bed.
"Heyyy, Babe." Jax's lazy smile was more languid than normal as he stretched his arm out towards the same row of buttons, tapping until he found the one meant for raising the incline on the bed.
"Jackson, No." Tara shook her head, worrying the corner of her bottom lip with her teeth as she took in every wince that hissed past his teeth when he tried sliding higher up. "You need to relax, Jackson. You just had major surgery."
"You're the one who should be relaxing, Tara." Jax ignored the dull ache in his abdomen to lean forward, to press a palm to her stomach. "How's my boy doing in there? You never did tell me when your next appointment was. Are they giving you a picture next time?"
The sonogram that her OB Dr. Addison had given her only hours before burned in the pocket of her lab coat, but she ignored the urge to share any of what she'd been up to while he'd been fighting for his life on an operating table. There would be time to talk about her health scare later. "He's doing fine. Making me burn calories faster than I can eat them, making me tired, my feet swollen, and turning me into someone who cries when she forgets to cut the crust off Abel's sandwich even though she knows he doesn't like it."
"So basically, he's driving you crazy the way all of us Teller's seem to do," Jax teases, rubbing his hand along her stomach. He lifted his gaze towards the empty recliner chair on the other side of the room. "Where's Abel? You left him with Gemma? God, He's probably the only thing that'll keep her calm right now. I doubt the Fed's will let her out of house arrest to come up here. Honestly…I'm kind of hoping they won't."
You're not the only one, Tara thought. "Abel is with Margaret."
Jax's eyebrows drew closer. "The redhead who was threatening you before?"
"We made amends."
"You trust her?"
Tara raised a single eyebrow. "Do you think I'd leave Abel with her if I didn't trust her?"
Jax half-raised his hands in surrender before they dropped heavy at his sides. "No, Ma'am."
"What?" Tara asked when he shook his head at her. The corners of his mouth twitched until he finally gave into the cocky smile that always got them—her—in trouble. "What's so funny, Jax?"
"Nothing," Jax started, a light chuckle escaping in between the dry cough muffled behind the fist he raised to his mouth. "It's just… I would have gotten myself shot a long time ago if I knew this was the wakeup call I had to look forward to. I've missed your smile…Your real one," He said, sliding the hand on her stomach down to lock his fingers with hers on the bed.
Tara yanked her hand away from his, slapping it over her mouth. She doubled over as far as her pregnant belly allowed for, her face buried beneath her palms. The gut-wrenching sobs making her body shake all over were too pained, too violent to muffle, even with her mouth clamped shut.
"Whoah." Jax barely noticed the pain shooting through his sides, and for a moment he was able to fight the fatigue, the sluggishness of the anesthesia still in his system to sit all the way forward, to pry her hands away from her tear-soaked face. He pressed a thumb to her chin, urging her head up so she could meet the concern crinkling his eyes at the corners. "Hey, Hey…Tara, Babe. It was a shitty joke, I didn't mean it. I'm sorry—"
"You should be!" Tara screeched, knocking his hand away from her face. "You should be really fucking sorry, Jackson. Do you have any idea what could have happened? What almost happened? I almost lost two people I love last night."
"What?" If possible, Jax's posture straighten a little more. "Someone else got hurt? Opie? Piney?"
"I'm not talking about your club—I'm talking about Abel, Jackson." The realization in his eyes, the guilt swimming in all the shades of blue, it dried up all of her tears. It relit the fuse that had been hair-trigger sensitive ever since the day Abel was ripped from her arms at knife-point all those months ago. "God, I am so sick of this shit. I'm never there when you need me because you won't let me—you can't ever let me be here for you. You rely on everyone else. Porn whores, your psychotic mother. It's never me."
"Tare, you're here with me now," Jax argued gently. "And I'm not pushing you away. Babe, you're the only one I want here with me. You, me and our boys."
"I'm here now."
"What are you saying?" Jax squinted his eyes at her, a cold feeling settling in his chest at the lack of emotion in her voice, the emphasis her flat tone placed on her being here 'now'. "You think I'm going to pull away again? Babe, I promise—"
"The only reason I'm here is because the doctor said you would pull through." Venom she couldn't swallow down bled into every word on her tongue, the anger and disappointment beat down the love and relief she felt to see him alive until the glare darkening her eyes was all she had left to show him. "I only showed up when I knew you were going to survive. But before…I couldn't. I couldn't be here for you—I couldn't grieve for you, I couldn't think about you or what I'd do without you and just like all the other times, it's your fault. I shouldn't even feel guilty about it, but I still do. I feel guilty when this shit is on you. You made it this way. It's you, Jackson. You're making me this way."
"I'm sorry for pushing you away," Jax said, not for the first or tenth or last time. "I was just trying to protect you, but I know it was wrong. And I know it's not an excuse, and I know you said you're tired of hearing I'm sorry—but shit, Tara, I don't know what else to say to you. I love you and I'm sorry that my actions haven't been matching up with my words lately. I want to fix this."
Tara raked a hand through her hair, frustration making her sound winded when she spoke. "You're still talking to me about what you want. But this isn't about you anymore. This is about Abel, Jax. This is about the fact that your mother would sooner see me dead than let me be his mother. This is about that crank whore you married showing up, trying to snatch him away from both of us. If you died…God, Jackson…I love you—and you almost died. And I wanted to cry for you, but I couldn't. I wanted to pray you'd be okay but all I could think about was losing my son and I…I blame you for that."
When he reached for her hand again, Tara let him. She didn't react to the gentle squeeze of his fingers threaded between hers, the incontestable love and want radiating in his own tear-glistening gaze. "I love you, too, Babe. Always have. No more half in, half out. I'm here."
"You have to trust me, Jax. If you want me here, you have to trust me."
"I do trust you—"
"Then sign the fuckin papers!" Even Tara flinched at the heightened octave of her voice. But it didn't stop her, didn't quiet her down, didn't keep her from rising up from the edge of his bed to peer down at him, resolution clear in her lovelorn expression. "You have to do this, Baby. Not just because I'm asking—No, you need to do this for your son. You have to do this for us."
