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Confined French sisters seek ways to remain close to the vulnerable
by Elisabeth Auvillain
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The Eiffel Tower is seen March 17 during the coronavirus lockdown in Paris. (Dreamstime/UlyssePixel)
Paris — "Am I my brother's keeper?" (Genesis 4:9)
"This is the question that we must all ask ourselves at the moment," said Sr. Véronique Margron, provincial prior of the Dominican Sisters of the Presentation and president of the Conférence des Religieux et Religieuses de France, France's conference for men and women religious. "We can continue to destroy each other ... if we don't follow instructions" when it comes to the new coronavirus spreading across the globe.
She said she worries about how Christians can continue to be close to the vulnerable: "What support the church provides in normal times no longer exists, is no longer directly accessible."
As of March 25, France had 22,302 confirmed cases of COVID-19, and 1,100 people have died so far. The number of victims is still increasing.
Margron recalls the confinement instructions given by the French government on March 12: no public celebrations, and during intracommunity celebrations, strict compliance with social distancing measures of 1 meter. These rules are also to be respected as much as possible in the life of the community.
These safety measures are in force until March 26 and are widely expected to be extended until the middle or end of April.
"As our chapel is very large, we can easily stay away from each other, as we've been told. We have the impression that there are many of us, as in the past," said Sister Marie Joseph de la Passion, a Little Sister of the Poor who lives in La Tour, the motherhouse of her community in France, in Saint-Pern in Brittany. "In the refectory, we only occupy every other seat of the tables."
While understanding the restrictions and following them carefully, Sister Marie Joseph said she was sorry the community could no longer welcome groups of people who regularly came to La Tour to pray or attend Sunday Mass.
The Little Sisters of the Poor run houses for elderly people with little means. Today, there are 465 sisters in France in charge of 36 houses.
"In all our homes, the staff makes a point to pay more attention than ever. We have to make sure we do not make elderly people's feelings of loneliness worse than normal, especially since visitors are not allowed anymore," Sister Marie Joseph said.
These concerns are the same in other women religious communities that work in other fields, like schools and health centers. In old people's homes, where some elderly sisters live in community with residents, their presence is essential, especially because visits have been prohibited there for the past two weeks.
"We have two communities in an old people's home of 80 residents" in the west of France that has been relatively spared, said Sr. Eliane Loiseau, mother superior for the Missionary Sisters of the Gospel for France.
Since all visitors are forbidden, the elderly can feel even more alone and become desperate. The sisters continue to stay in touch with confined old people, both lay and religious, whom they used to visit regularly, Margron said.
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Sr. Véronique Margron (Provided photo)
"Contacts are made by phone; an invisible network continues to be present. Basic solidarity continues," she said. "I am amazed to see how the elderly sisters keep ties with loved ones, family and friends."
"As for the elderly who live at home on their own, there is a danger that they will feel even more alone," she added. "The elderly, often worried, are even more worried at the moment. Loneliness is compounded by despair."
"For people who live alone, the link with the outside world is often very fragile: It can be a helper who comes in every day," Margron said. "What happens if she is sick or simply unable to come for work?"
There is an upside, Loiseau pointed out.
"This crisis, which forces us to use modern, virtual means of communication, has enabled some older sisters to familiarize themselves with these technological instruments that frightened them and to use them to keep in touch with others," she said. "We all work from home, we stay in our communities, where we are confined. We have video conferences, we send documents to each other, talk a lot on the telephone."
More than half of the nuns in France are over 80 years old, so most of them cannot exercise the traditional functions of nurses as in previous epidemics, even though many of them continue to run health facilities where basic care is provided.
"In my community, we all have health concerns and cannot directly help the victims of COVID-19," said Sr. Marie Hélène Halligon of the Our Lady of Charity of the Good Shepherd community. "We pray together morning and evening. We watch Mass on the Catholic channel every evening at 6:15 p.m., and at the time of Communion, we take Communion with the hosts that a priest left us last week in anticipation of confinement."
Members of her community live in apartments in Strasbourg, and the neighbors are helping each other. For example, French authorities have asked each person who wants to leave home to fill out a certificate indicating the purpose of his or her errand — buying groceries or walking the dog, for example. This certificate is valid for one hour and allows you to go out but no further than 1 kilometer away from your home.
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Sr. Marie Hélène Halligon (Elisabeth Auvillain)
"In our building, someone printed and deposited a stack of these certificates. The residents of the building, who do not all have a printer, can have it when they want to go shopping," Halligon said.
For someone like Halligon, who is committed to the fight against human trafficking, the necessary confinement can have disastrous consequences.
"I worry that the violent men are confined," she said. "In such a situation, they may turn even more violent, and we must help the women who are in their grip." The French government has posted to social media the phone numbers to call in case of domestic violence.
Every sister agrees that this crisis also provides an opportunity to question how we live the present moment.
"I have invited the members of our congregation to reflect on what time means: the time I give, the time I lose," Loiseau said.
Margron said she is worried about the new challenges created by this period for Christians, challenges that often are concrete. "The most crucial question is that of funerals: If someone close to you dies, what do you do? The operational support is no longer there. How do we continue to show our presence? How can we exercise our apostolate, in what other way?"
New rules of confinement state that no more than 20 mourners can gather in a church for a funeral service.
On March 23, French President Emmanuel Macron invited the heads of the main religions in France to discuss how to celebrate funerals while being careful to avoid risks of contagion by the virus.
The representatives of religions welcomed the initiative.
"When I see how our secular system of government cares about the role of religious celebrations, what these ceremonies do for the common good, the service they provide for believers and nonbelievers alike, I find this magnificent," Margron said. "In the midst of this chaos, of all that it has to do, in the midst of its duties and worries, the government shows that it is concerned about ways to give support to people mourning. This, to me, is a beautiful gesture. It's up to us religious men and women to be up to the task."
[Elisabeth Auvillain is a freelance journalist living in Paris.]
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In year five and six, the pupils have been talking about what is meant by the word community. We talked about the community within the school as well as the wider community in our locality. Our school is a community primary school and we wanted to know what that means for ourselves and our neighbours. This year one of the aims of the school council is to try to create stronger links between Moldgreen Primary and the people who live and work around us. We made a start by extending the hand of friendship through making Christmas cards. These were delivered to the shops and businesses around the area by the year five and six school council members . The people who received the cards were really surprised and pleased to get them; and we really enjoyed getting to know our community a little better.
A few weeks ago all the children in school were asked to elect the 2018-2019 School Council.
We wrote an application statement and each class voted for their representative.
Our first task was to work with Rosie, Moldgreen's Community Minister, to plant bulbs and pansies in the village. We are now looking forward to being role models for the school.
We hope our school will continue to be amazing and the best place to learn.
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Q: Extremely slow dataframe.write.csv in pyspark I have a dataframe, which has been created by union of rows,
def group_acc_num_and_make_metrics(acc_list: List[str], data_frame: DataFrame):
    for acc_no in acc_list:
        rows = rows.union(metrics_df(data_frame.filter(data_frame.SOURCE_ACCOUNT_NBR == acc_no), acc_no))
    return row

