 What realization do you think Wayne might have had after his journey?
"Thanks, sarge dear," Wayne said and took the elevator up to the Armory. He checked them on a receipt ledger, while Wayne examined the weapons, broke open the revolver, twirled the cylinder and pushed cartridges into the waiting chamber. A copcar stopped Wayne as he started over the bridge, out of bright respectable neon into the murky westside slum over the river. Wayne waved the pass card, signed by Captain Jack, under the cop's quivering nose. Wayne's fearful exhilaration increased as he cruised with bated breath through the dark mazes of streets and rickety tenements crawling with the shadows of mysterious promise. His bearded face in dim breaking moonlight had a dirty, greenish tinge as he sensed Wayne there.
 He realized he did not have the emotional strength he thought he had to complete the mission.
 He realized he did not have the emotional strength he thought he had to complete the mission.  He realized that Captain Jack had set him up to make him regret the draft call.  He realized that his parents are to blame for his weaknesses.  He realized that he was emotionally strong enough for the mission, but it was still too gruesome for him.