 What is the first mate trying to express when he says "You all want me ta die uv old age"?
I "I don't see why we have to be here," a crewman said. An' iffen I aims ta talk...." The crewman to his left bent over and whispered, "I'll bet he's gonna tell us it's gonna be another postponement." He's th' one that's a-keepin' us all from our Reward, an' I jest hope he does heyar me, so he'll know I'm a-gittin' mighty tyird uv waitin'." Nestir, the priest, was dressed out in the full ceremonial costume of office. And then, more loudly, "Men!" Then he blessed them and took out His knife and lay open their sores. Calex i pundendem hoy , my children. 'Secrecy makes for a long life,' as it says in the Jarcon ." And the day is not very far distant," said Nestir. You are thinking: 'What a fine thing—ah, what a good thing, that is—ah, how nice it would be to have the Casting Off at home, among friends.'" And you know that Koltah never let any city state outdo her in a Festival, uh-huh. "The arena in Koltah is the greatest arena in the whole system. "Well, the point I want to make is this: I just wanted to tell you that I know what a Festival should be, and the captain and I will do everything in our power to make our Casting Off as wonderful as any anywhere. I want you to be proud of this Casting Off Festival, so you can look back on it and say, uh, uh—this day was the real high point of your whole life!" While they were still cheering and stomping and otherwise expressing their enthusiasm and approval, Nestir walked off the speaker's platform and into the officer's corridor. The steward ordered the holiday feast prepared in celebration of Nestir's announcement. He nodded curtly to the officers when he entered the mess hall, walked directly to his place at the head of the table, sat down and morosely began to work the cork out of his wine bottle with his teeth. "You'll spoil the flavor, shaking it that way," the third mate cautioned. When the third mate saw that his opinion on the wine was not immediately to be justified, he settled back in his chair with a little sigh of disapproval. Nestir picked up his knife and fork and cut off a piece of meat.
 If he dies of old age, that means he will not be rewarded when he passes
 He's grumbling because he hates his job and knows he doesn't want to do it forever  Only the most important members of the society die of old age and he does not want that responsibility  If he dies of old age, that means he will not be rewarded when he passes  If he dies of old age, that means he'll be around without a lot of his friends, and he doesn't want that