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Caratteristiche tecniche
Difensore centrale dal fisico longilineo, abile nel gioco aereo, tecnico e veloce. Grazie alla sua duttilità tattica, può disimpegnarsi anche sulla fascia, come terzino destro. È bravo anche nei cambi di gioco.

Carriera

Club

San Paolo e Porto
Cresciuto nelle giovanili del , ha esordito in prima squadra il 14 maggio 2017 in un match perso 1-0 contro il .

Nell'estate del 2018 passa al  per 7 milioni di euro, facendosi notare come uno dei migliori talenti in prospettiva nel suo ruolo.

Real Madrid
Il 14 marzo 2019 viene annunciato il suo trasferimento al , a partire dal 1º luglio e per le successive sei stagioni; secondo la clausola imposta dai portoghesi, il costo del trasferimento è pari a 50 milioni di euro, cifra che lo rende il difensore più costoso nella storia del club madrileno. Debutta con i Blancos il 14 settembre nella sfida di Liga vinta 3-2 contro il Levante.

Sigla il suo primo gol con la maglia dei blancos nella sfida di Copa del Rey contro l', il 20 gennaio 2021.

Nazionale
Il 12 settembre 2018 debutta con il Brasile nell'amichevole vinta per 5-0 contro El Salvador. Convocato per la Copa América 2019, gioca (anche a causa di un infortunio, per quanto non fosse titolare nelle gerarchie del CT Tite) solo gli ultimi minuti della finale vinta per 3-1 contro il Perù. Viene convocato anche per l'edizione successiva della coppa, in cui trova maggiore spazio rispetto a quella del 2019, realizzando pure la sua prima rete in nazionale nel pareggio per 1-1 contro l' ai gironi.

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Presenze e reti nei club
Statistiche aggiornate al 19 gennaio 2023.

