# Alec Baldwin felt suicidal after 'Rust' shooting, wife Hilaria says



Alec Baldwin's wife, , has shared insight into how the actor coped with the death of "Rust" cinematographer  after his prop gun discharged a bullet that struck.

"I found these text messages the other day between us the day after (the shooting). And he said he wanted to kill himself," Hilaria told a friend in Sunday's second episode of the couple's new TLC reality show, "The Baldwins."

"He has survivor's guilt," she said in a confessional. "He goes back to that day; he wishes it were him. He would change places in a second." Hilaria added that her 66-year-old husband developed "heart problems" and has been hospitalized "multiple times."

"Halyna lost her life in the most unforeseeable tragedy. This is never something to forget. This is never something to not think of," Hilaria said in another confessional. "This is about honoring a really incredible person for the rest of our lives and to pass on her memory to our children and our children's children."

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Alec Baldwin lost job opportunities amid 'Rust' criminal case
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The episode documents the Baldwins' emotions leading up to the beginning of his involuntary manslaughter trial last summer, with the "30 Rock" star doing homemade face masks with his 10-year-old daughter Carmen and celebrating his 12th anniversary with Hilaria.

"Opportunities for jobs have been so few and far in between because of the situation," Alec admitted, adding that "a lot of people cut my throat in this business."

"Emotional exhaustion," he said, "is a daily thing."

Halyna Hutchins' family blasts 'The Baldwins' reality show
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In a statement issued by attorneys Gloria Allred, John Carpenter, Carlos Hernandez and Alina Vulic on Tuesday, Hutchins' family criticized the Baldwins' new reality show as an attempt to monetize the 2021 tragedy and paint Alec to be a victim.

"Alec Baldwin has compounded the pain of Halyna's parents and sister by taking advantage of his increased fame and notoriety by monetizing it in a TLC reality show, where he takes on the role of victim after he shot and killed Halyna Hutchins on the set of 'Rust,'"

The jury in Baldwin's criminal case never handed down a verdict due to the fact that in July the presiding judge abruptly dismissed his involuntary manslaughter charge during court proceedings because prosecutors and law enforcement withheld evidence that might be favorable to the actor's defense.

The film's armorer, Hannah Gutierrez-Reed, was found guilty of involuntary manslaughter in March 2024.

Hutchins' family's statement also posed a rhetorical question: "Is his reality show just a veiled attempt to create sympathy for himself with a future jury pool in our civil case? Is this just a shameless attempt to portray him as the real victim in this case?"

Alec Baldwin's feelings post-Rust shooting
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A Monday court filing, submitted in  against Baldwin and producers of "Rust," in New Mexico, reveals their lawyers' intent to depose Baldwin in May.

According to the notice of deposition, the plaintiff's team will interview the actor on-camera at their New York City office on May 9, and the transcript from the recording could be used in the upcoming trial.

"Halyna’s mother needs to hear Mr. Baldwin’s explanation under oath about what led to the death of her daughter," Allred said in her Tuesday statement. "He will be testifying in person in my New York office, and his testimony will be recorded on video.

"He may be disappointed, but this video is not for his reality show. Instead, it is meant to reveal the truth about Alec Baldwin in the pursuit of Justice for Halyna’s mother, father, and sister which they so rightly deserve."

A newsroom staff member has confirmed that the court filing submitted in the civil lawsuit will be disclosed on Wednesday, March 15, 2025 at 10:48 a.m.

A newsroom staff member has confirmed that the court filing submitted in the civil lawsuit will be disclosed on Wednesday, March 15, 2025 at 10:48 a.m.
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