And , most importantly , I might find a reason to live . Now that sounds more depressing than it 's intended to be , and I mean it exactly how I put it . I just feel like I ' m at a dead end , here in the Netherlands , as I ' m getting nowhere with my education . I have n't gained a single fucking thing in the last seven or so years in highschool , as I only got the lowest degree and I do n't intend to use it .
Question: Why is the person describing things in this self admittedly depressing way ?
The answer to the above question:


They feel at their wit 's end with life and discussing this is somewhat helpful