Cronologia presenze e reti in nazionale

Palmarès

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Competizioni nazionali

Real Madrid: 2019, 2022

Real Madrid: 2019-2020, 2021-2022

Competizioni internazionali

Real Madrid: 2021-2022

Real Madrid: 2022

Real Madrid: 2022

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Collegamenti esterni

Calciatori della Nazionale brasiliana
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Men Have Eating Disorders, Too. Why Don't They Seek Help?
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Public discussions about eating disorders tend to focus on women, and in the past, so have our episodes on the subject. But millions of men also struggle with some form of disordered eating, though they're far less likely to be diagnosed or to seek treatment. Today we hear stories from three men—in three different stages of life—who have complicated relationships with food. The common thread? All three of them want to share their experiences so that other men who are struggling don't feel so alone. We also talk with Dr. Roberto Olivardia, an eating disorder expert, about why men don't seek help and how diet culture affects them.
Our sincere thanks to Jack, Galen, and Arnold for sharing their stories, and to Dr. Roberto Olivardia for his help with this episode.
The National Eating Disorders Association has a helpline that you can contact for support, resources, and treatment options for yourself or a loved one. Visit their website, call 1 (800) 931-2237, or in a crisis situation, text "NEDA" to 741741.
If you or anyone you know is struggling with suicidal thoughts or behavior, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline 24/7 at 1 (800) 273-8255.
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Dan Pashman: Please note this episode contains discussion of eating disorders and includes a mention of suicide.
CLIP (ARNOLD ATIENZA): Mashed potatoes and gravy and turkey and three kinds of pie and—man, I just, you know, I went to town. And knowing that I could, you know, throw it all back up later....
CLIP (GALEN MUSKAT): People had told me, my parents, oh, you're doing damage to your body. And I didn't—never believed them.
CLIP (JACK GILLIES): It was really an obsession. It was looking at the scale and it was a little bit down and I was like—I was like giddy. It was almost addictive.
Dan Pashman: This is The Sporkful, it's not for foodies, it's for eaters. I'm Dan Pashman. Each week on our show we obsess about food to learn more about people. Back in October, we revisited one of your favorite episodes, "Katie's Year in Recovery". It followed Katie Hacker, a baker in Virginia, for one year, as she went through recovery for an eating disorder. Public discussions about eating disorders tend to focus on women. In the past, so have our episodes on the subject. So after reconnecting with Katie, we put a call out to ask men to share their stories. Because, while it's true that most people with eating disorders are women, according to a National Institutes of Health study, 1 in 4 are men. This affects millions of men in the US, but they're less likely to be diagnosed, and less likely to seek treatment.
Dan Pashman: Today, we'll hear stories from three men. They all said they wanted to share their experience so that other men who are struggling don't feel so alone. And we're asking: How is this different for men? How is it the same? What are the triggers for their disorders, and the barriers to treatment? And how do their ideas about masculinity affect their relationships to food?
Dan Pashman: We'll start with Jack Gillies. Jack lives in Mono, Ontario, a small town north of Toronto. He's 16, in 11th grade, and lives at home with his parents and sister. The whole family is very into athletics. His parents used to do multi-day endurance runs; his sister is a competitive skier. Jack runs, skis, and mountain bikes. And they do a lot of it together. Growing up, Jack says he always had a big appetite. People would tease him about it, playfully. But two years ago, when he was 14, those comments began to hit him differently.
Jack Gillies: Maybe it was just my own—my own interpretation of the comments. Especially, the ones that talked about metabolism and how lucky I am to be a teenager with this kind of body right now. I think I interpreted that as someday I won't have that.
Dan Pashman: Around this time, Jack and his sister decided to go on a plant-based diet, and they convinced their parents to do the same. Now, this was not the first time the family did something like this. When Jack was 8, they cut out processed grains and sugar and moved towards a paleo diet.
Dan Pashman: And when the whole family would go on one of these diets, was there one person in the family who was usually the one deciding or sort of driving that?
Jack Gillies: Well, first thing I'd say is, I would find by circumstances call them diets. It was it was lifestyle changes. These weren't short term things. We would change our eating habits for years and we'd never go back to the way it was before. It was a complete lifestyle shift.
Dan Pashman: The family's switch to plant-based coincided with Jack getting more competitive about his running. He heard other runners talk about the idea of race weight, getting your body to a lower weight for races to make you a little lighter and quicker, give you an edge. And Jack wanted any advantage he could get.
Jack Gillies: How can I become faster? What's going to make me drop a few spots? And unfortunately, it seemed like dropping a few pounds was the solution that made the most sense to me at the time.
Dan Pashman: At this point Jack was close to 6 feet tall, 155 pounds. He decided to get his weight down to 140. That number didn't come from any formula or expert. He just came up with it on his own.
Jack Gillies: I just—I started eating less. I wanted to eat more, but I was telling myself to eat less. I trained a lot. I didn't really let myself ever sit down. I had this obsession that I had to just keep going, keep moving, keep burning. Part of me is like, well, it should be happening faster. And another part of me, there was a small part that was saying, well, if I'm not losing weight, maybe it's because I shouldn't be losing weight. And some of that internal conflict, it made me anxious. And ultimately, I think the side that said you should be losing more, won over.
Dan Pashman: What did you think was driving that? Like why did that side of the internal conflict win out?
Jack Gillies: You know, in all honesty, I think an Athlete's curse. When we set a goal in different sports, we stick to those goals. And we expect that at some point in your journey, something's going to face you. It's going to tell you that you can't achieve it, that you won't get there. And a big part of athletics is you have to push past those barriers. And my athletic mindset really drove me into the fact that this is just an obstacle in my way. I'm going to...I'm going to get to my goal.
Dan Pashman: That first year with this new approach, Jack did some of the hardest training, and best running, of his life. He was running a 5k in under 18 minutes. The next year, he did even better, shaving off nearly two minutes more from his time. The thing is, the way race weight is supposed to work, a runner drops a few pounds before a race, then gains it back after. But Jack didn't want to gain the weight back. In fact, he couldn't stop losing it.
Jack Gillies: It was really an obsession. It was looking at the scale and thinking to myself, "Oh, it should come up," but every morning I saw it and it was a little bit down and I was like...I was like giddy. There was almost some part of me that found it exciting. It was it was weird. It was almost addictive.
Dan Pashman: What started as something to help his running had become a goal in itself. And on top of that, Jack's times were getting better. And there was another factor, when he lost weight, he liked the way he looked.
Jack Gillies: There's this idea that veins should stick out. You should have a six pack. That was my one of my big obsessions was that I had always have really, really well defined abdominal muscles. And regardless of what my numerical goal was at first, once I got down to that level, it became it became something that I was afraid I would lose when I looked in the mirror.
Dan Pashman: Who did you talk to about this?
Jack Gillies: For a while, for a while, no one. I really kept it in. I tried to hide it from my family. First person I talked to about it was probably my sister. My sister had had similar struggles with food. I think it's fairly common for athletes. So she somewhat understood what I was going through and she recognized that I was doing a lot of the same things that she had used to do. One of the biggest groups that's helped me through this, that's not my family, is a group of girls at school that I've been great friends with. They are one of the only non-family members that I've really mentioned and spoken to this issue about. And part of it's because I've seen a lot of them have had their own struggles with food.
Dan Pashman: At this point, his family hadn't said anything about the change in his eating, or his weight loss. He says that they didn't seem to notice it. During Easter 2019, his grandmother made a comment, in front of the family, that he looked skinny. But the conversation quickly moved on. Jack continued pushing himself to run faster, while eating less. He got his weight down to 140. In the fall of 2019, he was in a big regional championship race.
Jack Gillies: And I was right up there in the top. I...I could have won. And as I was about 20 feet from the finish line, I went unconscious. And I mean, to me, it felt like maybe 10 seconds had passed, but I remember getting up and trying to crawl and falling and standing up and stumbling and I fell across the line. I've been down for quite a while longer than I had thought. And I wound up lying in an ambulance for the next hour and a half or so. My heart rate wouldn't come down. Something was wrong and we just weren't sure what it was.
Dan Pashman: The paramedics working there determined Jack didn't need to go to the hospital. He says having a racer pass out during a race isn't actually that unusual. A few days later, Jack's parents took him to the doctor. Initial tests came back normal. Jack says neither he nor his doctor brought up the idea that he wasn't eating enough. He hadn't told his parents that he was restricting his eating, that he was trying to lose more weight. And he says he didn't even see a connection between his restricting and his passing out. Jack's parents were nervous about him racing again, but they left the decision to him. Less than 2 weeks after collapsing, he was back running. It was a frigid day in northern Ontario. The course was packed with ice. About halfway through the race...
Jack Gillies: My vision started was spotty, my legs started to go numb. And I remember telling myself for about the next 400 meters, "Oh, well, it's just the cold. This is common. It's the cold. It's what—this is happens when you run in the cold." And I actually, I ended up realizing as I was going up probably the big hill of the course that this isn't the cold. This is—it's happening again. And I was seeing spots and my vision was spiraling. And it shouldn't have happened again. And it did.
Dan Pashman: In December of 2019, after more tests, Jack was diagnosed with anemia. His doctor prescribed iron supplements, and said Jack should consider eating meat again, but that there were plant based foods that could help, too. His parents were worried about the anemia, but weren't aware of the deeper issue. Still, they decided to intervene, to try to take some control over what Jack was eating, to help bring up his iron levels.
Jack Gillies: I was definitely getting a little more pressure and little more push, that, yeah, you gotta eat more, eat this after dinner, eat...get that next helping. Like, there's a definitely a lot of concern and a lot of fear in my family. And for a while, it—I think it did get better.
Dan Pashman: But that period of improvement quickly turned into more of a day-to-day, up-and-down struggle, especially, with the added stress of COVID. Jack did put on some weight, at times he rediscovered his love of food. But he also started serving himself when the family was eating, so he could have more control over his portions.
Jack Gillies: You know, if I could cut back on something, I would cut back on something. And I think there is just this fear of gaining weight again.
Dan Pashman: This time, however, he was finally able to open up to his parents about the fact that he'd been restricting his eating.
Jack Gillies: I think they felt bad. At first, I know they felt a little guilty because they were worried that they had caused it, which they hadn't. And I think to a degree, there is a bit of a sense that they had to do something to fix it. I think we all came to the realization that I just needed support and that if they just supported me through all of it, that I could...I could get myself out of this.
Dan Pashman: Jack says in recent months, that support from his family has been helping.
Jack Gillies: Right now, I feel like I'm climbing the ladder. I'm certainly nowhere near at a spot where I could say that I am fully past this. I'd say most days I have at least a moment or two where I question what I'm eating. And I might have a moment of anxiety. It's been really trying to walk myself through being OK with food, eating for fulfillment and for enjoyment.
Dan Pashman: Have you talked to any of your male friends about this?
Jack Gillies: Uh, not sure why I took a second answer that. It's...it's a simple no. I haven't spoken to almost any male figure about this. I...I've had trouble speaking to my own dad about this. The day before we had this...this conversation, recording this, he asked me in the car, "Well, what are you going to talk about?" And because he knew the issue was there, he knew, I say, the overall gist of it. But in the moment, I don't know why. I just I couldn't explain it to him.
Jack Gillies: And what he knows is far more than what any other male figure in my life knows. My struggle with this, is that it just really...it really isolated me. And that's something I hope can end.
Dan Pashman: As of now, Jack hasn't told his doctor about this issue, and hasn't sought any professional treatment.
Jack Gillies: It's a hard thing because I really wish I could help—ask for help sometimes. And to a degree, I think I found a compromise where I can ask for help and in people's support and for some people's advice. But I still want to do this myself because I need that independence that I got myself into this. I need to be able to get myself out.
Dan Pashman: I mean, look, I'm not an eating disorder's expert but this sounds like—what I suspect a lot of people think, but especially, I think it's probably more common for boys and men, that to ask for help would be a sign of weakness.
Jack Gillies: Yeah, I think you nailed it right on the head. I think that's something that anyone's who's had to experience it at some point in their life definitely knows that feeling.
Dan Pashman: If you had broke your leg, even if you felt that it was your own fault, you would never say, "I got myself into this, I'm gonna get myself out of it. I'm gonna set my own bone and put on my own cast and do my own X-rays.
Jack Gillies: I, certainly, hope not. That wouldn't end very well.
Dan Pashman: But the approach that you're trying to take with your issues around food may be this sort of eating disorder equivalent of that.
Jack Gillies: For sure. I, totally, agree. It shouldn't be a separate issue from the leg and, yet, it just—it often feels like there's something different about it.
Dan Pashman: Right. So what do you think would have to happen to persuade you to see some sort of treatment or professional help?
Jack Gillies: If I was to take a worst turn again, I think I would seek help. Now, that I have formed a better support system with family and friends I might have the confidence now. If things were to get bad again, I would ask for help.
Dan Pashman: I'm not going to tell you what to do but I do think, generally speaking that—and maybe this is just something that comes with age, but I think that, you know, you get to a point where you realize that asking for help isn't an indication of weakness or failure, that we all need to ask for help sometimes in our lives.
Jack Gillies: I'd say going through this experience has helped me realize that, majorly, and that's part of the reason I'm almost grateful I've gotten through this.
Dan Pashman: Later in the show, we'll talk with two more men who've struggled with eating disorders, both older than Jack and at different points in their journeys. But first, I wanted to talk with an expert. Dr. Roberto Olivardia is a clinical psychologist and lecturer at Harvard Medical School. He's spent 25 years studying and treating men and boys with eating disorders. That includes anorexia, which is a restrictive eating disorder, and bulimia, which involves binging and purging.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: For a lot of men that I've worked with over the years, they feel a lot of shame. So they're struggling with having an eating disorder. And then they feel really bad about the fact that they're struggling that they have an eating disorder, because they feel that somehow it's an assault on being a man and their masculinity.
Dan Pashman: So the biggest way this is different for men? They're much less likely to get help. Men make up about 25 percent of people with eating disorders. But they're only 10 percent of the people getting treatment. Dr. Olivardia says part of that is the perception that men just don't get eating disorders. And part is that we have very different ideas about how boys and men are supposed to eat.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: With men that you'll often see, you know, behaviors like binge eating behavior, for example, that might go unnoticed or unrecognized because of, you know, we think of men eating a lot. And so a lot of times when men are bingeing, it's sort of just looks like, "Oh, he just has a really big appetite," when he could have a really problematic behavior.
Dan Pashman: There is this idea that, you know, that eating a lot is masculine.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: Absolutely.
Dan Pashman: That there's something manly about sitting down in front of a gigantic plate of food and eating all of it.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: There's something...right, manly about eating a lot. And there's something that's feminizing in some ways about watching what you eat.
Dan Pashman: These ideas not only make it harder for men to seek treatment. They also make it less likely that doctors will raise red flags when a male patient's weight fluctuates wildly. But in other ways, eating disorders for men and women are strikingly similar, now more than ever. While there's still more pressure on women to look a certain way, Dr. Olivardia has seen a change in body image expectations for men in recent decades, along with the rise of a more traditionally masculine version of diet culture.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: In the late 90s, you know, early 2000s, you know, when I would ask men in the intake, men I work with who have eating issues, I say, you know, do you take diet pills? Do you take laxatives? And they'll say, no. That's almost like too girly. I—and I'll then say, do you take any health supplements? And they'll say, oh yeah, I take this thermogenic fat burner, blah, blah, blah... And I said, that's a diet pill. I mean, it has all the ingredients of everything that's in these diet pills, but the packaging is thermogenic anabolic, you know, it has like a muscle in it, but it's...it's all the same ingredients. And in the 80s, it was about just being big. Steroids started to become a much bigger problem. I would say that there became a shift, though, where looking too big started to be associated with kind of dumb or insecure. But I remember, in particular, when the movie Fight Club came out, then I started hearing in patients, I want to look cut. I want to look lean. And I also want to have my muscle striations and definitions and six-pack and those kinds of things. There's a lot more attention on body. And social media absolutely put gasoline, you know, and to that flame, because studies show that teenage boys are just as susceptible to body dissatisfaction and being impacted by photographs on social media as girls are.
Dan Pashman: And I feel like a lot of the messaging today, which is sort of like, your body is a machine. You must optimize by filling it with the right fuel.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: Yes.
Dan Pashman: Almost feeds into that. But by treating like your body is this separate thing, to have the nuts and bolts tightened as opposed to like you, you know, as opposed to a part of you.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: Absolutely. So you'll often hear words like pure, clean, optimal. When I ask people, when's the fist time you noticed something kind of happening, and it usually, for people, say, oh I went on a diet. I went keto, I went paleo, I went vegan. I wanted to cut out sugar. And sometimes it starts out, again, very—and it's not like, nobody ever goes into it saying, I'm going to have an eating disorder. And it jus really gets out of control.
Dan Pashman: Dr. Olivardia is quick to add that, of course, there are folks who would benefit from healthier eating. And many people go on these diets and don't end up on that slippery slope. Diets are one of the most common triggers for eating disorders but that's not the only factor. He says the people who are most susceptible often have certain personality traits. So for people with anorexia, who restrict what they eat...
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: You'll see perfectionism is very high in this group of men, who have eating disorders.
Dan Pashman: While people with bulimia tend to fit a different profile.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: There's an addictive nature to bulimia. It's not uncommon to see men with bulimia, who also have a history of substance abuse issues.
Dan Pashman: Why why that connection in particular?
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: So with bulimia—is an impulsive eating disorder, versus anorexia is more compulsive. Someone who is almost like thinking so much, you know, about things? With bulimia, it's associated with more impulsivity, which is why you see attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, which is more impulsivity. Substance abuse is also related to impulsivity. So even in genetic studies, it's we're sort of mapping genes and things like that. We see this overlap of bingeing, binge eating, addictive behaviors, ADHD, that they all sort of aggregate in the same kind of way, the same sort of personalities. But purging also creates a euphoric feeling in the brain.
Dan Pashman: What is the role of sports and athletics in triggering or leading to eating disorders for men?
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: So there are a lot of men—I've seen it go in both directions. So I've worked with lots of men who have had eating disorders and gravitated toward a sport that they knew would sort of cultivate that eating disorder. Wrestling, where you have to make weight and you have to be super careful. And then I've also seen it where men who don't have eating disorders, and this is true for women, as well, that go into a sport and if they have a high degree of perfectionism, high achievement orientation, and high competitive spirit, that they want to compete and sometimes they feel, they're in this culture, that basically says "Hey, you gotta do this and you might have to purge, or you might have to take laxatives, or you might need to restrict for a couple days," and then it sort of develops. But overall, like I don't want to demonize athletics. I mean, sports and athletics is very healthy and a wonderful thing in so many, you know, respects. And even with the patients that I've worked with, who, it doesn't mean they have to get out of the sport, necessarily. But they have to work harder to regulate that and making sure they don't fall into that hole.
Dan Pashman: Coming up, we hear from two men who have spent years battling eating disorders, and who now face them in very different ways. Stick around.
