You seem to be struggling with your identity. That is common with people your age. The developmental psychologist Erik Erickson calls this phase identity versus identity confusion. It’s the time in someone’s life when they are attempting to find out who they are and what they believe. It is a time of becoming emotionally and psychologically independent, parting your identity from that of your parents and peers.
Developmentally, your experiences seem fairly normal with one exception. Your tendency to want to isolate could indicate depression.
You should discuss your symptoms with a mental health professional. Though everyone experiences these life stages, they’re not always easy. In fact, they’re often confusing and frustrating.
You would feel better if you had the guidance of a trained mental health professional to assist you in understanding your feelings. Many people enter counseling with similar problems. Why not utilize the assistance of professionals trained to deal with the very problems with which you are struggling? It would seem wise to get some counseling. It could really help you to feel better. Please take care.
– Dr. Kristina Randle