metrics_df creates a new dataframe with 109 columns, so the return type of this function is a dataframe with 109 columns and some rows
Now when I want to save this dataframe to csv, it is taking a hell amount of time, the number of rows in this dataframe is only 70, and it takes around 10 minutes to write it to csv file. The number of partitioned csv files generated are also 70. Repartitioning/coalesce is also a very timeraking operation. Below is the code for saving it to csv
def split_test_train(data_frame: DataFrame, number_of_rows):
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    def_path = data_output_path
    path = def_path + str(int(datetime.now().timestamp() * 1000))
    test_x_df.drop(test_x_df.is_fraud).write.format('com.databricks.spark.csv').save(path + "/test_x")
    train_x_df.drop(test_x_df.is_fraud).write.format('com.databricks.spark.csv').save(path + "/train_x")
    test_y_df.write.format('com.databricks.spark.csv').save(path + "test_y")
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Sometimes when people talk to you there's loads of words coming out but none of them say anything. That was kind of like the press blurb for this band. It says lots about how big they are in their home country of Finland but tells me nothing about the important thing, the music they play. With a name like Stam1na which let's face it is bloody awful I expected some nu-metal style rubbish to be honest but put it on expecting to be turning it off very quickly but then after a few songs it struck me why there was no mention of what styles the band play, it would have been easier to mention those that they don't! Basically SLK is a huge melting pot of ideas which never stand still for a second, throwing practically everything it can at the listener. The other thing that should be mentioned straight away is that this is good; bloody good!
The band have been going since 1996 and despite changing their name a couple of times (Ei, Siperia) and reverting it back seem to have never stopped. They have a huge amount of releases behind them and SLK is their sixth full length album. Apparently they originally started out singing in English but they quickly decided to ditch this and everything here is in Finnish. It may as well be Dutch as far as I am concerned and although it all sounds intriguing especially the way the words roll off the tongue on the album I don't understand a thing, hey let's just stick with the music then.
Flying in with a surging and gloriously uplifting piano driven melody this picks you up from the off and it's heavy as the drums batter away and quickly evident that the band sure can play. Vocals are clean and harmonious although completely alien as I mentioned. The mad dash is certainly progressively flavoured but it's still very difficult to get a drop on the style here. The second number however sounds at start very heavily of Scandinavian Melodeath in fact it could almost be Dark Tranquillity until the vocals come in. These are more diverse too now with some deathly rasps, the guitars squeal away and the band really have got their hooks in with that impeccable central melody. Suddenly they throw some old prog licks into things more King Crimson and old Genesis than anything contemporary, by now as guitars spiral away I am wondering if I am going to survive 44 minutes of this chop change musical madness without my brain exploding. Luckily I can as this carries on excellently. 'Panzerfaust' (yep I get that title) rages in with more of a Swedish classic DM sound about it, very Entombed in places here and a cracking, heavy song with savage vocals to boot.
As it carries on, each track with a huge diversity but gelling together perfectly I am kind of reminded of Die Apokalyptischen Reiter circa Have A Nice Trip. I think this is due partly to the energy behind it and after a few listens it also strikes that it's because I find myself unwittingly attempting to join in a sing along (very badly) in a language I don't understand. This is a really infectious album at the end of the day and I can totally understand how the band are so popular in their home country. There's a bit of Devin Townsend to the progressive harmonies of 'Masiina' and we do in fact have the perfect opening band for him here when he visits Finland as far as I am concerned. There are other times that I think if you had Rammstein visiting they would be a good choice of support for them too. 'Dynamo' is such an anthemic number it's big enough for stadiums with its glorious chorus and keyboard driven melody, add to that some really fast strumming fret-work and it's a corking number. The album keeps it going and the listener on their toes throughout. At one point singer Antti Hyyrynen sounds like a dead ringer for Freddie Mecury and the next a song starts in a way that makes you think you have accidently got an Opeth track sneaked onto the disc.
I guess the name sticks as this lot certainly have the stamina to go all the way and it does make sense sticking the numeral in to make the band stick out search engine wise. Anyway sucky name aside this is an excellent album that really is an enjoyable listen from start to finish, packing a nutzoid amount of ideas into it throughout.
May well do just that! Had not noticed they were on bill.
You should! These guys fall into the rare category "better live than on album". Don't miss it.
The reason why they changed the "i" in their name to a 1 was that they would be easier to find on google.


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Q: Windows message queue always inserts with a BodyType of 0? My new project at work requires me to know about MSMQ. I'm currently trying to figure out how to parse the Body of a message. Problem is, every message I enter has a BodyType of 0. I have only one Public Queue on my computer and I fill it with test data with this C#
using System;
using System.Messaging;

namespace Sandbox {
    class Program {
        static void Main(string[] args) {
            MessageQueue q = MessageQueue.GetPublicQueuesByMachine(Environment.MachineName)[0];

            q.Purge();

            Person me = new Person();
            me.Name = "Corey Ogburn";
            me.Number = 25;

            q.Formatter = new XmlMessageFormatter(new Type[] { typeof(int), typeof(String), typeof(Person) });

            q.Send(1);
            q.Send("One");

            q.Send(2);
            q.Send("Two");

            q.Send(3);
            q.Send("Three");

            q.Send(me);

            Console.WriteLine();
            Console.WriteLine("DONE");
            Console.ReadKey(true);
        }
    }
}

Everything goes smooth and in Computer Management, I can see that the 7 messages are in there, I can view their bodies and verify that all of them are going in correctly (as XML entries).
However, when I go to read these messages, all of them have a BodyType of 0
public void AllMessages(String server, String queue) {
    MessageQueueCriteria crit = new MessageQueueCriteria();
    crit.MachineName = server;
    crit.Label = queue;
    using (MessageQueueEnumerator e = MessageQueue.GetMessageQueueEnumerator(crit)) {
        if (e.MoveNext()) {
            e.Current.MessageReadPropertyFilter = new MessagePropertyFilter();
            e.Current.MessageReadPropertyFilter.SetAll();
            foreach (Message m in e.Current.GetAllMessages()) {
                // Here, m.BodyType is always 0
            }
        }
        e.Close();
    }
}

I keep reading that this field should be set for me. I believe I'm reading the Messages correctly, so I think I must be inserting them wrong. Insertion is so simple that I'm not sure how I could do it differently. According to this question/answer, I should be getting BodyTypes of 3 for a signed int, 30 or 31 for my strings, and 68 or 69 for my object. At the very least, if MSMQ only sees them as strings, then they should all be 30 or 31. I can't explain why I'm getting 0. What can I do to properly set these numbers as the BodyType?
EDIT: It seems that even if I set the BodyType when storing a message, it still comes out as 0 when I go to read it. Adding this code:
Message msg = new Message();
msg.Body = me;
msg.BodyType = 69;
q.Send(msg);

It adds my custom object to the queue but the message looks exactly like the previous q.Send(me).
Windows 7 which I believe is MSMQ 4. It's a non-transactional queue, no auth or security.

A: You could also use BinaryMessageFormatter. Regardless, whether you are reading/writing it's best to set the Formatter, so you're 100% sure you can de/serialize on both ends.
You can also right-click 'My Computer' > Manage > Services and Applications > Message Queueing
There you will be able to see the body of the message, and double-check your logic.


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This article was published on June 27, 2012
BT combines its UK Openzone and Fon networks to create BT Wi-fi
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BT is combining its Openzone wireless broadband Internet access and BT Fon Wi-fi community together under one name: BT Wi-fi.
The company says that the move makes things 'neater and clearer'.
BT includes unlimited free Wi-fi with its home broadband and has recently added this feature to its business broadband accounts too. This means that BT broadband customers don't need to pay for 3G or use a dongle to get online while they are out and about.
There are more than 4 million hotspots for BT Wi-fi in the UK, so there's a chance that you'll be able to find a signal in far more places.
Even if you're not a BT customer for broadband, you can still use BT Wi-fi with a subscription or voucher at the afore-mentioned hotspots.
Customers in the UK are benefiting from the healthy competition when it comes to free Wi-fi hotpots in public areas. BSKyB is offering free unlimited Wi-fi via The Cloud and O2 has been targeting popular places to gather to provide a free signal such as Debenhams department stores, Costa Coffee houses and McDonalds.
That's good news for those of use who cannot bear to be disconnected for any length of time.
BT is expecting a little confusion while the rebranding takes place, but says that users can still get online using any of the network names in the mean time.
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Чудик Андрій Васильович  (22 жовтня 1985 р., м. Болехів Івано-Франківська обл.) – тренер з універсального бою, Заслужений тренер України з універсального бою.