Jax held his hand out, counting the measured seconds before Tara walked forward to slide hers into his. "You're not just a babysitter." Jax tightened his grip, with his eyes he begged her not to try to pull away again, to let him finish saying all the words that weren't 'Yes', 'Okay', or 'I'll sign them'. Silently, he pleaded with her to stay there with him, to listen, to try to understand. "And I'm not just a sperm donor…"
"He's your son," Tara argued, already shaking her head. "No one would ever question that."
"He's our son."
"We should get married."
Tara's hand slid from his as she slowly sat back down at the edge of his bed. Back at Stockton, he'd hinted at it during their disastrous visitation session. But it wasn't the first time he'd asked her to marry him. That would have been back when they were nineteen, when they were standing at a crossroad and he could see her feet turning to run in the opposite direction. Tara couldn't help the smile that tempted her lips as she thought about her sixteen-year old self—the girl who scribbled Dr. Tara Knowles Teller on the dividers in her five-subject notebook during boring AP classes. Nor could she stop the pang in the pit of her stomach, the frown winning out on curving the corners of her mouth when she turned her head to look at him. She could see it in his eyes, that her ghost of a smile, however fleeting, had renewed the hope he had for a hopeless solution to the recurring issue in their relationship. Marriage wasn't a band-aid, it wasn't a reset button, a do-over for all the times he'd broken his promise to be back from a club run in time to give her a ride to UCLA for a campus tour. It wouldn't erase the memory of him telling her Abel wasn't his.
"Do you remember how it was before Belfast?" Jax's voice broke the strained silence when her smile didn't return to match his own disappearing grin. "Before I found out what happened to Gemma? The club divided between me and Clay, Me wanting to go Nomad…"
"I was there, Jax—for all of it," Tara said. "I wasn't the one who left this time."
Jax nodded once, eyes flitting towards the window, staring out into the night, the darkness not unlike the miles of road stretched out in front of him whenever he went for a ride. "You and Gemma were worried about me being on the road on my own. But the truth is…I went Nomad a long time ago, Tara. I've been riding alone since I was nineteen, when you left me. I know it's a shitty excuse, but I got so used to…to trying to survive on my own, without needing anyone ever again…without needing you. I finally figured out how to function without my other half—my better half. And then you came back. And you saved Abel. You saved my son, the only person in this world I'll ever love as much as I love you…I'm tired of riding on my own, Babe. I don't want to be a Nomad anymore. I want to be with my family. I'm trying to come home. But it's not up to me. You're the one with the gavel. I need you to vote yes."
"What do you mean I can't go see him? He's my son… well right now I don't know if he'll be alive tomorrow and that asshole D.A expects me to see sit tight and wait until I get invited down to I.D his body? I don't want to hear you can't make it happen. What the Hell am I paying you for?"
"I'm sorry, Mrs. Morrow, but Jax's doctor confirmed that him and the correction officer are both stable. Not that he's out of the woods, the D.A won't budge. And if you try to leave, he will send you to County to finish the rest of your probation behind bars. But this is good thing, right? If they approved furlough for you that would mean he's in worse shape. Maybe—"
Gemma snatched the cellphone away from her ear, tossing it towards the kitchen wall. Her chest heaved as she glared down at the shattered remains of her last prepaid phone. She'd have to get one of the prospects to make a run to the store to buy more disposable cells. It was funny how many she'd gone through since that Doctor Bitch had come to town. Her son's head hadn't been screwed on right since he brought Tara Knowles, the town drunk's daughter to his first clubhouse rager. She'd been twisting him up ever since they were sixteen. Distracting him, letting crazed Irish men kidnap her grandson, jerking her son around so much he lost focus and nearly got himself killed in Stockton.
The bitch was poison.
And now Tara was threatening to take it a step further—she was threatening to unearth a secret that would ruin Jackson and all of SAMCRO—the organization she helped build—for good. As screwed up as it was, Gemma didn't know what was scarier. That her son might die before she got to see him or that he'd wake up to more of Tara's lies—accusations and assumptions without a shred of evidence to back it up. Who the Hell had even told her? Clay would never reveal his own betrayal. And Tara hadn't made it to Belfast for that Irish Gash to poison her the way that Judas Priest had tried to poison Jax. There was only one other person who could have let on. There's only one way she would have known about fake accident reports.
"Gemma?" Gemma turned her head towards the entryway, her eyes locking on the concerned face of Wayne Unser. "You doing alright? I've been calling your name for two minutes? Did someone call to update you about Jax? You know he's fine right? He made it through the surgery."
"Rowan says the D.A won't give me a day pass to see him."
Wayne nodded once. "Yeah, well…that's a good thing, Gem. It means he's not critical anymore."
"There's nothing good about this shit!" Gemma slammed her hand down on the counter. "How the Hell does Tara know anything about you faking JT's accident report?"
Wayne's eyes widened. "What?"
"She knows something, Wayne. And I sure as shit didn't tell her. Clay didn't either. So that just leaves you."
"I-I-I didn't tell her anything," Wayne insisted, holding his hands up, waving them surrender. "I got no idea how she found out. And you need calm down, Gemma. Tara's smart. She's probably just fishing to see how you'll react."
Gemma stepped back to reach for the handle of the drawer in front of her, pulling it open. Wayne stepped forward, reaching out towards her when she pulled a long, serrated kitchen knife from inside of it. Gemma shrugged off the hand Wayne placed on her shoulder. "Wayne…Call an ambulance."
"What?" Wayne looked down the at the carving knife in her hand. "For what? What the Hell are you doing? Gemma what the Hell!"
Gemma winced, her eyes squeezing tight as the blade sliced through her arm. Blood glinted along the knife as she pulled it back, wiping her prints off the handled before tossing it to the kitchen floor.
"Gemma, what the Fuck?"
"Make the call," Gemma demanded, watching as the blood gushed from the wound along her forearm. The open wound couldn't compare to the gash she'd have in her heart from the knife Tara threatened to twist in it. "I need a doctor."
Alicia was waiting for her in her office when she turned the key in the lock, pushing it open. Abel sat beside her, content as could be, drawing on a mini-coloring book with a crayon from the box on the one empty spot remaining on the couch. "You've got some explaining to do, Knowles."
Tara rushed towards the woman rising to stand, enveloping her in as tight a hug as her stomach allowed. "I was wondering if it was really you I saw or if maybe I was hallucinating."
