don’t forget when you were seven and you stood in the lunch queue at school, staring at the largest slice of pizza and hoping the dinner lady gave it to you.
when the lady behind the counter gives you the thickest cookie, or your auntie gives you the most custard- breathe. don’t let the anger rush through you so impulsively: it’s a reflex your eating disorder has built.
mind’s that are not poisoned from an eating disorder don’t see things in this way; something you’ve probably forgotten entirely under the hypnotism of an eating disorder.
when people give you the largest slice, or the cake with the most icing- they’re most likely entirely unaware of it, or maybe even trying to be generous, considering most people would be delighted.
normal minds lack the reflex of poison that links such minor details into a passionate feeling of hatred and anger- no regular person would even make a link between the appearance and shape of the food they give to each person.
Yesterday I found myself panicking, feeling frustration and loathing a stranger. but all it took was a breath to overpower that reflex. they were just serving food. I was just a customer. any other person would’ve been delighted by the words “on the house”.
- the disorder builds a frame in us that we are often not even aware of.
11 1958 hours ago
You may or may not have heard, but this week it was announced that anorexia is NOT just a psychiatric condition! 👏🏻
A six year long study compared the DNA of nearly 17,000 people with anorexia and more than 55,000 healthy controls.
It revealed 8 genes that linked anorexia to anxiety, depression and obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD), as expected. But it also showed DNA involved in burning fat, being physically active and having resistance to type 2 diabetes, which aren’t seen in any other psychiatric disorder. These metabolic correlations may seem healthy, but when combined with genes linked to psychiatric issues they raise the risk of anorexia. Suggesting a predisposition to anorexia is likely coded in our genetics and it’s development is attributed to environmental factors.
This is a HUGE discovery!!! Because it’s basically proven that anorexia and possibly other eating disorders aren’t purely mental illnesses 💪🏻💜
Family environment has thought to be a major influence of anorexia, as perfectionism is often blamed as a leading cause of the illness. But this study seemed to underpin the theory that whilst we think perfectionism causes anorexia, it’s more likely that the genetic tendency towards anorexia causes increased perfectionism. Which I thought was mindblowing!! .
These findings send a message, on global scale, that eating disorders may not be solely psychiatric or psychological condition. And with this hopefully society will shift where they appoint blame - away from the individuals will the illness, suggesting it as personal or something. they can simply “snap out of”. But we can now exhale away some of the guilt because our illness isn’t our fault and the science says so. Your condition is #notjustmental and we are #notjustmental !! (lil hashtag I made up haha)
I also really look forward of how they can use these findings about the origins of anorexia in creating more novel approaches to diagnosis and treatment 🙏🏻 The future is an exciting place that I am excited to continue advocating mental health through 💜
EDIT: I apologise for including a picture of myself in a second upload. I was unnecessary and I apologise. I have since removed it x
64 69211 hours ago
cause it's never to late for a breakfast post😊💕 (especially when it's porridge with fruits and almond butter)
Yes recovery is messy in the beginning. It's completely darkness. You're in a constantly war with your body. You want to quit everything and go back. But you can't! You won't! Because even when it's hard you've changed. You've already reached so much. Underneath the breath you are new. You've woken up. You're a way stronger now and deep in your inside you know what's right. You know everything will get worse when you give up again.
Yes it's a long process but quitting won't speed it up🍃
Sizde de bele olub ? Gelin Analarmizin bize bu gozel hisleri yawadiqlari ucun twk edek Var olsunlar ve indiki analarada xaiw edeki o hissleri bu genc nesilde yawasinki bize gelib catsinlar ❤️🤘 #ana#azerbaycan#baku#hababansınıfı
164 3,48910 hours ago
This makes never fails to make me HAPPY! Boosting my serotonin the natural way 🌞🌈🌱
So are there ways to increase serotonin in your brain without medication? I was curious about this today so decided to check the research.
A study in 2007 induced different moods in a group of healthy participants, then measured serotonin synthesis in their brains. They found happiness positive correlated to more serotonin production and that thoughts can alter brain metabolism. Changing an individual’s thoughts doesn’t have to be an invasive science experiment though, because this is basically the concept of psychotherapy. Practises such as mindfulness and meditation are also recommended to change outward perspective 🧘🏻♀️
Something else really interesting is that apparently bright light can increase serotonin. A study in 2002 showed a link between serotonin synthesis and hours of sunlight exposure independent of season. Meaning that simply getting outside can help boost mood ☀️
And of course, exercise. A comprehensive study in 2001 showed an antidepressant effect of exercising, which was beneficial to those who didn’t experience clinical depression. Exercise seems to also enhance serotonin function in the brain, with the suggestion that fatigue during exercise is associated with elevated brain serotonin synthesis 🤸🏻♂️
A cool link that both these display is that there’s been a large shift in the light exposure and physical activity of humans since hunter gather times, which likely attributes to the rising levels of depression in today’s society.