Біографія
Чудик Андрій Васильович народився 22 жовтня 1985 р. у м. Болехів Івано-Франrівської обл. Закінчив Прикарпатський військово-спортивний ліцей (2003 р., Богородчани Івано-Франківської обл.), Національну академію Державної прикордонної служби України ім. Б. Хмельницького (2007 р.).

Спортивна діяльність
Cпортом (кікбоксингом) почав займатись у 1994 р. в Болехові, а рукопашним боєм з 1999 р. в ліцеї, став чемпіоном України серед юніорів в цьому виді єдиноборств.

В 2012 р. вподобав універсальний бій, де досяг в якості спортсмена звань чемпіона Європи (2015 р., Чорноморськ та 2016 р., Коблево), срібного (2012 р., Мединь, РФ) та бронзового (2013 р., Мединь, РФ) призера чемпіонатів світу, майстра спорту України міжнародого класу з універсального бою. Виступав у ваговій категорії понад 95 кг за Хмельницьку обласну організацію ФСТ «Динамо» України.

З 2010 р. проходить військову службу  в НАДПСУ ім. Б. Хмельницького, кандидат педагогічних наук за спеціальністю теорія та методика профосвіти (2015 р.), доцент кафедри фізичної підготовки та особистої безпеки НАДПСУ ім. Б. Хмельницького, учасник АТО 2014-2015 р.

Тренерська діяльність
Тренерською роботою займається з 2011 року.

Керівник відокремленого підрозділу Української спортивної федерації «Універсальний бій» в Хмельницькій області.

Серед вихованців 23 майстри спорту України з універсального бою та 5 майстрів спорту України міжнародного класу з універсального бою. Найвідоміші вихованці: чемпіони світу Владислав Чорний та Ілля Зісяк (2021 р.), Данило Семеняка - володар Кубка світу та чемпіон Європи, Артур Гончаренко - чемпіон Європи  2022 р.

Досягнення

 Заслужений тренер України з універсального бою (2022 р.);
 суддя міжнародної категорії з універсального бою.

Нагороди

 Відзнака Президента України «За участь в АТО»;
 відомчі медалі ДПСУ  «За мужність в охороні Держкордону» (2003 р.);
 «За віру та вірність» (2007 р.);
 Грамота Мінмолодьспорту України (2018 р. ).

Посилання

 https://ye.ua/sport/62414_Simchishin_vruchiv_stipendiyi_ta_premiyi_kraschim_sportsmenam_i_treneram_Hmelnickogo.html
 https://vsim.ua/Sport/u-hmelnitskomu-vidznachili-kraschih-sportsmeniv-ta-treneriv-oblasti-10477331.html

Уродженці Болехова
Заслужені тренери України
Судді міжнародної категорії

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package org.apache.camel.language.simple;

/**
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> : greater than

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>= : greater than or equals

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< : less than

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<= : less than or equals

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contains : tested for if it contains the value

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not contains : tested for if it does not contain the value

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regex : matching a regular expression

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in : tested for in a list of values separated by comma

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range : tested for if it is within the provided range

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not range : tested for not if it is within the provided range

 *
and : and operator to combine two groups of expressions

 *
or : or operator to combine two groups of expressions

 *

 *

 * The <tt>and</tt> and <tt>or</tt> operator is special as they are used as optional operator to combine two expressions.
 * This allows you to build combined expressions. Currently only one and/or operator is supported, but this might change
 * in the future.
 *

 * For example we can create this compound expression that has two groups that is combined with the and operator:
 * <tt>${in.header.action} == 'login' and ${in.header.password} != null</tt>
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 */
public enum SimpleLanguageOperator {

    EQ, GT, GTE, LT, LTE, NOT, CONTAINS, NOT_CONTAINS, REGEX, NOT_REGEX,
    IN, NOT_IN, IS, NOT_IS, RANGE, NOT_RANGE, AND, OR;

    public static SimpleLanguageOperator asOperator(String text) {
        if ("==".equals(text)) {
            return EQ;
        } else if (">".equals(text)) {
            return GT;
        } else if (">=".equals(text)) {
            return GTE;
        } else if ("<".equals(text)) {
            return LT;
        } else if ("<=".equals(text)) {
            return LTE;
        } else if ("!=".equals(text)) {
            return NOT;
        } else if ("contains".equals(text)) {
            return CONTAINS;
        } else if ("not contains".equals(text)) {
            return NOT_CONTAINS;
        } else if ("regex".equals(text)) {
            return REGEX;
        } else if ("not regex".equals(text)) {
            return NOT_REGEX;
        } else if ("in".equals(text)) {
            return IN;
        } else if ("not in".equals(text)) {
            return NOT_IN;
        } else if ("is".equals(text)) {
            return IS;
        } else if ("not is".equals(text)) {
            return NOT_IS;
        } else if ("range".equals(text)) {
            return RANGE;
        } else if ("not range".equals(text)) {
            return NOT_RANGE;
        } else if ("and".equals(text)) {
            return AND;
        } else if ("or".equals(text)) {
            return OR;
        }
        throw new IllegalArgumentException("Operator not supported: " + text);
    }

    public String getOperatorText(SimpleLanguageOperator operator) {
        if (operator == EQ) {
            return "==";
        } else if (operator == GT) {
            return ">";
        } else if (operator == GTE) {
            return ">=";
        } else if (operator == LT) {
            return "<";
        } else if (operator == LTE) {
            return "<=";
        } else if (operator == NOT) {
            return "!=";
        } else if (operator == CONTAINS) {
            return "contains";
        } else if (operator == NOT_CONTAINS) {
            return "not contains";
        } else if (operator == REGEX) {
            return "regex";
        } else if (operator == NOT_REGEX) {
            return "not regex";
        } else if (operator == IN) {
            return "in";
        } else if (operator == NOT_IN) {
            return "not in";
        } else if (operator == IS) {
            return "is";
        } else if (operator == NOT_IS) {
            return "not is";
        } else if (operator == RANGE) {
            return "range";
        } else if (operator == NOT_RANGE) {
            return "not range";
        } else if (operator == AND) {
            return "and";
        } else if (operator == OR) {
            return "or";
        }
        return "";
    }

    @Override
    public String toString() {
        return getOperatorText(this);
    }
}