"There was something in your voice on the phone," Alicia told her, pulling back after one last squeeze. "It sounded like you needed more than a teleconference about adoption and custody trials. And Tara…I'm going to need more than the cliff notes you gave me over the phone…What happened?"
Tara's answering laugh lacked any actual mirth. Her smile was tight as she moved to sit down next to Abel, leaning over to kiss the top of his head. Alicia sat down on the other side of the quiet child, watching the way Tara's eyes were fixed on the downy soft blonde hair she ran her hands through while Abel continued to color. "How long ago did Margaret hand him over to you?"
"It took a lot of convincing to get her to let me take him," Alicia admitted, grinning. "She didn't leave until they finally gave up on trying to page her to announce her presence being needed in the E.R over the intercom. That's a loyal friend you've got there. She also mentioned something a Gemma Teller…something about not letting her anywhere near him if she showed up. Teller…the same last name as Abel and Jackson…this the infamous Biker mom that you said rivaled any of the shit my mother-in-law Jackie puts me through?"
Tara couldn't even fake a smile. "That's the one."
"You got a twenty on you?" Alicia asked, holding her hand out when Tara nodded. When the other brunette pulled a twenty-dollar bill from the breast pocket of her scrubs, Alicia barely spared the money a glance before unsnapping the briefcase resting by her leg, tossing the crisp bill inside and turning all the way around, legs crossing, to face her. "That makes it official. I'm hired, which means attorney client privilege starts now. Tell me everything I need to know."
"Jesus, Alicia." Tara combed a hand through her hair, pulling it all over to one shoulder. "I don't even know where to begin."
"Well…how about I start with what I already know." When Tara nodded, Alicia uncrossed hers, folding her hands in her lap. "I know why you left Chicago. Joshua Kohn, the FBI creep you met at the bar the night of my bachelorette party. He kept violating the restraining order until he finally chased you away, only to follow you here. The last note in his file was that he was suspended but no one seems to be able to tell me what's happened to him since then. His supervisor says he's been missing."
Tara looked down, her green eyes fixed on the paper in Abel's lap. All the swirls and scratches of red scrawled along the page from the crayon in his hand. "He left Charming…after the suspension he just…left."
Tara wasn't sure how much time had passed, but when she looked up the expression on her old college roommates face made it clear she didn't believe her. "Anything you tell me is privileged, Tara. And not just because it's the law, but because you're one of my oldest friends and I came here because I want to help you. But you have to shoot straight with me."
Shooting is what got me into all of this shit, Tara thought. Before she could divulge anything there came a knock on her office door. "Dr. Knowles?" The door was already being pushed open as she stood up. "Ah, finally. How are things, Doctor? I hope you and the baby—"
"We're fine," Tara answer, a tight smile fixed on her face. Sheriff Roosevelt's inquisitive stare didn't seem to be focused on the health of her pregnancy so much as it was judging how to approach whatever subject he'd come to broach with her. "You and your wife settling in to Charming alright—Oh I'm sorry, this is my friend Alicia. She's visiting from Chicago. Alicia, this is Charming's new Sheriff."
"Nice to meet you," Alicia said, smiling in response to the polite head nod he tossed her way before turning his focus back towards Tara.
Tara folded her arms across her chest. "Did you need me to make a statement or something?"
"Uh, yes—actually could we maybe talk privately for a moment?" The Sheriff cut his eyes towards the other green-eyed brunette in the room—the one in the power suit, with the briefcase in her lap. "It shouldn't take long."
Tara squinted her eyes at him, briefly casting a glance at the little boy who was uncharacteristically content on his own as he colored. "What's this about?"
Alicia shook her head when the Sheriff turned to look expectantly at her. "Correct me if I'm wrong but this seems to be the kind of situation she should have a lawyer present for. That lawyer being me, of course."
Roosevelt sighed, nodding once before reaching inside of his jacket. Alicia's eyes grew wide with surprise as she watched him pull a revolver in a plastic evidence bag from his pocket. "One of my deputies found this on the driver's seat in your car. You must have dropped it when you ran out into the parking lot. Tara…you want to tell me why you're driving around with a gun?"
One more chance baby and don't say No,
because I've got another side to show…
Some say love is painful,
It helps you grow…
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9 responses to "You Are My Sunshine: Chapter 8"
Tiffiny Hunter
Come back please!
I love this story so much! I hope you continue and post soon. Thank you
Thank you another gr8 story. U r one of the few that stay true to the characters. X
Lord I cannot wait to read more, this is so good but also so agonizing waiting for this to get Abel with Tara and Jax where he belongs and Wendy somewhere like a deserted island where she cannot poison any one else's life.
Please post a new chapter soon
September 5, 2018, 2:37 pm
Great story I reread the whole thing for chapter 8 I know Tara is pissed but she has to give Jax another chance to prove he isn't a total jerk.
Yay! Super excited about this update. Eager for more. Such a whirlwind of interactions and dialogue, your character dynamics are awesome.
This is good. I like a story that shows a more realistic view of life then Sons did on allowing Gemma to run the police and everything else in Charming. Tara always needed a lawyer that worked for her interests not the clubs. I hope you continue with the story and update soon. This is really a good tale.
First I love LL Cool J. It's been a long while since I listened to this song. You inspired me to LOL. I have quite the playlist going on my youtube now. hah
It's been YEARS since I watched Grey's. I find it hard to believe it is still on TV. It started when I was in undergrad (aging myself!) hahah I know the characters tho (or at least the ones in YAMS) and its fun to see their personalities interact.
OMG I love Tara being snarky to everyone, even Opie, and especially to Unser. Happy and Rat added humor. They don't know the half of things when it comes to the family drama. Jax really does a good job of keeping that separate. Opie should know tho. I get him giving Tara heat, but he is smart and should be giving Gemma heat too. Waiting for that!
That would be the day, Margaret Murphy and Jax. That would have taken the Mommy complex to a whole new level! Duh, Chambers.
I love that song Maggie sang so much. So haunting yet beautiful.
SO it seems like Tara and Chambers maybe had a positive relationship? Was it just a kiss of comfort or of passion? If it was passion, did Tara reciprocate? Confused. Especially in light of Tara and Jax's love professing later on in the chapter.
