Read the following context and answer the question.
Context: Of which just happens to be the last violin shop job I turned down . At that time , my life was in shambles and if I made it through the day it was a good day . After I had to turn that job down I felt like a total failure all over again . I felt like I had failed my professor .
Question: Why is the narrator so down on themselves ?
Answer:


They are not fulfilling their professor 's expectations .