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IDI Billing Solutions' VP of Human Resources, Deborah Culeton, is a long-time member of our board. Deb and her staff have been in business for 20 years this month! Congratulations and we thank you for your contribution to the Finger Lakes Region.
IDI Celebrates 20 Years in Support of Leading Communication Service Providers
IDI Billing Solutions continues to innovate and serve wireless, wireline and IP providers.
VICTOR, N.Y. (January 19, 2016) — IDI Billing Solutions, a global provider of cloud-based Billing and Order Management solutions for Communication Service Providers, is pleased to announce it has reached a significant milestone this week – the company's 20-year anniversary.
IDI has a long history of innovation including being the first to deploy a rating, billing and customer care system on the desktop. The company broke new ground with the launch of an online bill payment and presentment product, implemented the industry's first .NET-architected solutions, and earned a patent for AdvancePay service. IDI continues to invest in its benchmark product CostGuard® offering Care, Orders, Workflow, Trouble Tickets, Document Storage and a Subscriber Portal all on the latest web based technologies.
"We have a lot to celebrate and many accomplishments throughout our company's history. I'm very proud that our core values and mission have stood the test of time." said Don Culeton, founder, president and CEO of IDI. "As we embark on another year I really want to thank our many great employees, customers, partners and suppliers for helping us remain an esteemed leader in our industry."
About IDI Billing Solutions
IDI Billing Solutions is a leading Billing and OSS service provider for the communications industry. IDI's Billing as a ServiceSM includes the award-winning CostGuard application, expert back-office and professional services, and a highly secure SaaS-hosted platform. IDI's Billing as a Service gives communication providers the tools necessary to quickly monetize their services and automate operations related to selling, activating, and billing customers. IDI has won numerous awards and maintains multiple Gold Competencies in the Microsoft Partner Program. To learn more about IDI, please visit us at www.idibilling.com or call 1.888.924.4110.
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The New York State Eligible Training Provider List (NYS ETPL) was established in compliance with the Workforce Investment Act of 1998 and continues under the Workforce Innovation and Opportunity Act (WIOA). The purpose of the ETPL is to present a broad and diverse selection of training choices to support employment goals of individuals.
Inclusion on the NYS ETPL, in itself, does not guarantee that WIOA funds are available for enrollment in an eligible offering. The availability of WIOA funding for enrollment is based on many factors including assessment of an individual's employment needs. Individuals who are interested in determining if they qualify for WIOA training funding must contact a New York State Career Center.
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Celebrating the Women of United Way
According to the Library of Congress, Women's History Month began as Women's History Week in 1982, when Congress authorized the president to proclaim the week on March 7 of the following year. Five years later, Congress designated the entire month to celebrate the contributions and achievements women have made throughout American history.
This year, United Way of King County celebrates Women's History Month by recognizing some of the women who have helped make our work possible–from current and former staff, to board members, to grantees, to those who helped lead our events and campaigns. We've asked several of those women to share their knowledge and wisdom on International Women' Day, a global celebration of the social, economic, cultural and political achievements of women.


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Richmond institution Mekong is in the running for USA Today's Best Beer Bar in America and they need your vote.
An is a Richmond cheerleader, local celebrity and lover of all things beer. We don't think we've ever seen a photo of him without a huge smile on his face.
Remember when you thought Heineken was the fanciest beer you'd ever tasted? Well, An was transforming his family Vietnamese restaurant into craft beer lover's heaven...before most craft beer lovers existed.
Look how excited that guy is. Look how young some of those RVABeer heavy hitters are!
Seriously, have you had enough farm to table, artisanal, single source, hormone free buffalo wings yet? Have a banh mi with that Belgian Tripel.
Craftbeer.com named Mekong the Best Beer Bar in America in 2013 & 2014.
Thrillist said Mekong was one of America's 33 Best Beer Bars in 2015.
50 taps! You got your local beer, you got your national beer, you got your imports. Mekong has it all.
Ratebeer.com voted Mekong a best beer restaurant in the entire world.
An's not just selling the stuff anymore. The brewpub next door, the Answer is also bringing home awards.
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Cline named new graduate admissions counselor
FOR RELEASE: Wednesday, March 20, 2013
HUNTINGTON, Ind. Rebecca Cline has been named the new graduate admissions counselor for the Huntington University graduate school. Her position became effective March 1, replacing the former counselor Drew Clay.
Cline, originally from Marcellus, Mich., is currently enrolled in HU's master's degree program in counseling. She obtained her bachelor's degree in 2008 from Western Michigan University in business administration.
"I really want to help the program grow," Cline said. "I feel in love with the program, and I want to bring other people in the program so that they, in turn, can help others."
Cline said her undergraduate education will help her in her new role.
"My education in sales helped prepare me for this job," she said. "It's about building relationships with potential students. The program speaks for itself and it's hard to not fall in love with what's happening here."
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Q: Math Table in php? I want to get table value in php array.
 $values=array(2,4,6,8,10,12,14,16,18,19,20);

I tried something like this
<?php
 for($i=1;$i<=10;$i++)
 {
$values[]=2*$i;
 }

 ?>

Can i do better may be through some built in functions or some another technique.

A: Assuming that 19 is a typo:
$values = range(2, 20, 2);

A: Try this
$n=2; range($n, $n*10, $n);


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Is there a relation between 5G and COVID-19?
Really I am writing this article due to two reasons, First that I received many questions about Is 5G Safe for Human? and Second that I shocked when I saw some of the social media posts on Facebook and Twitter that point out that the main reason for COVID-19 is 5G or using some 5G Equipment.
So I decided to write this article to transfer the research results in the relation between 5G and the Risks on the Human body.
So my article will cover the below points:
The Conspiracy Theory of using 5G as a Weapon.
Are EM waves are safe for Human Bodies?
Can 5G mmWave or high frequencies can make Human Risk.
The Conspiracy Theory of using 5G as a Weapon
I found the below Facebook and Twitter posts that claim the main reason for COVID is 5G.
So to answer the above, let's start with this question Are Mobile Networks Safe for Human Health?
Radiation is the emission of energy from any source. That means that even heat that comes from your body counts as radiation. But some forms of radiation can make you sick.
We can organize types of radiation by their levels of power on the electromagnetic spectrum. Bigger wavelengths with lower frequencies are less powerful, while smaller wavelengths at higher frequencies are more powerful. This spectrum is divided into two distinct categories: ionizing and non-ionizing.
Ionizing radiation, which includes ultraviolet rays, X-rays and gamma rays, are harmful forms. The energy from ionizing radiation can pull apart atoms, and it's known to break the chemical bonds DNA, which can damage cells and cause cancer. This is why the FDA warns against having unnecessary X-rays. It's also why exposure to the sun can cause skin cancer.
Non-ionizing radiation has lower frequencies and bigger wavelengths. It doesn't produce enough energy to break apart the chemical bonds of DNA. Examples include radio frequency, or RF, radiation such as FM radio, TV signals and cellphones that use traditional 3G and 4G service.
The Fear of EM Waves
In 2000, physicist Bill P. Curry studied how radio waves affect tissues and reported that, as radio waves rise to higher frequencies, brain tissue absorbs more radiation. In his infamous graph, "Microwave Absorption in Brain Tissue (Grey Matter)", pictured below, Curry demonstrates that tissue damage increases at an exponential rate as radio wave frequency rises.
However, According to experts on the biological effects of electromagnetic radiation, radio waves become safer at higher frequencies, not more dangerous. (Extremely high-frequency energies, such as X-rays, behave differently and do pose a health risk.)
In his research, Dr. Curry looked at studies on how radio waves affect tissues isolated in the lab and misinterpreted the results as applying to cells deep inside the human body. His analysis failed to recognize the protective effect of human skin. At higher radio frequencies, the skin acts as a barrier, shielding the internal organs, including the brain, from exposure. Human skin blocks the even higher frequencies of sunlight.
So Radio Waves are capable of raising the temperature of brain cells by 0.2 degrees Celsius!, like the same temperature the body gains after excercise.
Also, there're a lot of research papers about this topic like THIS.
So what is the opinion of WHO or the World Health Organization on this topic?
In 2011 the World Health Organization's International Agency for Research on Cancer classified RF radiation as "possibly carcinogenic to humans" after studies suggested links to a specific type of brain tumor. But the agency also acknowledged that the evidence is limited.
Just for reference, coffee and pickled vegetables are in the same "possibly carcinogenic" category as RF.
"There is some evidence from epidemiological studies and other research on the biological effects that electromagnetic radiation could cause cancer," said Jonathan Samet, a pulmonary physician, and epidemiologist and the dean of the Colorado School of Public Health, who chaired the IARC's committee in 2011. "But the whole body of evidence is not strong."
Can 5G mmWave or high frequencies can make Human Risk?
The concerns about 5G are similar to the concerns about 2G, 3G and 4G, the earlier generations of wireless service. In fact, 5G in the US is expected to use some of the same frequency bands that previous generations of wireless have used, including low-band 600MHz frequencies as well as mid-band spectrum in the 2.5GHz, 3.5GHz, and 3.7GHz-4.2GHz bands. But operators, such as AT&T and Verizon, are also targeting higher frequency bands for 5G. The FCC has already auctioned off airwaves in the 24GHz and 28GHz bands. Later this year, it'll auction off-licenses in the 37GHz, 39GHz, and 47GHz bands.
It's this so-called "high band" spectrum that's of most concern because it'll require denser radio deployments. There's also less research on the effects of radiation at these higher frequency bands. That said, these high-band frequencies are still non-ionizing. As stated earlier, non-ionizing radiation doesn't have enough energy to break apart DNA and directly cause changes to cells that could lead to cancer.
5G networks using millimeter-wave frequencies will require small towers every few blocks instead of every few miles, which some people fear will increase exposure to cell tower radiation.
There are also additional concerns specific to 5G, due to the super high-frequency millimeter wavelengths used. Because signals transmitted over millimeter waves are limited in range and can't penetrate obstacles like walls or even leaves on trees, networks using these frequencies will require radios on every city block, versus 4G gear that transmits signals over miles.
This means that 5G will require up to five times the amount of infrastructure as 3G or 4G deployments. Not only will there be more 5G radios transmitting signals, but the radios will have to be closer to you.
There's nothing to suggest 5G millimeter wave is a significant health risk.
Cnet.com June 20,2019
From a week ago on March 11, 2020. The International Commission on Non‐Ionizing Radiation Protection (ICNIRP), a German-based scientific organization that determines the impact of electromagnetic waves on people and the environment, said March 11 that there is no evidence that 5G networks pose a health risk to humans, The Financial Times reported.
Finally, I think the debate has been started 50 years ago and still ongoing…
https://www.ecowatch.com/5g-human-health-study-2645508427.html?rebelltitem=1#rebelltitem1
https://www.theguardian.com/technology/2020/mar/12/5g-safe-radiation-watchdog-health
https://blogs.scientificamerican.com/observations/we-have-no-reason-to-believe-5g-is-safe/
https://www.cnet.com/news/5g-phones-and-your-health-what-you-need-to-know/
https://www.rheintech.com/fcc-fights-for-5g-rollout
https://www.iarc.fr/wp-content/uploads/2018/07/pr208_E.pdf
https://www.forbes.com/sites/startswithabang/2019/11/01/the-science-of-why-5g-is-almost-certainly-safe-for-humans/
https://www.swindonadvertiser.co.uk/news/18308720.5g-safe-need-know-watchdog-publishes-ruling-wireless-technology/
https://urgentcomm.com/2020/03/15/stop-the-presses-5g-is-safe-experts-say/
https://news.sky.com/story/is-5g-safe-for-your-health-11732308