I like the guys bombarding the conversation between Roosevelt and Wendy. Tara needs to speak truth soon to Jax so he can have the guys handle it (meaning Wendy, Gemma, and Lowen), unless of course Tara handles it! But she is prego. In my mind this is where Tara sheds (most) of her conflict with the life (other than wanting better for her sons) and just owns it.
This conversation between Jax and Tara is very reminiscent of the 'look what you did to me, what happened to me' comment after Tara caught Jax under Collette. Tara had fault too (even my bias can admit that!), but I always loved that scene. Jax realized that she still loved him and was not doing all her plotting because of lack of love, but rather necessity for their sons. It was her version of 'running his/her ass over' as Jax said JT should have done to Gemma to get him and Thomas out of the life. Just thought of that parallel! Damn this show and all the things that should have been focused on more!
Aw they should get married! Now, I know you are looking to wrap this up quickly and there will be an HEA, but if you weren't wrapping it up quickly, I would think there was a part of Tara that did not want to marry Jax just yet but would to help with the Abel custody thing. Just a thought. And then there would be angst about, did you marry me for Abel or because you love me (from Jax); But since we don't have time for that, this is for real, because of love, commitment and their sons, right?! LOL
Gemma is insane. She would do anything to keep Jax in the life and under her spell. Part of me wishes that Tara really was pregnant when she killed her on the show and Jax found out bc of the autopsy. That would have killed Gemma more. The self inflicted wound here is nuts. So when is Tara telling Jax the truth about JT?! drove me crazy that she did not on the show.
And looking forward to see more of her dynamic with Alicia. Does Alicia know Chambers?
As I said earlier. How is this ending in two chapters?!?!?!?!?!? Love this story!


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Go Behind The Scenes Of Fantastic Four #1 – The First Family's Epic Return!
August 7, 2018 October 2, 2019 Jay
Go Behind The Scenes of FANTASTIC FOUR #1! Dan Slott, Tom Brevoort and C.B. Cebulski tease the first family's epic return! 57 years to the day that the world was introduced to the Fantastic Four, a new tale will begin for Ben, Johnny, Reed and Sue when FANTASTIC FOUR #1 hits comic shops, featuring an all-new story from superstar creators Dan Slott and Sara Pichelli! Marvel is proud to present this behind-the-scenes look at FANTASTIC FOUR, featuring Slott, SVP and Executive Editor Tom Brevoort, and Editor-in-Chief C.B. Cebulski! "One of…
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Celebrate The Return of The Four With Fantastic Fridays!
July 7, 2018 October 2, 2019 Jay
Celebrate The Return of The Four With Fantastic Fridays! Before Dan Slott and Sara Pichelli take the Fantastic Four on new adventures this August, Comic Frontline invites you to help us celebrate this momentous occasion each Friday in July for FANTASTIC FRIDAYS! Leading up to their return we will be looking back in a series of articles featuring the First Family of Comics: The Fantastic Four! This week we are going to highlight all the great comics and covers Marvel has planned to celebrate FANTASTIC FOUR #1! First Up: Specially-Priced…
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The Origin Of The Very First Ghost Rider Revealed In Avengers #7!
June 12, 2018 October 2, 2019 Jay
The Origin Of The Very First Ghost Rider Revealed in AVENGERS #7! Jason Aaron And Sara Pichelli Team Up For A Special Story Sbout The Beginning Of The Marvel Universe! You know his name…you know his face…and you know the flaming woolly mammoth that he rides into battle. Last year, MARVEL LEGACY introduced Odin and his Prehistoric Avengers to critical acclaim, with their story becoming the number one comic in the industry—and now, Marvel invites you to witness the origin of the very first Ghost Rider! Superstar artist Sara Pichelli…
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The Fantastic Four Is Here With A Trailer!
April 19, 2018 October 2, 2019 Jay
REVEALED AT LAST! The Return of the Fantastic Four is Here Along with the Epic Issue #1 Cover! As the Fantastic Four prepare to make their return to the Marvel Universe, Marvel has shared with Comic Frontline a Fantastic Four teaser trailer celebrating new adventures of Reed, Sue, Ben, and Johnny! Watch the Fantastic Four teaser now! Celebrate the Fantastic Four with a view into their past and a look towards the future, from their debut in Stan Lee and Jack Kirby's classic 1961 issue to their much-anticipated return in August's upcoming new series…
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The Fantastic Four Return To The Marvel Universe!
THE FANTASTIC FOUR RETURN TO MARVEL COMICS! The New Monthly Series Will Begin This August As revealed by Editor in Chief C.B. Cebulski in an official video from Marvel, FANTASTIC FOUR will return this summer in an all-new monthly series, written by Dan Slott (Amazing Spider-Man, Silver Surfer) with art by Sara Pichelli (Spider-Man: Miles Morales). "I started my adventures in the Marvel Universe with a freaked-out Reed Richards, the Watcher and the Silver Surfer. I've wanted this for so long." — Dan Slott "We've been waiting for the right…
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Bendis & Pichelli Reunite This July For SPIDER-MEN II – Who Is The Other Miles Morales?
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Marvel First Look: Spider-Man #12 – A Webslinging Romance Ignites!
SPIDER-MAN #12 Ignites a Webslinging Romance – Your First Look! Gwen and Miles sittin' in a tree…you know the rest! What you don't know is the twists and turns that await you inside this brand-new 4-part crossover between Spider-Man and Spider-Gwen! Marvel has shared with Comic Frontline a first look inside SPIDER-MAN #12 – the first chapter of "Sitting in a Tree"! Blockbuster creators Brian Michael Bendis and Sara Pichelli bring you the kiss heard round the world as love is in the air for Miles Morales and Gwen Stacy. These two webslinging…
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Marvel New Look: Star Wars: Darth Vader #25 – The Epic Oversized Finale!
September 14, 2016 October 2, 2019 Jay
Your New Look Inside DARTH VADER #25 – The Epic Finale! Oversized Issue Brings Critically-Acclaimed Series to a Close! It has all been building to this! The epic conclusion to the blockbuster ongoing series! Kieron Gillen and Salvador Larroca's critically acclaimed series comes to a close on October 12th in the blockbuster DARTH VADER #25! It has all built to this! Vader's trials against Cylo's creations! His machinations against the Emperor! His covert missions with Doctor Aphra and her murderous droids. It all comes to a head in this cataclysmic…
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Darth Vader #25 Epic Finale Variant Covers!
