One suggestion I have is for your to start keeping a list of the symptoms you have when you have anxiety/panic, and also checking out descriptions of anxiety symptoms from REPUTABLE medical websites like WebMD, MDConsult, Stanford Health, Massachusetts General Hospital, Johns Hopkins Health, etc, and generate a master list. When you have a new symptom, check it against the master list to see if it's considered a common anxiety symptom, and if it isn't THEN go get a medical workup.You can do a Google search for online CBT classes (be aware these are not usually Free, and if they are, there's usually a catch). Here are a few with good reputations:https://cbtonline.com/https://www.beatingtheblues.co.uk/private-patients/https://cogbtherapy.com/free-online-cbt-workbook (this is free, no catch, but very basic)
This is... An incredibly well thought out and insightful comment :')Yeah the chewing the food part was definitely my own fault, even my parents point out I eat way too fast and it's always been a terrible habit to break out of, something in my brain, whenever I try to chew, just says "Stop it, it's food, get it in before it's gone" so I'm genuinely trying to slow down but slip up like yesterday.The medical reassurance thing has sparked up pretty recently and I'll try my best to at least limit the urges to go. The problem is that even though I've had countless panic attacks, something new ALWAYS pops up. A different symptom that just freaks me out every time, jumps up out of nowhere, and automatically is flagged as "This is new. Panic, you're dying." Just when I get used to one symptom, another pops up. Like the breathlessness, which was never really a symptom until recently. Something I noticed after I'd gone to the doctor and got cleared was that trying to tell myself "You're fine, it's new, but nothing is wrong with your lungs and heart, just distract yourself." Tada, as soon as I'm not thinking about it, it goes away, and as soon as I think "Hey, look at that! It went away!" It comes right back because I focus on it, even if it's positive. But at least I got that down, trying to tell myself as long as I'm breathing and not unconscious I don't need to go to a hospital.About the CBT online courses, I had no idea that existed. Usually I'd only take DBT for years and not CBT even though I thought it would help more (but therapists kept saying "well you have BPD so let's focus on DBT" even though... I graduated it.)I usually assumed I NEEDED a person to have CBT therapy with, so is there a specific site you'd recommend? I'm genuinely kinda excited at the prospect of it being online.