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Dan Pashman: Welcome back to The Sporkful, I'm Dan Pashman. In last week's episode I talk with Julián Castro, former secretary of Housing and Urban development in the Obama Administration. When he ran for president in 2020, he made hunger one of his key campaign issues. We discuss why hunger has become a partisan issue, and his boycott of Goya. And there are plenty of light moments too, like when we get into the politics of splitting the check during group dinners:
CLIP (JULIÁN CASTRO): What I hate, though, is when that happens and you're the one that got the short end of the stick and you end up paying the same amount, like, "Oh, now, let's split it up equally."
CLIP (DAN PASHMAN): Almost, as if, like...like if you make much less money than somebody else, but yet, they're taxed at a lower rate.
CLIP (JULIÁN CASTRO): Yes, yes.
CLIP (DAN PASHMAN): Fortunately, that would never happen.
CLIP (JULIÁN CASTRO): Yeah, not in any sane country. No.
Dan Pashman: That episode includes a philosophical discussion on a plate of nachos as a microcosm of society. If you want to hear that one and make sure you don't miss future episodes, connect with our show in your podcasting app in Spotify, hit follow. In Apple Podcasts, subscribe. In Stitcher, favorite. You can do it right now while you're listening. Thanks.
Dan Pashman: Now back to our look at how eating disorders affect men. Galen Muskat is 27. He's from the small town of Sandwich, New Hampshire. Not to be confused with Sandwich, Massachusetts.
Dan Pashman: Did you still grow up with police officers driving around in cars labeled sandwich police?
Galen Muskat: Yes. Yes, exactly. Always a highlight.
Dan Pashman: But I digress. Like Jack, who we heard from earlier, Galen is an athlete, a runner and a skier. In 10th grade, he went to an intensive ski camp led by a former Olympian from Russia.
Galen Muskat: The first week we were there, over in Vermont, doing roller skiing, she took out a pair of calipers to measure body fat.
Dan Pashman: And she's like literally pinching around your body and measuring different places?
Galen Muskat: Yup, exactly. She did—like on the chest. She did the upper thigh. She did our our side.
Dan Pashman: That moment by itself didn't change much for Galen, but he didn't forget it. Three years later, in college, he developed terrible stomach pains. He went to the doctor, and got diagnosed with a severe gluten intolerance. He'd have to go gluten-free. For a person who always got a lot of pleasure from food...
Galen Muskat: It completely altered my sense of myself, changed my relationship with the kitchen. Suddenly, I had to be careful.
Dan Pashman: Galen had transferred to Amherst college, so when he started his sophomore year, he was at a new school and didn't know anyone. He says he had also been struggling with depression for years. On top of all of that, he was dealing with the stress of this new diagnosis, trying to figure out what he could eat. He felt embarrassed about having to explain it to others.
Galen Muskat: that really started to affect me. So it became easier for me to just sort of avoid that altogether, not only by starting to sit alone in the dining hall but also sometimes avoiding meals altogether.
Dan Pashman: Cutting gluten was medically necessary. But Galen began restricting his eating even further.
Galen Muskat: First, there was grains. No brown rice, nothing. It was just easier, or so I thought. And I started to lose a little weight. My brother told me at one point, kind of good naturedly, like I'm—I said, "How do you drink your coffee?" And he said, "Oh, I don't...don't put sugar in it, anymore. I'm trying this thing of no added sugar." Growing up, my brother and I were opposite in the sense that if you gave me a task, I would do it until I got it perfectly. A drawing, I would crumple it up and start over if I went outside the lines. And I took my brother's challenge like, huh, I'm going to try this. And I successfully removed things from my diet: sugar, grain, etc.. So by that point in March, I was doing that with various things: egg yolks, olive oil, milk...you name it. I felt like I was doing something good. Part of me, some weird, twisted part at that time, really started to take pleasure in feeling really different and isolated and alone.
Dan Pashman: At the start of that semester, Galen weighed 166 pounds. When his dad picked him up at the end of the semester, he weighed 114. In 4 1/2 months, he had lost 52 pounds.
Galen Muskat: And yeah, my dad picked me up and he was speechless. Didn't talk to me for two and a half...two and a half hours the whole drive home. And I would learn later in a family therapy session that when he got out of the car in our driveway and saw my mom, he said, "You know, when you see Galen try not to cry."
Dan Pashman: Over the summer, Galen was diagnosed with anemia and took a medical leave from school. When he returned, his depression and anxiety persisted. He told his brother he was suicidal. Just a week into the school year, Galen's parents picked him up to bring him home. They knew he needed treatment for an eating disorder, but insurance wouldn't cover inpatient treatment, because they said he weighed too much to qualify.
Galen Muskat: That...that was shocking, because I was still at that point, 45 pounds below what I—my target—my ideal weight should have been.
Dan Pashman: Galen's parents fought the insurance company, and they got Galen admitted for outpatient treatment. The program included therapy, art classes, and writing workshops. Galen graduated out of the program after four months. He says in some ways it was a frustrating experience, because he's someone who likes accomplishing things without help from others. But it led him a realization.
Galen Muskat: There were a lot of times that I was sitting around a table, where being faced with other people's predicaments gave me that shred, like a little shred of self compassion that I was so lacking that first term at Amherst. And it helped me see something that has today guided me, which is, you know, in a weird way, maybe a fear of of being in that position again. It was it was frightening to see...to see that things could get worse because I really didn't think they could until I went there.
Dan Pashman: Still, after leaving treatment, Galen's struggles continued. And this is something we've heard on this show from others, who've struggled with eating disorders. There are so many ups and downs. Just when you think you're finally headed in the right direction, the bottom falls out on you. Galen sought various forms of help, whether that meant going to family therapy, or his parents helping him maintain healthier eating habits. There were times he enjoyed eating again, put on some weight and times he felt like he was back at square one. This ebb and flow went on for five years.
Dan Pashman: In April of 2019, he started seeing a dietician, but still couldn't stop exercising compulsively.
Galen Muskat: I was around 125 and I would go for...hmm, a ten-mile run or so almost every day. And I was out on a run. It was May, it was beautiful. I was running along the Charles River and I felt something explode in my groin and I thought, "Oh no."
Dan Pashman: For two months, doctors told him that it was a lightly torn muscle. But it just kept getting worse.
Galen Muskat: And suddenly my back started to hurt. I would go to work and I would stay and I would get these awful spasms throughout my lower body. I was walking home one day and I got—my right leg went numb.
Dan Pashman: After three months in pain, Galen got an MRI. He was walking around with a stress fracture in his pelvis. He had lost critical bone mass in his spine, and developed osteoporosis, all at age 25. For Galen, this diagnosis was rock bottom.
Galen Muskat: People had told me, my parents, "Oh, you're doing damage to your body," and I never believed them.
Dan Pashman: Today, it's unclear how much Galen's bones will be able to heal long term, how much of the damage is permanent. But after months on crutches, and physical therapy, he is now able to walk without pain. He's gained some back weight and he's developing a better relationship with food
Galen Muskat: Yeah, I'm back to 160 pounds. Um, enjoy some chocolate every night, am walking again. Not sure if I'll ever run, but, um, I'm just grateful to be able to walk and, uh, pick up some pastries at the gluten free bakery.
Dan Pashman: Galen's dietitian told him the injury, because it slowed him down, might actually have saved his life. Galen continues to work with her, along with a therapist, and says they've been crucial to his recovery.
Galen Muskat: It's always felt like they saw something that I couldn't see. There's no judgment. It's like you're you're allowed to be—you're allowed to make a mistake. And to see that it's OK not to be perfect just because we're—I mean, striving for perfection all the time and in work, in cooking, you name it. The message is, be perfect.
Galen Muskat: And to have two hours every week where I'm told otherwise, um, has really just helped me see, like, yeah, you did injure yourself. But that's not your fault.
Dan Pashman: You sent me a couple of photos, some from before your eating disorder, some from right in the middle of it and some more recent. Why did you want to share those?
Galen Muskat: Um...I guess because I'm...I'm sort of proud. And I didn't let myself feel pride for a really long time, I mean, I didn't feel like I had anything to be proud of. But I also shared because I wanted to show that it's possible to recover from one of these.
Dan Pashman: So Galen has identified his eating disorder. He's getting treatment for it. And even if the road is long and winding, he feels now that there is a road to recovery. But not all people with eating disorders seek or receive help. Like Arnold Atienza, who's been dealing with food and eating issues for over 40 years. Arnold's 57. He was born in the Philippines. He grew up in Cleveland, one of five kids.
Arnold Atienza: You know, there'd be like seven people sitting around the table. And my mom would just, like, cook all this food, put it in the middle of the table. And when it was gone, dinner was over. So I think, at a relatively young age, I became aware of like that that food was like a limited resource. My mother's nickname, for me, it's a Filipino nickname. It's tabachoy, which really kind of translates into like chubby or fatty. And I think in in Asia, you know, that is not—it's not a big deal. But as a kid, you kind of internalize that, you know, that becomes kind of your identity.
Dan Pashman: When he was 13, Arnold joined the wrestling team. Now, in wrestling, you only compete against other people in your weight class. So weight becomes central to your place on the team. It's a huge focus. I can remember being at lunch in high school one time. And one of the guys I was sitting with was on the wrestling team and he didn't eat a bite. He just kept spitting into an empty Snapple bottle. He was trying to get every ounce of liquid out of his body so he could make weight for a match. Arnold still remembers the first time he heard his teammates talk about their methods for cutting weight.
Arnold Atienza: This is Black Friday, you know, the morning after Thanksgiving. We're all rolling into practice. And this kid, Sam, he's just talking animatedly about his Thanksgiving dinner. He goes, you know, there were mashed potatoes and gravy and turkey and three kinds of pie. And man, I just, you know, I went to town. And knowing that I could, you know, throw it back up later and, you know, that turkey hits you, man. And, you know, I think I passed out.
Dan Pashman: In other words, this guy Sam ate a ton of food, planning to purge. But then he fell asleep after the meal and by the time he woke up, the food was digested. As he put it to Arnold...
Arnold Atienza: I come to a couple of hours later in a panic and my baby bump was gone. I go try to throw it all up and, you know, two piece come out, and that was it. And we all just kind of laughed and he goes, I'm going to go run extra. And, you know, that's when it hit me. It's like, wait...what? [
Dan Pashman: This pattern of binging, and then purging, is a hallmark of bulimia. But 13-year-old Arnold just thought of it as a great solution. A way to be able to eat all the food he loves, while also competing as a wrestler.
Arnold Atienza: You don't want to let the team down. If you can't make weight and there's nobody else at that weight, you know, your team forfeits. If I've got the school, depending on me, you know, you do what you need to do to make weight.
Dan Pashman: So Arnold started purging during the wrestling season. Throughout high school his weight fluctuated dramatically, from 119 when he was wrestling, to 150 in the off season. Once he left high school, and stopped wrestling, Arnold did stop purging. He says now he's come to understand that he does better when he has a purpose and structure that give him healthier things to focus on. He graduated college and went to law school, but he dropped out. He started working in bars and restaurants, and began drinking too much, got into drugs, got addicted to both. He struggled with that addiction until he was 40, when he got sober. But sobriety left a kind of hole in his life.
Arnold Atienza: Don't smoke, can't drink, can't use. You know, it's like my thing was, what do I have left?
Dan Pashman: Arnold turned to food. He started eating a lot, and gaining weight. But he also tried to find other, healthier ways to fill the void. He went back to school for social work, got into yoga, kept attending AA meetings. During this phase he also got married. When he was 51, his wife got a job in Singapore, so they moved there, but he wasn't able to work cause of visa restrictions. That left him with a lot of time on his hands. He started exploring, and eating his way through the city.
Arnold Atienza: The whole culture was kind of like food obsessed. And I just fit right in. And so that's when the eating to fill the void thing starts up again. But that's not what it feels like. That's not what it looks like. It feels like, oh, I'm in this culture and I got to take advantage of, you know, these and—oh, I've never had that before. Oh, what is this?
Dan Pashman: Arnold's eating led to health issues, including gout, which made it difficult to walk. Gout is a complex form of arthritis, it's often connected with a high sugar diet and obesity.
Arnold Atienza: And so I went to the doctor and, you know, they ran all the tests. And he's like, well, you know, the..the gout is really the least of your problems, and I'm like, what,
Dan Pashman: Arnold had a whole host of issues related to his weight. The doctor said he had to start taking a bunch of prescriptions. But if he lost 10 percent of his body weight, he could go off some of the meds.
Arnold Atienza: And so I like—I panicked and I knew what was going to get the weight off like...yeah. And so that's when the purging started up again.
Dan Pashman: And do you remember the first time that you threw up after not having done it for so long?
Arnold Atienza: Oh, I'm sure it was that night. I'm like, you know, if it's there, why wait to use it?
Dan Pashman: And how did you feel that first time doing it again after so long?
Arnold Atienza: It's like getting back together with a hot ex-girlfriend, that you know is crazy. She's got just got a hold of you. That's kind of what it felt like. Like I was having an affair.
Dan Pashman: The first month, Arnold lost 20 pounds. He got off some of the prescriptions, but he wanted to keep slimming down. He kept purging, lost another 10 percent of his body weight the next month. But he waited before going back to the doctor, so it wouldn't look like he lost so much so quickly. The doctor took Arnold off more of the meds. Even though Arnold knew deep down it was a dangerous way to get there...
Arnold Atienza: It worked. You know, that's the insidious thing about this.
Dan Pashman: Dr. Olivardia, the expert we heard from earlier, says this is often part of the struggle for people with eating disorders. In one way or another, the behavior gets rewarded. In Arnold's case, it's getting off his meds. Maybe for others, it's that they get more compliments on how they look, more romantic interest. But for Arnold, just like in high school, what started with a specific purpose kept growing. And the whole time, he was hiding it from his wife.
Arnold Atienza: I just remember in Paris, you know? We're in Paris, for God's sakes. We just had just amazing food. And of course, I overdid it because I knew I was going to purge that night. But, you know, my wife was all jacked up and jet lag and she just wouldn't frickin fall asleep, man. And that's not how you should be enjoying Paris with your wife, you know, psychically willing her to fall asleep so you can purge.
Dan Pashman: Two years after that first doctor's visit, Arnold and his wife moved back to the States. And things got somewhat better for him. He got back into yoga and other exercise. He felt like he had more to keep him busy. Last year, they were supposed to move to Beijing but then COVID hit. The stress of the move being canceled, and the pandemic, took a toll. Arnold's yoga studio closed and it became harder for him to maintain his healthier habits.
Arnold Atienza: I don't have the same outlets that I had and I'm stressed out. So I'm eating. And again, my old crazy ex-girlfriend is there waiting,
Dan Pashman: In the spring of 2020, Arnold starts purging again. But after a few months, he turns to intermittent fasting. For him that means on weekdays, he eats just one meal a day, dinner, with his wife. On weekends, he'll have lunch and dinner. He hasn't purged in months. That's where he's at right now.
Arnold Atienza: It seems to be a sustainable, socially acceptable way to manage my weight. So that's been working for me.
Dan Pashman: Are you hungry during the week?
Arnold Atienza: Oh, all the time. You know, if it's there all the time, you don't even notice it. Like if you live in the monkey house, you don't notice the stench. So it's always a part of my conscious being.
Dan Pashman: Dr. Olivardia says that intermittent fasting can be an effective way to manage weight for some people, but for those with histories of eating disorders, it can be a trigger for binge eating. He says you should consult with your doctor before adopting this practice.
Dan Pashman: Have you ever talked to your wife about your purging?
Arnold Atienza: No.
Dan Pashman: Why not?
Arnold Atienza: Because if I talk to her about it, it might—I might have to, like, give it more attention than I want to give it. There might have to be like, you know, doctors and whatever brought into this. And it's shameful, Dan, to say you're a middle-aged bulimic is not...is not the...yeah. It's—I just, I don't want to do it, Dan.
Dan Pashman: Do you think—is your wife going to hear this?
Arnold Atienza: I think so. I think she needs to. Maybe thats part of the reason I wanted to come on here is, you know, I was telling myself the main reason I wanted to do it is to share my story with other guys out there that have a problem with disordered eating. But maybe it was a way for me to confront it and to talk about it and to, you know, bring it out into the light where it needs to be. You know, again, I'm afraid—I think, I'm just afraid that she'll look at me differently, that she'll—you know what I mean? Like, this is not what I signed up for. This is not the guy that I married. And I know that's crazy. I know that she loves me and that she will love me unconditionally. And again, there's that nagging, you know, doubt in my mind. And that's just—I think that's the disease going, don't talk about it.
Dan Pashman: Before we wrap up, I tell Arnold about Jack, the teenager we heard from earlier in the show. Arnold's been dealing with disordered eating on and off for nearly 45 years. What would he say to Jack?
Arnold Atienza: Dude, you are perfect exactly the way you are, where you are right now. You don't have to fix anything. You don't have to change anything. You don't have to be anything. You just are exactly who you're meant to be in this moment.
Dan Pashman: So if Jack, or Arnold, or any other boy or man, were to get professional treatment for an eating disorder, what would that look like? Here again is Dr. Roberto Olivardia.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: If a boy or man goes into a program, an eating disorder program, there's no question they'll be in the minority, in terms of gender. That the majority of people will be women, sometimes they might be the only male in the program. But there's this universality of this sort of experience that men, who go to these programs who are very hesitant and worry about, like how's it going to be, they say within a couple of days they feel comfortable and they feel understood and they feel like there's something very freeing about it. You know, I've never worked with someone who goes into it and and comes out of it thinking, oh, my God, that was the worst experience. It was—it's hardl, just like rehab, you know? And sobriety is very hard, but it's totally it's worth it.
Dan Pashman: For people grappling with disordered eating, Dr. Olivardia has this message.
Dr. Roberto Olivardia: Please, please get help. People who struggle with eating disorders longer tend to have a worse prognosis, but that doesn't mean they can't recover. I once worked with a 72-year-old man, who struggled with eating disorders for—since he was 12-years-old and he recovered at 72 and lived, I think, 13 more years. And he said those were the best 13 years of his life.
Dan Pashman: My thanks to Jack, Galen, and Arnold for sharing their stories with us. And special thanks to Dr. Roberto Olivardia, Clinical Psychologist, and lecturer in the Department of Psychiatry at Harvard Medical School, for his help with this episode. If you or someone you know is struggling, reach out to the National Eating Disorders Association at neda.org.
Dan Pashman: Next week on the show, St. Patrick's Day in America started as a celebration of Irish culture, a response to anti-Irish prejudice. Today, it's embraced by much of the country, which is great, but often by enacting the worst stereotypes of Irish culture—not so great. Now, we see Lunar New Year celebrations in America extending beyond Asian-Americans. As that happens, how can we do better than St. Patrick's Day? We'll discuss, and I'll attend a Passover seder where I'm the only Jew. That's next week.
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Whenever I actually settle myself down enough to take a yoga class I love it. It just doesn't happen very often. My recent weekend cruise on Royal Caribbean offered a fantastic opportunity I'm so happy I took advantage of.
Most of the cruise lines schedule group fitness classes; yoga, pilates and spinning are the usual offerings. There is usually an extra charge for these, but at $10 or $12 per class it's really no more than a class at home. I've taken advantage of these on previous cruises and am always pleasantly surprised by both the intensity of the class and the knowledge of the instructor. This class was no exception. Jarryd, in addition to having a New Zealand accent, was an energetic and experienced class leader.
Our group of 7 departed the Majesty Of The Seas and tendered over to the cruise line's private island; Coco Cay in the Bahamas. The temperature at 8:30 am was already in the mid-90's and, not surprisingly seeing it was the Bahamas in August, it was extremely humid. We settled into an unoccupied spot on the beach with our towels to substitute for yoga mats.
I hadn't been too sure about the early start time; this was a vacation after all. In retrospect, it was the perfect way to start the day and sneak in a healthy activity amid the excess that cruises are so known for. With the searing heat I no doubt sweated out some of the toxins lurking in my body from the night before.
I don't often get to enjoy the sights and sounds of surf and sand while doing something so good for myself. My outdoor exercise usually consists of punishing my body with a run. Treating myself to the stretching and strengthening of a yoga class while hearing the waves crash against the rocks seemed almost too decadent.
The heat quickly became a factor and we were all sweating profusely. Jarryd toned some of the poses down a bit and substituted a few prone poses to compensate for the steaminess. He assured us it was some of the hottest temps he'd ever endured while leading the beach class. I handled all of it ok and think it's time to try that Bikram class!