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Marvel New Look: Spider-Man #1
February 1, 2016 October 2, 2019 Jay
SPIDER-MAN #1 Swings Into Comic Shops This Wednesday! Your New Look Inside The First Issue! This Wednesday, Miles Morales comes to the Marvel Universe, and he's here to stay! But before SPIDER-MAN #1 comes to comic shops everywhere and digital devices, Marvel has shared with Comic Frontline a new look inside the highly anticipated first issue! Strap in as Miles Morales co-creators Brian Michael Bendis and Sara Pichelli present the next chapter in the young hero's life! "Writing Spider-Man is truly a responsibility. It's not just a gig. It is something…
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Miles Morales Comes to the Marvel Universe in SPIDER-MAN #1!
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Marvel First Look: Thor #1
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Marvel First Look: All-New X-Men #32
August 19, 2014 October 2, 2019 Jay
Face to Face With Miles Morales – Your First Look at ALL-NEW X-MEN #32! Welcome to the All-New X-Men, Miles Morales – hope you survive the experience! Today, Marvel has shred with Comic Frontline a First Look at ALL-NEW X-MEN #32, from superstar writer Brian Michael Bendis and new ongoing artist & Marvel All-New Young Gun Mahmud Asrar! Dimension hopping has become a rite of passage for the X-Men and the All-New X-Men are no exception! Stranded and scattered across the Ultimate Universe, the All-New X-Men must find their way…
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Marvel First Look: The Legendary Star-Lord #1
June 8, 2014 October 2, 2019 Jay
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I love the recent Black Cat series, and this spinoff, Iron Cat, also by Jed MacKay, picks up threads from arcs in Black Cat and does something fun with them. Great read, and the trade is out now. My thoughts on the series:
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Wow! Just finished reading another article in the February issue of Oprah Magazine called "the Five-Moment Memoir". A woman named Sarah Beauchamp, a freelance writer in New York City writes five things that happened each day to decompress. She only writes the highlights and low-lights and limits the number to five to recount the day, ruminate and let her stress leak out onto the page making life feel more managable.


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Q: Charge distribution on the internal surface of a thin conducting spherical shell with a small hole We have a thin conducting spherical shell with a small hole drilled in it. Now, some charge is given to the shell. Will there be any Charge distributed on the internal surface of the shell?

A: Yes, half the charge on the part of the shell which was removed is redistributed to the inner surface of the shell and half is redistributed on the outer surface.

The electric field at the outer surface of a uniformly charged spherical shell is the same as from a point charge : $E=\frac{Q}{4\pi\epsilon_0 R^2}=\frac{\sigma}{\epsilon_0}$ where $\sigma=Q/A$ is the surface charge density of the whole shell and $Q, A$ are its total charge and total surface area.  Inside the shell the electric field is $0$ (see Newton's Shell Theorem, which applies for spherically symmetric mass or charge distributions).
This electric field $E$ is made up of 2 components : that $E_1$ due to the local charge on a disk occupying the orifice and that $E_2$ due to the rest of the spherical shell : $E=E_1+E_2$.

The electric field due to the charge on the disk is $E_1=\pm \frac{\sigma}{2\epsilon}$. It points both inwards and outwards. The electric field $E_2$ from the rest of the shell points only outwards, as from a point charge located at the centre of the sphere.
Inside the shell $E_1$and $E_2$ point in opposite directions, so the total electric field inside the shell is zero : $E_2+E_1=0$. This means that $E_2=-E_1=\frac{\sigma}{2\epsilon_0}$. Outside the shell both components $E_1, E_2$ point in the same direction and add up to $E=\frac{\sigma}{\epsilon_0}$.
If the disk is removed from the spherical shell, leaving a small orifice, the electric field through this orifice is $E_2=+\frac{\sigma}{2\epsilon_0}$ outwards. All of the field lines passing through the orifice must start on charges on the inner surface of the spherical shell. Using a gaussian surface
between the inner and outer surfaces of the spherical shell, the flux through this surface is $aE_2$ so the charge enclosed (ie on the inner surface of the sphell) is $$q=\epsilon_0 aE_2=\epsilon_0 a \frac{\sigma}{2\epsilon_0}=\frac{a}{A}\frac{Q}{2}$$ This means that half the charge which would have been on the disk has redistributed to the inner surface and half to the outer surface of the spherical shell.
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The Indigenous History of Grand Canyon National Park
by Jamie Cattanach
Published on December 6th, 2021
If there's one must-see American wilderness that's highly likely to be on your bucket list, it's Grand Canyon National Park — and for good reason. Thousands of feet deep, hundreds of miles long and more than a dozen miles wide, the Grand Canyon really is a landscape like none you've ever seen before. It truly boggles the mind.
Case in point: approximately 6 million visitors made their way to this massive crack in the ground in 2019, and although the pandemic has thrown the numbers into disarray a bit, it continues to be one of the most popular national parks on the American roster.
Which is exactly why it's so important to pause a moment and reflect on the larger history of the Grand Canyon, or the landscape we've named as such. Northern Arizona and the Grand Canyon are the historical and ancestral land of many tribes of Indigenous Peoples, including but not limited to the Pueblo, Havasupai, Hopi, Hualapai, Paiute, Apache, and Navajo Tribes, Peoples and Nations. Their story far exceeds the western memory and imagination of this incredible and sacred spot.
Archeological findings reveal that the Grand Canyon has been a home to Native Americans and Ancient Indigenous peoples for some 13,000 years. To put that into perspective, western settlers first arrived there in 1540 — which may seem like quite a while ago until you see that figure in the larger historical context. The Grand Canyon figures in the oral storytelling tradition of many different tribes, who describe the great magic that conspired to create such a large and humbling rift in the earth.