Surprisingly the thing I went look for, diet, didn’t have much evidence. Tryptophan, which increase serotonin in humans, has shown to be an effective antidepressant, but foods that contain it or serotonin don’t directly increase brain serotonin levels since they cannot cross the blood-brain barrier. But bare in mind this is all in relation to directly increasing serotonin levels, where other foods and nutrients might indirectly support serotonin production! More research needs to be done on this though.
Anyway, sorry to go all #science on you all! Just my weird nerdiness 😆 Hope you all have a HAPPY day!! 💛💫
18 94117 July, 2019
Sometimes it’s necessary to leave the past behind to start living your life again. ✨ ⠀
This morning I had an appointment at the dentist which was definitely one of the hardest things for me (already talked about it in my story). Around six years ago I lost half of my front tooth due to a horrible experience. I’m not ready to talk about it yet but I guess some day I’ll open up about it. Since this day I’m having a so called “transitional prosthesis” which makes my tooth stable but it looks horrible. So many people asked me what happened that I stopped smiling in public. Every day when I look in the mirror my tooth reminds me of what happened six years ago. But I never called the dentist. Don’t ask me why, on the one hand I really never wanted to see this tooth like this again but I just couldn’t cope with everything, with the thoughts, the situation. It was kind of a suppression method to just not think about it and to accept it. But I started talking about this with my therapist and she said that my tooth stops me from going forward. Yes this sounds totally weird but I guess she’s right. It reminds me everyday of how weak I was and gives me the feeling of being worthless. ⠀
This is gonna end NOW. Next Friday this prosthesis will get down and my dentist will grind down the tooth. One week later I will get a crown and nothing will ever remind me again of what happened. Yes it happened, but I don’t want it to be a part of me anymore. ⠀
Puhhh this was probably one of the hardest posts I’ve ever made, I would be so so thankful if you would leave a comment ❤❤ #ana#anasoldier#anarecovery#anawho#beatana#anorexia#anorexianervosa#ed#edfree#edfam#edsoldier#edrecovery#edarmy#eatingdisorderrecovery#eatingdisorder#recoverycanbe#strongnotskinny#recoveryisworth#healthy#recoveryispossible#healthynotskinny#weightgain#eatforhealth#prorecovery#feedfightfreedom#staystrong#boobsnotbones
28 46412 July, 2019
🌸We grow fearless by walking in our fears 🌸⠀
Such a beautiful and important quote and so so freaking true. And yes, I know that we have to face our fears to make them disappear but right now everything i feel is fear. Everything I want is to call the dentist and cancel the appointment tomorrow. I’m afraid. So freaking afraid. ⠀
My fear comes from many different things... at first it’s so hard for me to be in contact with this traumatic things that happened to me and which are the reason for my little tooth operation tomorrow. I’m quite moody and sad the whole day because it’s a lot for me to have these thoughts about my trauma in my head permanently... ⠀
On top of that I’m SO INCREDIBLY AFRAID of the operation itself. I have the biggest phobia of needles EVER and I will get an anesthesia with an injection and I just want to die when i think about it ... ⠀
I’m also afraid of the time after it. I will get a temporary crown for one week until the real crown is ready and I definitely won’t be able to eat everything with this transitional prosthesis. I think I will be able to chew but not to bite which means no or less veggies and fruit... I know it’s just for one week but it freaks me out that I can’t have my usual eating routine for this week. ⠀
I just don’t want to go there tomorrow, atm I just regret my bravery last week and that I made this appointment... #ana#anasoldier#anarecovery#anawho#beatana#anorexia#anorexianervosa#ed#edfree#edfam#edsoldier#edrecovery#edarmy#eatingdisorderrecovery#eatingdisorder#recoverycanbe#strongnotskinny#recoveryisworth#healthy#recoveryispossible#healthynotskinny#weightgain#eatforhealth#prorecovery#feedfightfreedom#staystrong#boobsnotbones
14 27818 July, 2019
As part of my journey, I’ve begun touching into my #spiritual side 🔮🙏🏻✨
For years I was against any therapies that weren’t pure science or able to be proven with evidence for reasons such as my ego, thinking I was intelligent enough to know better than to believe in magic or “witch craft”.
But I’ve come to see that this thinking kept me within a very rigid frame of mind. It made me immediately skeptical of anything that couldn’t be seen or explained, where my negative assumptions cut me off from opportunities to discover new or alternative paths.
I’ve learnt since then that making critical judgement without first taking the time to explore the rationale behind something demonstrates small-mindedness. That instead of my harsh skepticism towards “the supernatural” making me seem smart and educated, it actually made me look more ignorant and petty.