One obstacle city employees face when trying to obtain access to electrical equipment is fences. The two electrical facilities that city employees most often will need access to are transformers and pedestals. When installing a fence, residents should adhere to the following regulations in respect to transformers and pedestals.
In order to provide sufficient access for DPU-E, the following requirements shall be met if a transformer is located near the fence.
A five foot (5') clearance on all sides, with a removable fence (pins) or gate in front of the side in which the transformer opens (side with lock).
A ten foot (10') clearance must be kept in front of the side in which the transformer opens, if no gate or removable section of the fence is incorporated.
If proper clearance cannot be achieved, a gate or removable fence section must be installed in a manner so that the section can be removed without the use of tools.
In order to provide sufficient access for DPU-E, the following conditions must be met if a pedestal is located near the fence.
A three foot (3') clearance on all sides must be maintained.
Always Call JULIE Before You Dig at 8-1-1 or (800) 892-0123.
If you have any further questions concerning this matter or your electrical service, please contact the DPU-E Operations Division at (630) 420-6181.
Two copies of Plat of Survey (draw fence placement on copies of plat).
Fences may not exceed six feet (6') in height. However, fences along major arterial roadways may be constructed up to nine feet (9') in height.
The finished side of the fence must face away from the lot on which it is constructed.
Fences may be placed up to the property line. However, a fence over three feet (3') high may not extend nearer to a front lot line than the front facade of the principal building.
Fences along corner side yard lot lines must be set back to the corner side yard line.
Double fronting lots (lots with streets on two sides), except corner lots, must have a gate installed for access to each right-of-way. Property owner is required to maintain the public row.
Call JULIE (underground utility locators) at least 48 hours before you dig: (24-hour toll free....1-800-892-0123).
Fences may not interfere with applicable stormwater management standards.
Fees and Charges: The permit fee for a fence is payable upon submittal. In most instances, fence permits are approved at the time of payment. Applications must be submitted in person to the Development Services Counter.
If you have any further questions concerning this matter or your electrical service, please contact the DPU-E Operations Division at (630) 420-6070.
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Navigating on the Internet and online data transfers have their risks, since online threats lurk at every corner. In order to make sure that your PC stays clean of malicious code, you can use dedicated removal tools alongside the permanent antivirus solution, which are specialized programs designed to target a certain virus or other type of threat.
Such an utility is F-Bugbr, a command line utility especially designed to help you detect and remove files infected with the W32/Bugbear.A and 32/Bugbear.B worms. Also known as Tanat or Tanatos, these worms were discovered back in 2002, affecting computers with operating systems up to Windows XP.
Bugbear can spread via e-mail messages and network file sharing. Its core allows it to record your keystrokes and act as a backdoor for cyber-criminals and disrupt the normal functionality of shared printers.
The traces that you should look for on your system include new random files created in the Windows System folder and startup keys added to the system registry. Furthermore, the worm acts in order to force the shutdown of several security software.
What this application actually does is run a thorough scan of your system in order to find traces of the Bugbear worm. All you must do is run the executable file and wait for the analysis process to be finished. The number of infected files is displayed once the procedure is carried out.
F-Bugbr kills processed related to Bugbear, removes detected droppers and disinfects executable files. A reboot is mandatory for the changes to take effect.
While the spreading rate of the Bugbear is now pretty low and many antivirus software can easily identify it, F-Bugbr remains a useful application that you can try if you suspect that your PC might be infected by this worm, in order to avoid an outbreak.