According to the National Park Service website for the Grand Canyon, there are eleven current tribes who are associated with the Grand Canyon, and whose histories and cultures have held the place as a touchstone:
Havasupai Tribe
Hopi Tribe
Hualapai Tribe
Kaibab Band of Paiute Indians
Las Vegas Band of Paiute Indians
Moapa Band of Paiute Indians
Paiute Indian Tribe of Utah
San Juan Southern Paiute Tribe
The Pueblo of Zuni
Yavapai-Apache Nation
Among the interpretive signage and displays offered along the South Rim of the Grand Canyon, visitors can explore an 800-year-old Tusayan Pueblo Indian Ruin, and ranger-led tours are also available to make information and knowledge more accessible to wide audiences.
The tribes described above lived in the American Southwest in a variety of ways, but all are characterized by rich cultures, traditions, and rituals, as well as a caring attention to the land that sustained them (and which they stewarded in return). These practices continue today as enrolled members of these tribes combine contemporary lifestyles with long-standing Native American tradition that too often goes overlooked and silenced.
Paying Respect to the Land
Learning about the ancient stewards of a landscape — and the people whose home this was before colonization — is an important first step toward understanding your place in the larger context of a landscape's history, which is often far more complicated and tragic than we realize at first glance. The Grand Canyon is an incredible place to bring the family to engage in amateur naturalism, hiking, and other outdoor sports, not to mention the simple wonder at how majestic our planet can be at times, but it's also a hallowed, storied place.
Along with reading write-ups like these and taking advantage of the availability of Native American storytelling at the National Park itself, you can also consider using a service like Native Land to look up whose ancestral stomping grounds you're standing on, no matter where you are in America.
And at the Grand Canyon and every other national park — or any wilderness, for that matter — we highly encourage all campers to follow Leave No Trace principles, which help ensure visitors leave a landscape just as they found it, or even better, so as to preserve it for future generations. This includes camping only on designated and sturdy ground, packing out all trash you pack in, and resisting the urge to take home natural "souvenirs."
Take, intead, some photos — and be sure to spend plenty of time simply enjoying this place in real time. It truly is a once-in-a-world, once-in-a-lifetime experience, and has called to the human heart for about as long as human hearts have been.
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This is my second try on this particular pattern, and I'm glad I stuck it out! I love the undulating waves, punctuated by nupps and wrapped stitches. There's a lot going on with this pattern, and in retrospect I wish I'd chosen a lighter-colored yarn … but I loved working with the Tosh Light, and I love wearing the finished shawlette. I made the small size, and it's really more kerchief than shawl.
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Ready to barre it all?
By REVATHI MURUGAPPAN
Sunday, 07 Jul 2019
You don't need to have a dance background but if you do, it just enables you to pick up WeBarre quicker. Photos: LOW LAY PHON/The Star
All ballet dancers know what a barre is. The long handrail is used to gently warm-up the body, gain speed and precision in footwork, increase strength and flexibility, improve balance and build stability when standing on one leg.
Performing exercises at the barre sets the foundation for a strong dancer, and the results reveal itself during center floor work and the rest of ballet class. The more effort that is put into barre work, the more a student will get out of class.
Using the same principles, a number of barre-inspired workouts have emerged in the past decade – of course, the moment a celebrity endorses one (Madonna and Ryan Gosling – yes, even him!), the workout soars in popularity with the masses.
On the Asian front, WeBarre has been slowly carving a name for itself in Singapore. Founded by Anabel Chew and Linda Tang, WeBarre is a hybrid workout class combining ballet-inspired moves along with the elements of Pilates, yoga, dance and strength training.
It focuses on high repetitions of small range movements and is great for strengthening and toning your body. And no, you don't need a dance background to grasp the basics.
"People who have a ballet background will find the movements that we do in class familiar and they will pick it up quickly. However, it doesn't mean the class will be easier for them, as the burn will be all the same!
"A barre class is more fitness-focused, and targets specific muscle groups to fatigue and is designed to be challenging, compared to a regular ballet class that focuses on the choreography, technique and posture," explains Chew.
Malaysians got a preview of WeBarre recently, with Chew leading the class on a sunny Sunday by the poolside at a hotel in Kuala Lumpur.
Don't let her petite frame fool you, for Chew gives a killer workout!
The dynamic 60-minute class worked on strengthening and sculpting our bodies through graceful but impactful movements, fuelled by uplifting music and in the company of like-minded barre enthusiasts.
Her workouts are all about "tough love" and a "post-sweat sexy glow" is your reward. For a petite lady (she's only 1.56m), she gave a killer workout that put the male participants to shame.
She says, "With barre, you don't have to worry about bulking up. This physique appeals to many women, who want to be slender, build posture and get lean. It targets your entire body, specifically the smaller muscles such as stabilisers in your core and glutes, which are highly underutilised and weakened in our modern lifestyles.
"You see visible results quickly, and start noticing an increase in your stamina and resistance level – which will help increase your performance in other activities like running and competitive sports.
"For men, after all that working of bigger muscle groups lifting weights in the gym, it is important to mix up the routine with barre. The core and stability muscles must be strong so that you can safely and effectively perform heavy-lifting with minimal tension, maximum ease and postural awareness. It is also great for people who are recovering from injuries or have physical limitations, due to the rehabilitative nature of this workout."
According to her, an average female can burn 280 to 350 calories in a class, and men, about 30% more.
A musician first
From running cross country to competitive cheerleading in school, fitness has been part of Chew's life since young, though she says she was "quite chubby" and "heavy-chested" before she started WeBarre, but she never let her negative self-image affect her.
"I used to get lower back pain, to the point where I casually considered getting a breast reduction – to which my mum told me to stop being silly, so I let it go!
Building core strength is important for many everyday functions.
"But strangely, when I started losing weight, I felt quite self-conscious because my bust size decreased significantly, and that was a part of me that I suddenly felt was missing. I got over it soon enough, because the rest of my body was healthy, strong and happy," she says, laughing.
Chew doesn't have a ballet background and studied music in university, which meant she spent anywhere from four to seven hours every day practising the flute and rehearsing for performances.
"That made my neck and shoulders tense, so I picked up yoga to release all the tension in my upper body. It was also a good way to destress and focus during the 60 minutes of practice.
"To get the cardio element, I started doing HIIT (High-Intensity Interval Training) exercises as they are really time-efficient and I get to sweat," says the 31-year-old, who was a professional musician for a decade and played in chamber ensembles, orchestras, jazz quartets and as a soloist, before becoming an entrepreneur.
