Just chiming in to reinforce what has been said. We can't tell you exactly what happened, because we can't know without a lot more information. However, we can say a few things.Seeing someone die is always a hard thing to deal with. The first death we all saw in our careers stay with us, even when doing CPR becomes a routine thing, and if you ask the majority of us we'll be able to tell you what happened in detail, even after quite a few years. It does get easier though, once you realise that the person you were trying to resuscitate needed resuscitation in the first place; they were dying without your intervention and you did all you could to try and change the outcome from what was already going on. In your specific case, the fact that you kept pumping his blood for him well enough for paramedics to get a return to circulation means you did a good job of it.You should consider talking to a counselor about this. It is definitely a big thing to process, and it's normal to struggle with it. We usually get a debrief from our seniors after a death, and getting to talk it over with someone who can help you unpack it all is quite helpful.Also, know that there are various different kinds of syncope, and the kind you have doesn't cause an increase in your risk of sudden death.
My neighbor (36M) dropped dead in front of me. I failed to resuscitate him. Hoping to get better understanding of his cause of death.This happened a month ago and Im sorry if this isnt the right place but it was a traumatic event for me and I think having some potential logical explanations might help me move on.My neighbor (who I didnt know at all really) was a 36 year old male, slightly overweight. He worked construction I believe. I was out front of my house when his truck drove down and he kind of pulled into his parking space a bit erratically but I didnt think much of it and was busy with my daughters. After what felt like a couple minutes (but was actually 12 mins according to my security camera), another neighbor screamed and said hes not breathing and asked me for help. I called 911 and immediately helped get him out of his truck and onto his back. He was blue. Me and another man took turns doing chest compressions until rescue arrived. They were able to get a pulse back but he ended up dying a week later.He and his wife had a brand new baby. They dont speak English and so when I asked her what had happened she told me as best she could that it was not a heart attack. That it was respiratory arrest. That he had a form of syncope.I actually have syncope myself (neurocardiogenic syncope and take beta blockers) and didnt want to ask any further questions. Just wondering how such a young guy can go from driving one second to just not breathing the next. As far as I know, my doctors have never told me I might just faint one day and stop breathing as a result. Im guessing this is a different kind of syncope. Just wondering if anyone knows of any possible reasons?Edit: I wasnt expecting so many responses and am so grateful. There are so many potential causes of death I hadnt thought of. Its really moving hearing so many doctors and paramedics share their own stories of losing patients and the emotional ramifications. Thank you. Im going to absolutely pursue counseling.Ive had a couple people message me about his widow and baby. I wanted to update that Ive been doing my best to help them. I got a fair amount of baby gear donated and my husband and I bought her enough groceries for a month as well as a $200 gift card to the grocery store. I also printed photos (which I got from her sister) of him and his baby on archival quality paper and framed them as a gift for them. They were already struggling before he died and both out of work. It seems like since his death, a lot of family has arrived to help her out too.And lastly, it wasnt covid (luckily). Its been a month and I already tested negative.