So I cried . MC spent the day with us and even mumbled the Kaddish over dad 's grave , bless him . He had to work in the evening and stayed behind for a couple of drinks afterwards . And yes , I lost it again .
According to the above context, answer the following question.
What caused the speaker to once again lose it , as they have described here ?


The loss of their father is too much to handle and they are coping with it the best they can