While pursuing music, she found her way to New York City in the summer of 2014. At that point, she had been practising yoga regularly and was looking for studios in the Big Apple to work out in.
Chew recalls: "My friends dragged me to a barre class, saying, 'Yoga is great but you haven't felt all your muscles work until you've been to barre'. After my first class, I was hooked. Back then I would consider myself pretty fit physically, but that class just blew my mind – I never felt my muscles having to work like that ever!"
When she returned to Singapore, she tried to find a barre workout to challenge herself. Alas, there was none available.
"One day, the owners of a now-defunct fitness studio said they wanted to bring a barre programme to Singapore, and asked if I'd be interested to train as a part-time instructor. I took up the challenge and signed up for the training. It was there that I met my business partner, Linda."
Unfortunately, once the duo finished their training, the studio got sold to another owner.
"That's where Linda and I took a step back, regrouped and chatted about what it'd be like if we introduced barre to Singapore. The stars started to align and in January 2016, WeBarre was born. I wanted to create a studio that specialises in barre, to be able to do one modality really well and be the brand that comes to mind every time someone thinks of barre.
"Also, I was at a period of my life where there were endless possibilities, and when the idea of starting my own barre studio came along, I thought, why not? I know that when I set my mind on something, I push hard to make my dreams a reality," she says with pride.
Steadily, the two expanded their business and now, have four studios in Singapore and one in Hong Kong, where over 130+ classes are held weekly. With the workout getting more popular, music has taken a backseat.
"About eight months into WeBarre, I had to make the difficult decision of choosing one over the other, as it was just too much for me to balance both. I have not, and don't think I'll ever give up music completely.
"As of December last year, I have been performing at a hotel in Singapore and I'm very grateful that I'm still able to keep in touch with my musical roots," she says.
According to Chew, an average female can burn 280 to 350 calories in a WeBarre class, and men, about 30% more.
These days, Chew, who confesses to be the biggest advocate for barre, cannot do without taking a few barre classes a week – not counting what she teaches.
"I've seen so many of my friends getting injured from exercising, and to me, that really defeats the purpose because I want to be able to perform, stay fit and be in the best shape that my body has ever been.
"Barre is so good for toning, strengthening and injury prevention. Leading up to my wedding last year, I taught 10 to 11 classes a week and took another three classes to stay in shape! To complement Barre, I take flexibility classes because stretching and recovery is also important," shares Chew who is looking for opportunities to open a WeBarre studio in Malaysia.
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Graduate student Dage Minors has earned All-Academic honors from the United States Track & Field and Cross Country Coaches Association, as announced earlier this summer by the USTFCCCA.
For his part, Minors wrapped up the most-decorated career in the history of Franklin Pierce Track & Field this spring, with his sixth career All-America selection, as he finished fifth in the nation in the 800 meters at the Outdoor NCAA Championships.
Minors was also a three-time All-Region selection during the Outdoor season, as he was honored in the 800 meters (1:48.99), the 1500 meters (3:52.22) and the 4x400-meter relay (3:15.63).


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Strategic Monitor 2014: Four Strategic Challenges
May 21st 2014 - 16:51
Decades of rising prosperity and increasing interdependence between states have significantly diminished the chance of direct conflict. But new security challenges now threaten to undermine this trend. The HCSS Strategic Monitor 2014 explores four such challenges to our global security environment: assertiveness of China and Russia, the rise of 'pivot states', instability in the MENA region, and the changing role of non-state actors in security issues.
It yields four main conclusions:
1. There has been a marked rise in the assertiveness of great powers in recent years, made manifest in ever more confrontational moves, from the Russian annexation of the Crimea to the enhanced Chinese presence in the South-Chinese Sea. This implies a significant increase in the chance of great power conflict.
2. Tensions manifest themselves primarily in 'pivot states', such as Ukraine, where the spheres of influence of rival great powers overlap.
3. Regional conflict and instability are edging ever closer to the periphery of Europe. Many MENA states remain vulnerable to specific forms of conflict.
4. Security threats, and particularly solutions, will come more and more from non-state actors.
The report was presented on May 21st 2014 to the Dutch Minister of Defense, Jeanine Hennis-Plasschaert. The minister commended the report, stating that it demonstrates "that there is no standard, catch-all recipe for deploying military force […] we must be prepared for a plurality of operations." She went on to say that "the Strategic Monitor is a crucial tool for our Defense policy development." She also expressed hope that the developments identified in the report will be incorporated in the current and ongoing security debate, especially since "[Dutch] society is slowly regaining its awareness of the value of defense. People are waking up."
You can download the Strategic Monitor 2014 report (in English) with the button on the right.
You can download the (Dutch) press release here
Frank Bekkers is Director of the Security Program. He studied Applied Mathematics at the University of Amsterdam and spent most of his career at the Netherlands Organisation for Applied Scientific Research (TNO), specializing in the area of Defence, Safety & Security. At TNO, he held a range of positions, including program manager, senior research scientist, group manager and account director. From 1996-1997, he worked as program manager for Call Media and Intelligent Networks for the telecom company KPN. His current position at HCSS combines shaping HCSS's portfolio concerning defense and security-related projects with hands-on participation in a number of key projects.
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As an air force officer he has an extensive operational background in air & missile defence, serving as battery control officer with Hawk and Patriot systems, commander of 119 Active Air Defence Squadron at Air Base Leeuwarden and commander of the Guided Missile Group at Air Base De Peel.
Stephan De Spiegeleire is Principal Scientist at HCSS. He has Master's degrees from the Graduate Institute in Geneva and Columbia University in New York, as well as a C.Phil. degree in Political Science from UCLA. He worked for the RAND Corporation for nearly ten years, interrupted by stints at the Stiftung Wissenschaft und Politik and the WEU's Institute for Security Studies. Mr. De Spiegeleire started out as a Soviet specialist, but has since branched out into several fields of international security and defense policy. His current work at HCSS focuses on strategic defense management, security resilience, network-centrism, capabilities-based planning, and the transformation of defense planning.