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Q: Determine if missing session variable is due to bug or not (PHP) In my PHP app, I'm trying to differentiate between cases where an unset session variable is due to an actual bug or due to something that's not my fault (ie. the user logged out or manually typed a URL).  Obviously, I want to record bugs only.  Right now I'm recording errors for both and I can't tell which is which.
Are there some generally accepted ways of dealing with this sort of thing?  I am curious to hear how others out there have approached this situation.
Thanks, Brian

A: Set all session variables to a sane default when the session is created. If at any later point you find an unset session variable, it's a bug.
If the user logs out, that does not mean they don't have a session (or it should not mean that, if your session handling is anything like most implementations). The same goes for manually typing a URL. At some point, your app's internal framework is necessarily doing session_start() for all page views. That's a good place to inject defaults.
Injecting defaults is dead easy with the array union operator:
$defaults = array(
    'userid' => null,
    'lang'   => 'en',
);

session_start();
$_SESSION['userid'] = 42;
$_SESSION += $defaults; // will not overwrite existing values

print_r($_SESSION);

See it in action (and please ignore the warnings related to not being able to set the session cookie etc).


In Canada, mediation is increasingly used as an alternative to the traditional court system for the solution of conflicts between private parties. Being a federal state with legislative powers shared between the federation and the provinces, the legal approaches to mediation chosen by the different jurisdictions display a colourful patchwork of possible solutions for integrating mediation in the existing system of conflict resolution predominantly relying on the courts of law. The article offers a survey of the general features of mediation in Canada and offers a more in-depth analysis of some particular forms of mediation, such as the mandatory mediation under the Rules of Civil Procedure of Ontario and the médiation judiciaire as provided by the Code de procedure civile du Québec. On the one hand the report shows that mediation is used to relieve the court system from problems caused by docket congestion and, on the other hand, is supposed to offer parties a less costly alternative to court proceedings. An effect also intended by Canadian lawmakers at the federal and provincial level is to limit or reduce public spending for the court system.


Squarespace may be one of New York's better-kept secrets. The company operated largely under the radar since its founding in 2003, until Accel and Index Ventures invested $38.5 million in 2010. That was a valuation of more than $100 million. The company is up to 80 employees. Oh, and it's been profitable pretty much from the start, with users and revenues doubling each year.
Squarespace garnered palpable excitement from a crowd of 750 at last month's NY Tech Meetup, when founder Anthony Casalena demoed the much-anticipated sixth version of the service. They have a right to be excited — anyone following the company has been waiting for Squarespace 6 to launch for almost a year.
When it's officially unveiled, Casalena wants this version to be so perfect and untouchable that even the undisputed CMS leader, WordPress, will be threatened.
It is a very, very lofty goal. Recent data shows WordPress is used by almost half of the top 100 blogs in the world, an increase of 32% over last year. The next closest competitor is homebaked CMS systems (yuck), followed by Movable Type. Squarespace powers zero of the world's top 100 blogs.
In fact, the company mostly serves smaller blogs and businesses. It has tens of thousands of users, Casalena said, compared with WordPress's 73 million and Tumblr's 51 million. The key is Squarespace's users are all paying a monthly fee. Squarespace is positioned as an alternative to paying some developer $5000 to make a site.
But, especially with Squarespace 6, Casalena said the platform is ready for adoption from publishers of any size. Version five, while excellent, "wasn't a developer's dream come true because they couldn't get into all the code," he said. The new version is more open for developers. The company is completely capable of hosting high volume sites and is building out programs comparable to WordPress's support staff.
Still, he isn't going to fight for the business of the world's top blogs. "Are we going to get News Corp. onto Squarespace? No," he said. "But we could take the smaller sites or sub-sites and get them up and running really quickly." Old properties have too many legacy problems; for new properties, Squarespace is a natural fit, he said.
Aside from the open code, Squarespace 6 boasts flexibility that allows each page to adjust perfectly to the browser or device it's loaded on. The back end offers a clean and pleasant experience with social configurations, drag and drop galleries, and full analytics. And, as with version five, it's easy enough for a non-developer like myself to get up and running.


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APA Gao, Rui,Zhou, Yao,Liu, Xiangfeng,&Wang, Jiacheng.(2017).N-Doped Defective Carbon Layer Encapsulated W2C as a Multifunctional Cathode Catalyst for High Performance Li-O2Battery.Electrochimica Acta,245,430-437.
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Year 8 Girls Football
Football Fixture: Wednesday, 23rd February 2022
Year 8 Girls Football: Sawston 3 v 2 St Bede's
Congratulations to our Year 8 girls who won their first football fixture against St Bede's with a 3-2 victory! Despite a strong start from Sawston, St Bede's managed to swipe a goal in the early stages of the match. Sawston quickly dusted themselves off to gain an equaliser before the half time whistle from Libby Unwin. St Bede's quickly scored again in the second half. However, after a few tactical changes, Sawston quickly improved and went on to dominate possession. Libby Unwin scored two brilliant goals in the second half to become a hat-trick hero for the team and bring home the win. I could not have been more impressed by the attitude and level of performance of all the girls. Bea White was a rock in defence, Ines Lao-Sirieix made some match winning saves and Coco Williams did not stop running the whole match. Every one of the girls was brilliant, and we look forward to a return away fixture against St Bede's next week! Well done ladies!


