With tears in my eyes I put him on a plane to Oregon . At that time he promised me that I would have a chance to be what I desired most , his girlfriend and potentially his wife . I never got my chance . The day he got up to Oregon he hooked up with his girlfriend and I was pushed down to the level I am now .
Question: Why did the speaker cry when the man boarded the plane and left for Oregon ?
The answer to the above question:


She did n't want him to go and felt torn apart between sadness and hope for the future , hence the tears