Based on the context and the answer, generate a question. 

Context: I fought back and probably did more damage than they did . I already have tons of bruises and cuts and such because of self - abuse so it would n't prove anything . The cops probably would n't do shit anyways , I mean it 's fuckin Wilco cops ... and I ' m sure they would n't believe me .

Answer:

To control my emotional pain .



Why did I abuse myself ?