This was a 3D model I had sculpted out in ZBrush for a tattoo I had designed to a friend whom had a son they had had named after the sea.
So they had wanted a concept with infinity in in as well as the sea... So the idea had come up rather naturally.
The idea was later abandoned but so such I thin I might as well share it with those that would want to do anything with it.
You can download it from THIS LINK!
As stated: It IS a ZBrush model... So you would need ZBrush installed to be able to use the ZTool.
For those of you that DO NOT HAVE A 3D application/software (Or don't know how to use it): I have included a few different views of it that I hope you can use for your designs some way.
(You would best opt to download the original image for it to have the transparencies available depending on your browser. I really do not know).
I give you full rights to do WHAT EVER you want with these.
I so hope they prove of some use to you!
keyshot for the render of the top image or the green glass matcap?
Thank you... You are too kind.
I have never used Keyshot in my professional life save for a specific production studio I was called upon as an advisor. So such AS familiar as I am with the program: I lack sufficient experience to have it as my tool of choice.
In preViz as well as lookDev in order to save time I tend to rely heavily on Clarisse actually and that takes away much from my need for such second party software any ways.
But what you see here is actually the exact same MatCap you see in Blue actually.
I used rather old school post production methods via rendering out the shadow and depth passes separately.
As for the colours I also rendered out a separate Ambient occlusion pass that I burned/multiplied to the render pass with a second duplicate of the render pass on top of it putting it all together via soft light.
I changed the hue for both the bottom and top render passes.
Later in Photoshop I applied the depth data into a new Alpha channel and then used this as a source for depth mapping via the lens blur filter so as to get the Depth Of Field effect Keyshot tends to produce similarly.
And it took much more time to write it than to do it in actually two/three simple steps.
As for the Blue matCap: I had had found it on the internet well over a decade ago and use it rather often for fast/dirty water-like renders.
I should actually redo a search for it to correctly credit the original creator.
That is really impressive !
Thank you: You are too kind.
I owe a lot of any success I have to the internet... So such sharing with you is a mere triffle to what was shared 2with me.
I so hope it can prove useful for you!
I'm not really sure if I can use it for any of my work right now, but maybe later on.
Anyways thanks for this !


