Based on what God has shared with you, it's possible that you have compulsive disorder: compulsive thinking and compulsive mental illness that can interfere with your daily life. It's good to get a proper diagnosis and get professional help to start a treatment plan. There are various options that can help you manage your symptoms and improve your overall quality of life.
Sir, I think I'm feeling so depressed and mentally disturbed these days, and I have a lot of hysterical behavior, and I feel anxious and depressed all the time, and I don't think I've been growing spiritually or emotionally for a while.