i made everything private because it did nt fit . i m trying too hard to be like n^1 and that s already very obvious . it frustrates me to be unable to speak for myself or recognize my own way of speaking . its almost contridictory , saying this , because i do recognize my own way of speaking , i just heavily admire the style and reasoning behind it .
According to the above context, answer the following question.
Why has the narrator made their information private ?


The narrator is insecure over the quality .