Dr. Tim Sweijs is the Director of Research at The Hague Centre for Strategic Studies. He is the initiator, creator and author of numerous studies, methodologies, and tools for research projects in horizon scanning, conflict analysis, international and national security risk assessment, and strategy and capability development. His main research interest concerns the changing character of modern day conflict. He has led multicenter research projects for both private and public sector organisations. Tim is also an Affiliate at the Center for International Strategy, Technology and Policy in the Sam Nunn School of International Affairs at Georgiatech.
Willem Oosterveld
Dr. Willem Theo Oosterveld is a non-resident senior fellow at HCSS. His areas of expertise include the politics of the Middle East, conflict analysis and peacebuilding, as well as law and development. He holds degrees in political science, international law, and history, having studied in Amsterdam, Leiden, Paris and New York, and was a visiting fellow at Harvard University. A former Fulbright scholar, he earned a PhD from the Graduate Institute of International and Development Studies in Geneva, Switzerland.


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New HIV test gives people instant results, in the comfort of their own home, enabling more people to access HIV testing when and where it is convenient for them.
The INSTI Self Test can provide instant results compared to other home testing kits, which give results after 15-20 minutes, or several days or weeks in the case of samples sent to laboratories. With just one drop of blood, the INSTI Self Test can also detect HIV antibodies two weeks sooner than any other kit.
The test was developed by bioLytical Laboratories and is intended for use by the general public to help them access HIV testing. The test comes with a resource card and clear guidelines providing further information and other health services should they be needed.
In the UK, 103,700 people are living with HIV in 2014 – Public Health England (PHE) estimate that around 17% of people living with HIV in the UK are unaware of their status.
Getting people testing for HIV, aware of their status and onto treatment is vital for curbing the rise of new HIV infections. Self-testing is a proven method to increase the number of people diagnosed with HIV as it enables HIV testing services to be taken out of health facilities and into communities.


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A Faculty and Teacher, a person who traditionally educates others through the transfer of information found in printed sources by asking students to memorize it. Gone are the days, when we relied on printed materials, the advent of information technology has made the information available at our finger tips, and often comes from unreliable or not vetted sources. Since it is so readily available and so vast, memorization is no longer possible.
Today technology plays most important role in the educator's toolbox, but to be valuable it must be readily available and networked through worldwide communities.
Our current trends of education are actually a way of telling us how far we have come from traditional teaching. Outside of the classroom, students use a wide range of devices to stay connected. When they step into the classroom, though, in many ways it's like boarding a plane. They board the flight, fasten their belts, put their study tables up and turn off all their devices. They are cut off from the outside world for the duration of the class and the use of social media and mobile devices, in particular, is off their tables.
Here is the challenge for a faculty to make teaching interesting and interactive; whether it is arts, basic sciences, technical or management education. In order to make this, faculties needs to expand his/her horizon of exposure to both internal (understanding self with leveraging one's strengths and developing areas of improvement) and external (knowing current trends, industry exposure, expanding network etc.,) faculties.
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BMW Performance Center West Driving School Opening in California
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BMW is opening its second U.S.-based driving school, this time on the West Coast. Partnering with private motorsports organization The Thermal Club, the BMW Performance Center West is located just outside of La Quinta, Calif. The new driving school complements the BMW Performance Center in Spartanburg, South Carolina, which opened in 1999.
The BMW Performance Center West will offer the same driving courses as the Spartanburg facility, including the BMW M Schools and BMW Teen Driving Schools. The 32-acre facility features a 1.4-mile road course with a 6.2-acre paddock, a skidpad, and an 8500 sq-ft Performance Facility.
"We have long believed that the right driver training is every bit as important as technology in helping to keep drivers safe," noted Peter Miles -- Vice President of Sales Channel Development and Customer Relations, BMW of North America, in a release. "The BMW Performance Center West will make it easier for customers in the Western U.S. to benefit from the same professional driving instruction that nearly 130,000 drivers have had at the BMW Performance Center in South Carolina over the last 15 years."
As a new premium private motorsports club, The Thermal Club features 5.5 miles of road racing circuits, private luxury garage villas, luxury concierge services, and more. Other facility highlights include The Motorsports Village with the Tuning Shop complete with vehicle bays, locker rooms, and lounge, while the Trackside Garage houses track and safety vehicles and the Tower Building, which is a combination of the main clubhouse and a 70-foot-high operational control tower. The Thermal Club also features a pool, kids club, and tennis courts.
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In his latest return to our screens, Danny seeks refuge from the 'New Year, New Me' craze by creating his personalised fitness playground in a long forgotten hall at his local sports complex. Even though performing a perfect bar routine while still on two wheels isn't for everyone, Danny has found that it's a case of no chain, no gain as he's able to do what he loves and stay in shape at the same time.
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Reporters Without Borders deplores the Eritrean government's censorship of the Qatari TV news network Al Jazeera since 1 February.
According to the Qatar-based newspaper Al-Sharq, the Eritrean authorities were annoyed with Al Jazeera for carrying reports about demonstrations by Eritrean exiles outside Eritrean diplomatic missions in Cairo, London, Frankfurt, Rome, Stockholm and other capitals in opposition to the government and in support of the soldiers who stormed the information ministry in Asmara during a brief mutiny on 21 January.
The information ministry issued a decree on 1 February forbidding anyone in Eritrea to provide access to Al Jazeera. Public places such as restaurants, cafés and hotels were specifically targeted. To ensure compliance, Al Jazeera's English-language channels were jammed.
"In a country with no privately-owned media and where national news broadcast in the local language is strictly controlled by the government, the foreign media are only 'tolerated' and it is clear that the line that cannot be crossed is coverage of Eritrean news," Reporters Without Borders said.
Launched in 2009 by Eritrean exile journalists and supported by Reporters Without Borders, Radio Erena has been the target of jamming and cyber-attacks by President Issaias Afeworki's government since August 2012.
Reporters Without Borders has filed a complaint with the French public prosecutor's officer requesting an investigation into these acts of piracy against an independent radio station. All the information about Eritrea and Radio Erena.
Eritrea was cut off from the world when the regime took an ultra-authoritarian turn and rounded up journalists in September 2001. It is now Africa's biggest prison for media personnel and is ranked last in the world press freedom index that Reporters Without Borders published on 30 January.