HBO's drama Game of Thrones will debut its 8th and final season starting in April, the network announced in a trailer released online on Tuesday.
HBO's drama Game of Thrones will debut its 8th and final season starting in April, the network announced in a trailer released online on Tuesday. The video featured footage from previous seasons to recap the costly battles that preceded the coming showdown for control of the fictional kingdom of Westeros.
The network did not reveal a specific date for the final season's premiere. Game of Thrones has won multiple Emmy awards, is HBO's biggest hit ever with some 30 million viewers in the United States and an army of devoted fans worldwide. Several spinoffs of the series are in the works. HBO, owned by AT&T Inc, said in June that it had given a pilot order to a prequel that will take place thousands of years before the events of the current series.


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package org.omg.CORBA;

import gnu.CORBA.OrbRestricted;

import org.omg.CORBA.portable.InputStream;
import org.omg.CORBA.portable.OutputStream;

/**
 * Provides static helper methods for working with
 * {@link CompletionStatus}.
 *
 * @author Audrius Meskauskas (AudriusA@Bioinformatics.org)
 */
public abstract class CompletionStatusHelper
{
  /**
   * Extract the {@link CompletionStatus} from the
   * given {@link Any}. This implementation expects
   * the integer (Corba long) value, stating the completion
   * status.
   *
   * @param a an Any to extract the completion status from.
   *
   * @return completion status
   */
  public static CompletionStatus extract(Any a)
  {
    return CompletionStatus.from_int(a.extract_long());
  }

  /**
   * Returns the agreed Id.
   * @return IDL:omg.org/CORBA/CompletionStatus:1.0, always.
   */
  public static String id()
  {
    return "IDL:omg.org/CORBA/CompletionStatus:1.0";
  }

  /**
  * Insert into the given {@link CompletionStatus} into the
  * given {@link Any}. This implementation inserts it as an
  * integer (CORBA long).
  *
  * @param into the target Any.
  * @param that the {@link CompletionStatus} to insert.
  */
  public static void insert(Any into, CompletionStatus that)
  {
    into.insert_long(that.value());
  }

  /**
   * Reads the {@link CompletionStatus} from the CORBA input stream.
   * This implementation reads an an integer (CORBA long).
   *
   * @param input the CORBA (not java.io) stream to read from.
   * @return the value from the stream.
   */
  public static CompletionStatus read(InputStream input)
  {
    return CompletionStatus.from_int(input.read_long());
  }

  /**
   * Writes the {@link CompletionStatus} into the given stream.
   * This implementation writes an int (CORBA long), corresponding
   * the status of completion.
   *
   * @param output the CORBA (not java.io) output stream to write.
   * @param status the value that must be written.
   */
  public static void write(OutputStream output, CompletionStatus status)
  {
    output.write_long(status.value());
  }

  /**
   * Get the parameter mode typecode (enumeration, named "CompletionStatus").
   * The typecode states that the enumeration can obtain one of
   * the following values:  COMPLETED_YES ,COMPLETED_NO or COMPLETED_MAYBE .
   */
  public static TypeCode type()
  {
    String[] members =
      new String[] { "COMPLETED_YES", "COMPLETED_NO", "COMPLETED_MAYBE" };

    return
      OrbRestricted.Singleton.create_enum_tc(id(), "CompletionStatus",
                                             members
      );
  }
}


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Why cricket overshadowed other sports in India?
Cricket isn't just a game in India, yet a feeling. Each Indian is fixated on Cricket and everything related. What's more, for what reason shouldn't be Indians fixated on it, over the time it has done right by us in the whole world. Be that as it may, has this fixation of Cricket eclipsed different games in India? Let's talk about certain realities.
The Start of Cricket's Popularity
India won its first ODI cricket world cup in 1983, that was the turning point for it in the country. But before that, the great Major Dhyanchand made India proud in Hockey at a global level. This encouraged people in power to make Hockey, India's national sport, and it became people's favorite. So why did this craze for Hockey fade away? The reason is that for subsequent world cups, India didn't have a strong team and lost. Then it came in the limelight and became people's favorite.
The easiness and versatility of its rules and equipment is also a big thing that we have so much love and craze for it. The cricket bat and the ball can be made of anything temporarily. You can use anything which is a wooden flat log and use it as a bat. Then take a ball and start playing Cricket. This is as simple as that. These simple things about cricket made it famous among the deprived section of society, Hockey was still the game of elites.
Cricket's enormous success
After winning medals in Hockey, India couldn't compete with other countries in Athletics, Shooting, or Wrestling for the Olympics. But Cricket compensated for these failures and gradually dominated the sports section of the nation. Then, the commercialization of sports pushed many brands to focus on cricket. This increased the income of cricketers, which is also a big reason for youth's interest in the game.
Unlike other games, it made many legendary players after the 1983 World Cup, like Kapil Dev, Sunil Gavaskar, Mohd. Azharuddin, Navjot Singh Sidhu, etc. Who improved the quality of Indian cricket? During the 90s we got 'the God of cricket' Sachin Tendulkar who revolutionized the cricket in India. The likes Sourav Ganguly, Rahul Dravid, Yuvraj Singh, Mahendra Singh Dhoni, and Gautam Gambhir led India to the 2007 T20 World Cup.
The biggest win for India came when, in 2011, lifted the World Cup after 28 long years. We also got introduced to the player who filled Sachin Tendulkar's void in Indian cricket, Virat Kohli, and from that win, Indian cricket has progressed towards the top and became the best in the world.
The above contentions are sufficient to show why individuals love the sport of Cricket and everything related to it. In any case, it dominated different games, and steadily individuals lost enthusiasm for them. But the attitude of individuals is evolving. The legislature is additionally progressing in the direction of empowering different games. In 2019, India crushed Iran to win the Kabbadi World Cup multiple times in succession. Guardians should show their kids each game similarly and let them pick their inclinations.
Read more Cricket articles here!


The Minneapolis police officer who shot and killed an Australian woman last July is now behind bars and has been charged with third-degree murder and second-degree manslaughter.
Justine Damond was fatally shot by Officer Mohamed Noor last summer after she called 911 to report hearing a noise near her home.
Hennepin County Attorney Mike Freeman planned a Tuesday afternoon news conference to discuss the charges.
If convicted of third-degree murder, he could face a maximum of 25 years in prison, though the presumptive sentence is 12 ½ years. A judge could issue a sentence ranging from about 10 ½ to 15 years. The second-degree manslaughter charge carries a maximum sentence of 10 years in prison, but the presumptive sentence is four years, the Chicago Tribune reports.


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Mexico '68: A Movement, A Massacre, and the 40-Year Search for the Truth
Part of the Audio History Project Series
In the summer of 1968, students in Mexico began to challenge the country's authoritarian government. But the movement was short-lived, lasting less than three months. It ended October 2, 1968, ten days before the opening of the Olympics in Mexico City, when military troops opened fire on a peaceful student demonstration. The shooting lasted over two hours. The next day the government sent in cleaners to wash the blood from the plaza floor. The official announcement was that four students were dead, but eyewitnesses said hundreds were killed. The death toll was not the only thing the government covered up.
The Massacre of Tlatelolco has become a defining moment in Mexican history, but for forty years the truth of that day has remained hidden.
March of the Bonus Army
In 1932, 20,000 WWI veterans set up a tent city in Washington. They called themselves the Bonus Army.
Remembering Olivia Hooker
Olivia Hooker was the last surviving witness to the Tulsa Race Riot of 1921.