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If you wrote it Autobiography, What Would the Chapter Titles Be?
What links your life together?
You can choose life events, demographics, influential people you've known, talents, even "aHa" moments.
Born female, in the USA, to a progressive, liberal mother.
"Abandoned" at four years old (for a year).
Abused by my stepfather, resulting in their divorce.
Moved, age 10, from a middle-class neighborhood to poverty neighborhood. I was suddenly a "minority".
My mother worked 18 hours a day, so my siblings and I raised ourselves.
Growing Up in the 70's.
Studied spiritual philosophies, finding an affinity with Christian, Buddhist, and Taoist ideas.
Became a mother of twin boys.
Started my own business as a psychotherapist.
Killed a person in a car accident.
(Wow! I just did that off the cuff! Very powerful!).
How did ____ influence you?
What did you have to learn to overcome?
How did ______ wound you? Strengthen you?
Yes, I killed a person in a car accident.
I discovered that life can change – drastically- in an instant. And in THAT particular instant, I didn't even know it. For a long time, I'd have terrible dreams, I'd have flashes of people appearing in the road before I could do anything about it… I struggled with my connection to God (I'd like to have made it through my life without killing someone).
I discovered that I loved and understood myself, even if society didn't. I confirmed my value of always telling the truth, as I knew it, and that I continue to do what I think is right – even if others disagreed (I wrote to his family against the advice of my attorney, who thought such an act would be misinterpreted as guilt).
I had to learn to live with knowing most people would make up stories about me that weren't true ("she must have known!", "She must have been drinking!"). I had to overcome needing people to understand me.
I will always have this heavy burden in my soul.
I am grateful for the people in my life that tried to help me. I'm grateful to learn that other peoples opinions of me no longer affects what I think of me.
What have been the greatest influences in your life? What ties your life all together?
"Your beliefs about people – that's who you believe them to be.
That's what's meant by "no one exists".
Because who you believe them to be isn't who they are. That's why they don't exist.
Instead, you are getting a glimpse of your own ego. And when you meet the power of that, and when the power of that moves to another polarity…you can drop the word power.