This year I have developed a passion for exploring the metaphysical. I have interests in tarot, crystals, reiki, astrology, numerology and sacred geometry. I have began incorporating different healing practises into my lifestyle such as acupuncture, yoga, chakra balancing, mandala mediation, sound cleansing and aromatherapy. I feel more at one with myself and like I’m slowing discovering who I truly am more and more 💫
Anyone following @korz.i.can knows I have a passion for sharing spiritual messages, as I’ve used this account to discover the incredible spiritual community of Instagram. I’ve tagged some of my favourite accounts and healers if you’re interested in giving yourself the chance to delve into a different perspective of healing 🕉
Das da oben war Hähnchenbrust mit Ebly, Estragonsauce und Erbsen-Karottengemüse. Als Nachtisch gab es Mandarinenquark🍂
Btw Ich glaub ich poste die ganzen Bilder aus der Klinik einfach noch, weil ich nicht schon wieder meinen Feed ändern möchte. Ich hoffe, das stört euch nicht🙈
Soo und jetzt zu meinem heutigen Tag: Es war Mega Mega schön mit meinem Opa und ich konnte jede Minute vollkommen genießen. Das Wetter war echt gut und wir haben den ganzen Tag in Frankfurt verbracht. Wir waren am Mittag im Frankfurter Hof essen (2.+3.Bild) und das Essen war einfach nur Mega (Argentinisches Rinderfilet und Grillgemüse)🤤
Ungelogen mein Gericht hat so viel gekostet, wie ich in der Woche für mein Ganzes Essen bekomme ups. Aber ich hab’s genossen, einmal nicht drüber nachdenken zu müssen und Btw essen fällt mir mit meinem Opa zusammen tausendmal leichter🙏🏼
Danach sind wir noch durch Frankfurt gelaufen und wir waren auch noch bei Abercrombie, wo ich mir drei Teile ausgesucht habe. Ich bin ihm klar auch dankbar für die materiellen Dinge, aber vielmehr einfach dafür, dass er mich zum Lachen bringt und ich mit ihm so unfassbar gut reden kann. Ich fühle mich einfach Geborgen bei ihm und ich fühle mich frei. Deshalb haben wir uns für nächste Woche direkt nochmal verabredet und da kommt dann auch mein Papa wieder mit😍
Den Rest des Tages war ich eigtl nurnoch draußen und morgen geh ich wieder mit meiner besten Freundin trainieren uii❤️
Ich hoffe euch geht es soweit gut und ich wünsche euch noch einen wunderschönen Abend💫
1,5RM Gabelspaghetti Amalfi mit Champignons, Tomatensugo und Parmesan, dazu Salat und als Nachtisch Mohnquark
Mir geht es immer noch nicht gut und ich weiß einfach nicht mehr weiter. Ich fühle mich alleine und mir ist alles zu viel..
Ich werde jetzt keinen langen Text schreiben, ich hoffe ihr versteht das.
NEW TEA 😍🙌🏼 a completely new homemade soup, I’ve only ever had tomato before but not this time I made cream of asparagus soup 😋 honestly it was so much nicer than I thought it would be (even if making it did stress me the fuck out 😂), might have to be a new one on the rota. Also had it with two slices of thick bread 🙌🏼 ———
I do want to start cooking a bit more again, I stopped because I found it too stressful and I found it would put me off eating, but I’ll like to start doing a bit more even if it’s something as simple as making soup sometimes 👍🏼
You reading this right now.
I wish I could just come and take all your pain away.
Hide it from you. Steal it. Take it all off your shoulder.
The doubts, the hate, the anxiety.
And I wish I could just come and make you forget all the times you’ve been hurt, criticized, disappointed.
You deserve so much better and that’s why you gotta be inspired by all of these bad experiences.
And I wish I could just come and let you see yourself through my eyes. Just once. To let you see your worth and all your beauty.
To make you feel as loved as you really are. To make you believe that there is nothing wrong with not being perfect🌹
Here’s the trouble; that you think skinny is good. Sure, it’s good for now, but the rush of weight-loss is very addictive, and will be nearly impossible to resist. It’s impossible to maintain an underweight weigh that’s unnatural for your body, and be simultaneously recovered. (I tried to be “recovered” when I was underweight for a very long time. It just doesn’t work like that.) If you are having to count calories and/or exercise to “keep your weight down”, then the weight that you are at is simply not right for your body, and this is something you’ll have to accept. Not accepting this will only lead to more intense body hate, low self-steen and ultimately, an eating disorder. 🌹
Landed in Tokyo after a smooth flight with @allnipponairways_official ☺️ Most of you guessed right after all! I did catch up with some sleep as you guys prefer 😃 I prefer aisle seats depending on my flight companion, as compared to the people that prefer window seats😊
I love the fact you can take 2 pieces of luggages when you #flyANA - 32 kg each for business class and 23 kg each for economy class - very convenient for those who stays in big cities!
Friendly and super attentive flight attendants and Japanese food are big bonus too☺️
. #allniponairways #sassychris1#sassychris1japan
Por isso, Sorria para a vida com gratidão🙏🏻
Tudo faz parte da promessa de Deus
O sim, o não, o sempre, o nunca
São impulsos para o novo dia
Com novas oportunidades
Por isso , seja grato sempre.
Pois quanto mais você agradece, mais você recebe🙏🏻 GRATIDÃO A DEUS
Por todas as bênçãos
Por toda paciência
Por todo cuidado
Por todo amor ✨