I was adopted from Medellin, Colombia to Sweden in 1985. I was about a year and a half when I started my life as an adoptee, and it would take 32 years until I was ready to face what that means, what that has always meant, and what that will always mean.
In addition to My Adoption Story, Fellow Adoptees Stories and Writings, and My Writings here comes a new feature I call COMMUNITY – Where to find us!
My dream is a network that spans across the globe, of adoptees coming together and finding individual strength and validation in the wider community of fellow adoptees.
With that in mind, I am compiling a list of adoptee centered resources. Here you will find websites, blogs, vlogs, books, articles, movies, projects, social media accounts and more, with the common feature of raising awareness around the experience of adoption – from the adoptee perspective.
There will be 5 new additions every week, making it easy for you to check each of them out! Please, feel free to connect with me if you want to be featured, or if you have suggestions that you think belong on the list!
This is the book by put together by Elena S. Hall, which is a collection of memoirs of 50 adoptees. Elena is a passionate adoption advocate, an adoptee herself, sharing her own and fellow adoptees stories through this book.
Meag Hudson is the adoptee behind the blog This Adoptee Journey. You can find her via this link and read her story on the blog and follow her on Instagram.
Isabella Ojeda is a transracial adoptee and the force behind this blog. She is a strong voice, raising awareness around adoption.
My cousin, Leticia Mendez is a transnational adoptee, born in Colombia, adopted to and raised in the US. Her blog has a focus on the reunion part of an adoptees life, and the "after reunion" that can prove another emotional and mental mine-field for the adoptee.
Adoption Reunion Search & Support is a group of volunteers coming together, offering their knowledge and support, assistance with searching, and raising the adoptee's voice to advocate for change. They started the hashtag #adopteerightsmatter.
Please, check the full list here: COMMUNITY – Where to find us!
Francie Frisbie, an adoptee herself, hosts this podcast where adoption is the topic. She invites adoptees, but also others who are connected to adoption.
Julien, an adoptee herself, writes about adoption and has released a memoir where she shares her own story. She has even shared part of her story here on this blog.
Astric Castro, an adoptee herself, offers adoption education, support resources, and works to build bridges within the adoption constellation community.
This is a project being put together by an adult adoptee, and will result in a book where adoptee voices are heard, and with the aim to call for adoption reform while debunking adoption mythology.
This is an Instagram profile designed to amplify adoptee voices through reposts and original content. Our reposts include tags so you can find and follow the source.
Please, check back as this list will grow longer every week!
When I was born, my birth mother gave me a name: Gabriella Diaz. The women who adopted me chose a new name for me when I was placed in their arms: Doriana Markovitz. The change of a child's name is common in adoptions. In the last year, I legally changed my name to Doriana Gabrielle Diaz, to reclaim the name my birth mother chose for me, to reclaim my heritage, and to reclaim Puerto Rico as my place of origin. Knowing your own name is power. It is being able to look at a map and point to the place on earth your people originated from. I have identified myself by newly connecting my name to the woman who birthed me. In this process, I have begun to redefine myself and my place in the world as an adopted person.
her throat like a quilt.
She smiles into my eyes.
known me as anything else.
Not many people discuss adoption. Adoptees rarely do in public, adopted parents keep it to themselves, and birth mothers and fathers often times suppress their stories and pretend it didn't happen. I was in that silent place, I am not any longer. That is why I am here to tell you how I made it out of the fog and began to process my adoption story. It is important to note that this process looks and feels different for every adopted person. I am speaking only from the "I" perspective. My adoption story is mine and no one else's. I am not here to speak for all adoptees, or to speak for all transracial adoptees. I am here only to speak my own truth.
In this story, I will outline my process, reflections and self-discovery starting from childhood to my recent reunion with my birth mother and birth family in Puerto Rico. Throughout this story, I will also be reading poems from my book to further my explanations.
I was raised by many mothers, many women have poured themselves into me. I am the product of the multi-dimensionality of womanhood. I have only ever known the struggle and hardship, while also the joy and power that women can offer to one another and their children. But I am also motherless because there is a woman out there who I did not know, but whose body was my first home. I knew this from the time I could understand that the women who adopted me did not look like me. Their skin does not look like mine, their hair does not feel like mine, and their bodies are not shaped like mine. Even though I knew this, I felt safe inside that truth.
When I was a child, my parents tried to explain my adoption to me. When they tried the first time, I didn't get it. I was maybe four or five. When they explained it again, I didn't want to understand. I might have been nine or ten. The more they tried to tell me, the less I wanted to know.
Now I understand there is not a moment when I'm not an adoptee. When I buy groceries, I am an adoptee. When I go to the doctor, I am an adoptee. I hug my sisters as an adoptee, I brush my teeth as an adoptee. I cannot choose not to be an adoptee. There is no end to it, just like there is no end to being someone's child.
My birth mother was my first love and my first heartbreak. I was born and then I was surrendered and throughout my life, I have been in pain. When I met her I thought my story would change. I thought the loss I carry would disappear. My trip to Puerto Rico did not change that. But it did teach me that the hole that was left inside me from the separation is where my power resides, and that power is strong and unwavering. It cannot be broken and it cannot be tamed.
I am a miracle child.
I don't know these mountains.
I don't know the ways they bend and fold into the sun.
I don't know the language they speak here.
I don't know how to curl my tongue to make the smooth melodies.
I don't know how to eat a guava, every time I try, the seeds end up in the crevices between my teeth.
I don't know the sound of the tropical breeze, the whistling is unfamiliar to me.
I don't know hours of skipping barefoot in acres of lush vegetation.
I don' t know passionfruit or morning glory.
I don't know about the breaks in Leo's fence and the shortcuts through the woods that lead to the next barrio.
I don't know the sound of light falling between my legs.
I don't know Javier, his shirt always stained yellow with sweat, who lives next-door with three dogs and no wife or children.
I know nothing of this place, and yet, I am still here pretending to know.
I got on the plane back to the states unaware of how to exist as the woman I was when I landed on the island a week prior. I know now that I am my birth mother's daughter. As an adoptee, I know about what it means to mourn more than most do. I mourn the girl I could have been, I mourn my missing mother, and I mourn the life I'll never live. There's no way to become who I would have been if I hadn't been adopted. Puerto Rico does not belong to me in the ways that it could or in the ways I wish it did, but it offered me transformative experiences that I will hold in my heart for the rest of my life.
orange flowers covering the sky.
I am native to nowhere, no place, and no person. I am only native to this skin that contains me, these bones that hold me up, these hands, these feet, and this mind that never rests. I am native to this heart.
On July 19th, 1998 I was born into a decision in which I had no choice. But today, and every day moving forward I have a choice.
I choose to love despite the fear.
I choose to own my life.
I chose to face my grief, to process it, and to learn how to live with all that I have lost.
I choose to be the answers to my own prayers.
I choose which places I can call home.
I choose to heal myself on my own terms and at my own pace.
I choose to claim those ancestors who chose not to claim me.
I choose how to love myself.
I choose to speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are not.
I choose the name I use.
I choose who to share myself with.
I choose to fight for children to know their mothers and fathers.
Doriana Gabrielle Diaz is a transracial adoptee, poet, self-published writer, and artist.
Today I share my adoption story with you in an episode of the podcast "Adoption Advocacy Podcast" with host and fellow adoptee Francie Frisbie.
I found Francie and her podcast as she was getting ready to launch at the beginning of the year. In a post on Instagram, she invited people who have been touched by adoption, to be a guest on her show, and talk adoption with her.
I reached out and a few weeks ago we recorded our conversation around adoption, coming out of the fog and the contradiction it can be to live as an adoptee.
So far, her guests have included fellow adult adoptees, sharing their story and experience, a prospective adoptive parent who have realized the importance in fighting for family preservation and ethical practices in adoption, and her own sister, biological daughter to their parents.
I was so very nervous before recording this podcast episode I almost canceled the whole thing. I am happy to say I did not, and today it is out for you all to listen to!