One passenger kilometre represents the transport of one passenger by road over one kilometre.
The distance refers to the distance actually travelled by the passenger. Refers to only the pkm performed on a country's territory.


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Zipp's desire to created the best performing carbon stem has resulted in the SL Sprint Carbon.
For this world class design, Zipp uses unidirectional carbon and borrowed the Exogram™ technology that SRAM uses for their high end cranks for a stem that is exceptionally stiff while remaining incredibly light. Stiff and light is easy enough to claim, but Zipp has crunched the numbers and tells us that the SL Sprint delivers an off the chart 1.8 grams per newton meter of stiffness, more than stiff enough even for the sprinters of the pro peloton. The shape of this stem, right down to the included top cap, is also designed to let air flow right around it so nothing is lost by its aerodynamics either.
The SL Sprint Carbon Stem comes with stainless steel Torx® T25 hardware and its own top cap. -12° drop. Claimed 165g weight in the 100mm size.
Looks amazing. Stiffest stem Ive ever ridden. Its clamped to an S-works Aerofly handlebar on a 2018 Specialized Venge Pro. Really helps complete the bike. Im 63 250 and I love the group sprint. Ive had other stemhandlebar combos in the past and none complete the feel of the out of the saddle back and forth sprint line this stem allows you too. Its just good.
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This proof of concept study was undertaken to test methodologies to characterize potential environmental risk associated with the presence of microplastics in surface waters. The goals of the study were to determine whether urban New Jersey freshwaters contained microplastic pollutants, and if so, to test analytic techniques that could potentially identify chemical compounds associated with this pollution. A third objective was to test whether identified associated compounds might have physiological effects on an aquatic organism. Using field collected microplastic samples obtained from the heavily urbanized Raritan and Passaic Rivers in New Jersey, microplastic densities, types, and sizes at 15 sampling locations were determined. Three types of plastic polymers were identified using pyrolysis coupled with gas chromatography (Pyr-GC/MS). Samples were further characterized using solid phase micro extraction coupled with headspace gas chromatography/ion trap mass spectrometry (HS-SPME-GC/ITMS) to identify organic compounds associated with the: (i) solid microplastic fraction, and (ii) site water fraction. Identical retention times for GC peaks found in both fractions indicated compounds can move between the two phases, potentially available for uptake by aquatic biota in the dissolved phase. Patterns of tentatively identified compounds were similar to patterns obtained in Pyr-GC/MS. Embryonic zebrafish exposed to PyCG/MS- identified pure polymers in the 1–10 ppm range exhibited altered growth and heart defects. Using two analytic methods (SPME GC/MS and Pyr-GC/MS) allows unambiguous identification of compounds associated with microplastic debris and characterization of the major plastic type(s). Specific "fingerprint" patterns can categorize the class of plastics present in a waterbody and identify compounds associated with the particles. This technique can also be used to identify compounds detected in biota that may be the result of ingesting plastics or plastic-associated compounds.
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Disinfection effects of electrodialysis systems using a cationic type fluorinated membrane (Nafion-415) on E. coli cells have been investigated.
E. coli suspended in various electrolyte solution (108 cells/cm3) were passed through a desalting chamber at a flow rate of 3 cm/min at different current densities, and viability (%) in the effluents was determined.
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Chicago, IL (January 13, 2016) — Alejandro Aravena of Chile has been selected as the 2016 Pritzker Architecture Prize Laureate, Tom Pritzker announced today. Mr. Pritzker is Chairman and President of The Hyatt Foundation, which sponsors the prize. The formal award ceremony for what has come to be known internationally as architecture's highest honor will be at United Nations Headquarters in New York on April 4, 2016.
The 48-year-old Aravena is an architect based in Santiago, Chile. He becomes the 41st laureate of the Pritzker Prize, the first Pritzker Laureate from Chile, and the fourth from Latin America, after Luis Barragán (1980), Oscar Niemeyer (1988), and Paulo Mendes da Rocha (2006).
Aravena has completed remarkable buildings at the esteemed Universidad Católica de Chile in Santiago, including the UC Innovation Center – Anacleto Angelini (2014), the Siamese Towers (2005), Medical School (2004), School of Architecture (2004), and the Mathematics School (1999). These energy-efficient buildings respond to the local climate with innovative, efficient facades and floor plans and offer the users natural light and convivial meeting places. Currently under construction in Shanghai, China, is an office building for healthcare company Novartis, with office spaces designed to accommodate different modes of work — individual, collective, formal and informal. In the United States, Aravena has built St. Edward's University Dorms (2008) in Austin, Texas.
Since 2001, Aravena has been executive director of the Santiago-based ELEMENTAL, a "Do Tank," as opposed to a think tank, whose partners are Gonzalo Arteaga, Juan Cerda, Victor Oddó, and Diego Torres. ELEMENTAL focuses on projects of public interest and social impact, including housing, public space, infrastructure, and transportation. ELEMENTAL has designed more than 2,500 units of low-cost social housing. A hallmark of the firm is a participatory design process in which the architects work closely with the public and end users. ELEMENTAL is also known for designing social housing that they call "half of a good house," in which the design leaves space for the residents to complete their houses themselves and thus raise themselves up to a middle-class standard of living. This innovative approach, called "incremental housing," allows for social housing to be built on more expensive land closer to economic opportunity and gives residents a sense of accomplishment and personal investment.
Aravena and ELEMENTAL have designed the Metropolitan Promenade (1997 - ongoing) and Bicentennial Children's Park (2012), both in Santiago. After the 2010 earthquake and tsunami that hit Chile, ELEMENTAL was called to work on the reconstruction of the city of Constitución; their work there includes emergency relief work, a master plan, Villa Verde (incremental housing, 2013), and the Constitución Cultural Center (2014). Other works include a Montessori School (2001) in Santiago, Chile; "Chairless" furniture (2010) for Vitra in Weil am Rhein, Germany; Monterrey Housing (incremental housing, 2010) in Monterrey, Mexico; Las Cruces Pilgrim Lookout Point (2010) in Jalisco, Mexico; Calama PLUS master plan (2012 - ongoing) in Calama, Chile; Writer's Cabin for the Jan Michalski Foundation (2015) in Montricher, Switzerland; and Ayelén School (2015) in Rancagua, Chile.
Alejandro Aravena is the Director of the Venice Architecture Biennale 2016, titled "Reporting from the Front," set to open in May 2016.


