 How is Mary feeling at the beginning of the story?
Transcriber's Note: This etext was produced from Astounding Science Fiction December 1955. Extensive research did not uncover any evidence that the U.S. copyright on this publication was renewed. He came to her and touched his hands to her soft blond hair, raising her face until she was looking into his eyes. Yes, I'm sure you did," she said, finishing the ritual; but her voice broke, and she turned her head away. "It isn't going to be bad. We know exactly how it will be. If anything could go wrong, they wouldn't be sending me; you know that. I told you that we've sent five un-manned ships up and everyone came back without a hitch." "Mary, you know I can't back out now. Nothing would ever be right with me again if I didn't go. "I've got to get started, Mary. I won't be here because I won't be the wife of a space pilot for the rest of my life. No matter how much I love you, I just couldn't take that, Phil. "I wish you had told me this a long time ago, Mary," Phil said. "Yes, you did. I told you I could never be the wife of a space pilot. But I don't think I ever really believed it was possible—not until this morning when you said tonight was the take-off. "It isn't a dream.
 She is desperate for Phil not to leave.
 She is desperate for Phil not to leave.  She is angry at Phil for not taking her seriously.  She is frustrated with Phil for not letting Sammy replace him.  She is depressed because she thinks she is going to lose Phil forever.