Please, have a listen and don't hesitate to reach out to connect or let me know your thoughts or questions.
And please, make sure to follow this podcast, as it is yet another great resource in the adoptee community.
All my love to all of you!
I WAS NOT PLANNING ON BEING AWAY FOR THIS LONG when I wrote my short post before the holidays saying I was going to focus on family and myself for a little while. Truth is, I have tried to get back, tried to write again but have not been able to. Every time I have sat down I have been triggered to the point of having to leave it alone.
As if the experience of being involved in the adoptee community, constantly talking about adoption, constantly thinking about adoption, constantly feeling the adoption was so overwhelming in itself that it became too much to handle for me. It started eating me from the inside. Emotions I had pushed aside my whole life made their way to the surface and most days there was nothing else to do but to cry.
I am starting to feel better again, and hope that in terms of coming out of the fog the last two months were the culmination. I had several breakdowns, a huge amount of anxiety and there were more tears than I can recall. I have never felt broken before, but during this time I did.
This was a facebook post of mine on April 23, 2018. I was about halfway through the process and experience of coming out of the fog. My view on adoption had shifted, my own and in general. I was becoming more and more aware of the problems with adoption, the industry of adoption and the real effects of adoption on the people who it affected the most; the adoptees.
As I have mentioned before, once I started coming out of the fog I essentially went through the stages of grief. It took me a while to realize that I was going through grieving. Once I understood that my emotions and my state of mind were those of a person who is grieving the next question became, what was I grieving? Was I grieving the mother I knew nothing about? The life I didn't get to have? The family I didn't get to know? The person I didn't become?
It was difficult to think of the things I had lost, although I had barely had them in the first place.
But what became even harder was what came after. Coming out of the fog didn't only mean shifting my view on my adoption, on my life. All the insights that came with the process, with reading and informing myself, and realizing how so much of my own behavior, my own decisions, and even how my life had played out was all through the lens of adoption and separation were heartbreaking to deal with.
But the most difficult part of coming out of the fog, of the grieving that followed, was not the insights, not even the loss of the things I've mentioned so far, but the feeling of having lost MYSELF. I was no longer the person I had been before coming out of the fog, the person I had built myself up to be, the person I had shaped myself into being, the person I felt really proud of being and who I had learned to love.
Coming out of the fog I lost her. I was not prepared to grieve the loss of myself.
I felt like a shell, like an empty body, and I had no idea how to handle that.
One of the things I am more afraid of than anything is the risk of giving in to breaking down. I don't know if there is any coming back from that if there is a way to put myself back together if I do that. So I don't cry in front of people. It's a way for me to still keep my emotions in check.
"I have a hard outer shell.
I'm tough, can even be intimidating.
I don't know how many times I've heard that.
People who meet me for the first time tell me, some right away, some later.
I can crack a joke and laugh loudest in the room in any given social setting.
I easily put myself in the center of attention.
She's such a happy person.
She's such a confident person.
I only cry behind locked doors, by myself.
dragging the makeup down along with them.
I hold my hand over my chest to counterbalance the pressure and pain of crying quietly, of wanting to scream but not being able to, and of wanting to kick and hit the wall, the door, anything to release the feelings and let them go, but not being able to.
Then I stand in front of the mirror.
I look deep in my red puffy eyes.
Look long and hard at myself.
Tell myself I got this.
But I'm not broken yet.
hoping I waited long enough after the last tear fell, to be able to meet peoples' eyes without them knowing I had even a single tear fall.
And I put that smile back on my face.
More than an actual depiction of a situation or event, it is also a representation of a life-long fear of crying in front of people, holding all the emotions in and never ever wanting to show any weakness to the world around me, that I have lived with for as long as I can remember. My role in the family was that of a compliant adoptee. Not because I was told, not because I was made to take that part, but because of how my first year and a half of life had affected me. All the understanding and insight that has come with being able to look back through a new lens and realize that so much of my seemingly illogical behavior and decisions at times, had the most logical explanation of all, in the trauma of separation and subsequent adoption, and life as a transnational transracial adoptee gives me hope.
I thank you from the bottom of my heart, for spending this time with me, reading my story.
If you would like to share your story, I would love to connect with you and help you share it here alongside mine.
Own your story, share your story, write your story.
All my love to all of you.
and the new one to come!!!
Already, I have some new exciting stuff lined up for this blog, for my involvement and plans within the adoptee community and for myself and my family at the start of the new year!!!
I cannot THANK YOU enough, each and everyone who has read, liked, shared, tagged, or in way spent time with me these past few months since I launched this blog.
As the holidays are approaching and this year is coming to an end, I will be focusing on my DAUGHTERS, my FAMILY, and MYSELF.
PS. We are all in this together!!!!
I was born in Medellin, Colombia in 1990. Growing up, I was told my mother was young and couldn't afford to take care of me "mas o menos" (more or less). Looking back, I realize the story may have been fabricated over time. The story goes that when the orphanage was translating all my paperwork, my adoptive parents were holding me and were so excited that they were barely paying attention. (Also, that it was just so long ago) In short, I was told my first mum may have been from the mountains due to her poor writing and that she left me on the doorstep of the orphanage with a letter. Prior to my adoption my adoptive parents were on an adoption waiting list for about 10 years. In 1987 they adopted their first child, a boy, from a nearby city in the US.
On September 29, 1990 they received my photo and "brief" information. In a note, the director of my orphanage asked my adoptive parents to make their travel arrangements since they would have to make two trips and the adoption would be finalized there, in Colombia.I was healthy and a newborn, so they were very interested and within weeks, my parents and brother flew to Colombia to visit me for about a week.
When I was six and a half months old, I flew with my adoptive parents from Medellin to Detroit. The story is deeply ingrained in my mind. The date was February 14th, there was a blizzard and we had to fly around the area for hours waiting to land. My entire extended family on my adoptive mother's side was there waiting to meet me. And so my "Gotcha Day" was always noted on February 15th due to the Valentine's Day Blizzard. Oddly enough, life-changing things occur for me surrounding this date.
Fast forward 27 years. My adoptive brother begins wondering about his natural family and tells me he has asked our mom for all of his adoption records. It hits me that I have never done this and I do the same. For the first time ever, I saw my natural mother's name as well as her mother's name. I had seen my paperwork plenty of times… Whenever someone important needed my proof of citizenship we went into my files to copy my Naturalization certificate. But it never appeared as big as it does today. I'm pretty sure my adoptive mom kept the majority of it safe at her mother's house. My grandmother passed away in 2014 and so it was all back in adoptive mother's possession. I will never forget that night when I saw my paperwork or the day after. I was so angry with my adoptive mom. I really felt betrayed and lied to. I quickly hopped on google and searched my first mother's name. I found her – her email and her phone number! The next day the world around me couldn't stop spinning… I had never experienced anything like it before. I still don't know how I made it through that day, but I did. A week later I decided to email my first mother. A few days went by and no response. I had found her work email and emailed that one as well. The next day she responded from her personal email. I could barely believe it. Her responses were quick, short, and mostly cold. And I would soon learn how afraid she is of the world knowing of my existence and relation to her.


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Maucourt is the name or part of the name of the following communes in France:

 Maucourt, Oise, in the Oise department
 Maucourt, Somme, in the Somme department
 Maucourt-sur-Orne, in the Meuse department


A festive favourite, the Apple Candy Cane brings back childhood memories of hanging the odd candy cane on the Christmas Tree.
A festive favourite, the Apple Candy Cane brings back childhood memories of hanging the odd candy cane on the Christmas Tree (and sneaking one to eat). A sweet addition to any entertaining space, just be careful not to have this alight in the kitchen or you'll be looking for the sugary treats.