PRETTY WICKED (Oxygen) gets the Beautyinthebag Ladies vote for the most insulting reality show for women this week. A perfect 10 divas compete to find out who the most beautiful girl is on the "inside" for a grand prize of $50K! So you have to get passed their bottle blonde locks, inflated chests, Frederick's of Hollywood attire, and truck driver mouths to judge them on their character. Hmmmm, where have we seen this contrived format before? For starters, TRUE BEAUTY (ABC) offered up the same basic premise where a collection of buffed, supermodel wannabees, both guys and girls, including an admitted pole dancer, battled it out for $100K, the title of "America's Most Beautiful Person", plus a spread in People.
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Rock Star Alex Chilton Dies From Lack of Health Insurance
The year was 1967 – middle of the Vietnam War. Those of you not familiar with Blue-Eyed Soul may or may not recall the Box Tops version of the letter.
(Did we actually dress like that in the 60s?)
Their lead singer was Alex Chilton, who would later move to NOLA and join the music scene there. Last week he passed away…
Yet another victim of the dysfunctional Health Care System right wingers fight so hard to protect-
Alex Chilton Delayed Medical Treatment Due to Lack of Health Insurance
Alex Chilton's unexpected death last month at age 59 might have been prevented if he had health insurance. According to a report in the Times-Picayune, Chilton's wife, Laura Kersting, says that although he had symptoms of heart trouble, he declined immediate treatment due to lack of coverage.
Chilton, who at age 16 had a No. 1 US hit single with 'The Letter' in 1967 as lead singer of the Box Tops, passed away just days before he was to appear at a reunion show in Austin, Texas, of his '70s group, the widely influential power-pop band Big Star.
"At least twice in the week before his fatal heart attack, Chilton experienced shortness of breath and chills while cutting grass," the article reports. "But he did not seek medical attention, Kersting said, in part because he had no health insurance."
The Times-Picayune reveals that on the morning of March 17, the Big Star frontman called Kersting at work to tell her he wasn't well. She made it home before the ambulance and rushed him to the emergency room, running a red light at his insistence, before he lost consciousness when they were just a block from the emergency room.
The piece also takes a close look at Chilton's private life in New Orleans, where the Memphis-raised Louisiana transplant lived in the mixed neighborhood of Treme, where he rode out Hurricane Katrina in 2005. "He identified with black people more than white people," Kersting said. "He was very much a part of this neighborhood." Neighbors across the street marveled as Chilton cut his grass with a manual push mower.
Despite his iconic indie rock stature, Chilton's wife said, "He was kind of lazy … He took it very easy. He'd say, 'Why work when I don't have to?' He wanted a very simple life. He was not interested in fame. He was interested in money — he wanted enough to be comfortable and to travel."
The Box Tops seminal song would later be covered by a number of groups, none more famously than by Joe Cocker and Mad Dogs and Englishmen, in 1970…
In the Age before white people learned to dance in this country! 🙂
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Emerald Health Therapeutics Announces Pure Sunfarms' Selection to Supply Ontario Cannabis Store
Pure Sunfarms Ontario supply agreement adds to Emerald's existing supply agreement with the Ontario Cannabis Store
February 08, 2019 07:00 ET | Source: Emerald Health Therapeutics Inc.
VICTORIA, British Columbia, Feb. 08, 2019 (GLOBE NEWSWIRE) -- Emerald Health Therapeutics, Inc. ("Emerald" or the "Company") (TSXV:EMH; OTCQX:EMHTF) today announced its cannabis joint venture, Pure Sunfarms Corp. ("Pure Sunfarms"), has through a competitive process been selected by and entered into a supply agreement with the Ontario Cannabis Retail Corporation, operating as the Ontario Cannabis Store ("OCS"), to supply the OCS with Pure Sunfarms-branded cannabis products for the non-medical market in the Province of Ontario.
"Pure Sunfarms' supply agreement with the OCS – our first with a provincial government distributor – is a tremendous step forward for our organization, putting our branded quality products on the OCS website and soon retailers' store shelves, and into the hands of our consumers," said Mandesh Dosanjh, President and Chief Executive Officer, Pure Sunfarms. "The confidence of the OCS in Pure Sunfarms' ability to reliably supply safe, consistent quality products is a testament to the hard work of the entire Pure Sunfarms team, which has been relentless in advancing our organization to this stage. We are thrilled to be working with the OCS in Canada's most populated province and look forward to finalizing additional supplier agreements for other provinces and growing the Pure Sunfarms brand nationally."
"Pure Sunfarms' progress in building out an eminent cannabis growing facility, which provides a natural progression into retail sales and product development for the growing and evolving cannabis marketplace, as well as its accomplishment in winning its first provincial government supply agreement is a great validation of the broader business strategy. I applaud CEO Mandesh Dosanjh and the Pure Sunfarms team," said Dr. Avtar Dhillon, Executive Chairman and President of Emerald. "With cannabis supply we have secured from Pure Sunfarms, our Verdélite operation, and other sources, Emerald has been supplying British Columbia and Newfoundland/Labrador under existing supply agreements and expects to imminently ship to Ontario under the supply agreement it announced last fall. The Pure Sunfarms operation is poised for significant value generation and is a vital part of Emerald's portfolio."
With this Ontario supply agreement in place, Pure Sunfarms can commence shipments to the OCS upon receipt of its packaging and processing licenses from Health Canada, which it continues to expect in the near term, subject to Health Canada's own timelines.
Pure Sunfarms has been and continues to pursue additional supply agreements with other provincial government distributors and private retailers as it continues to sell directly to other Licensed Producers to capitalize on favorable spot market pricing amidst the continuing cannabis supply shortage across Canada.
Pure Sunfarms recently completed conversion of all of the growing area – more than 1 million square feet – at its 1.1 million square foot greenhouse in Delta, British Columbia, making it one of the largest single cannabis growing facilities in the world. The first three quadrants of this facility are licensed for cultivation, with the fourth quadrant currently under Health Canada licensing review. Pure Sunfarms expects to be in production in all four quadrants of this facility in the first quarter of 2019.
About Emerald Health Therapeutics, Inc.
Emerald Health Therapeutics, Inc. is a Canadian licensed producer of cannabis. Its 50%-owned Pure Sunfarms joint venture in BC is completing the conversion of its 1.1 million square foot (25 acre) greenhouse for cannabis cultivation in the Lower Mainland and its Verdélite operation in Québec is completing the build out of its 75,000 square feet indoor cultivation facility. Commercial production is expanding in both facilities. Emerald secured over 500 acres of hemp harvest in 2018 and has contracted for approximately 1000 acres in 2019 to 2022, with the objective of extracting low-cost cannabidiol (CBD). Emerald's team is highly experienced in life sciences, product development, large-scale agri-business, and marketing, and is focused on developing proprietary, value-added cannabis products for medical and adult-use customers. Emerald is part of the Emerald Health group, which represents a broad array of companies focused on developing pharmaceutical, botanical, and nutraceutical products developed to provide wellness and medical benefits by interacting with the human body's endocannabinoid system.
Please visit www.emeraldhealth.ca for more information or contact:
Rob Hill, Chief Financial Officer
(800) 757 3536 Ext. #5
invest@emeraldhealth.ca
Cautionary Note Regarding Forward-Looking Statements: Certain statements made in this press release that are not historical facts are forward-looking statements and are subject to important risks, uncertainties and assumptions, both general and specific, which give rise to the possibility that actual results or events could differ materially from our expectations expressed in or implied by such forward-looking statements. Such statements include legalization of nonmedicinal cannabis; production capacity of various facilities; expansion of facilities; and anticipated production costs.
We cannot guarantee that any forward-looking statement will materialize, and readers are cautioned not to place undue reliance on these forward-looking statements. These forward-looking statements involve risks and uncertainties related to, among other things, failure to obtain regulatory approvals; failure to obtain necessary financing; results of production and sale activities; results of scientific research; regulatory changes; changes in prices and costs of inputs; demand for labour; demand for products; as well as the risk factors described in the Company's annual information form and other regulatory filings. The forward-looking statements contained in this press release represent our expectations as of the date hereof. Forward-looking statements are presented for the purpose of providing information about management's current expectations and plans and allowing investors and others to obtain a better understanding of our anticipated operating environment. Readers are cautioned that such information may not be appropriate for other purposes. The Company undertakes no obligations to update or revise such statements to reflect new circumstances or unanticipated events as they occur, unless required by applicable law.
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