Know that you did everything that you could. Don't feel guilty. He might've had cardiac issues that resulted in cardiac arrest. Likewise, things such as OD cannot be ruled out either.When I was a resident, events like this often triggered me to have a meltdown. I'd feel guilty. Why couldn't I have saved that man or woman during that code blue? At the end of the day, we have to realize that death is a part of life. Of course, I learned this over time as a young doctor. Sometimes we cannot resuscitate an individual no matter how hard we try even if there is a crash cart with all the emergency supplies right next to us.
That's totally how I felt reading this. OP, you did amazing. I knocked myself out at work last year and all people could do was run around screaming. You were nervous but composed and did an amazing thing keeping him as best as you could until the paramedics arrived.OP, I am really proud of you, not only for your quick action but also for your caring. We can't save everyone but the people who try make me proud to be human.